Do any of you feel like CTB is one of those things you'll probably think about for the rest of your life but never actually go through with? I've been having these thoughts since I was a child and even when life feels completely unbearable it still seems like something I'll just keep thinking about in the background without ever acting on it. It's almost like a constant companion that never quite becomes real.
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DarkFriend.
Neverending Suffering
- May 1, 2022
- 103
For me life is like a submarine that can't ever resurface and resupply (because to do so would be tantamount to rebirth), and so in the journey of wandering around until some tragedy befalls me, if it does not, then all that there will be is for the machine to break down; and so there may come a tipping point, a point at which the cost of continuing will outweigh the indubitable release of death, whereupon I do indeed see myself doing it.Upvote 0
VanillaCake
Let death be kinder than man
- Aug 26, 2021
- 97
I should've died when I attempted back in 2021.
Now, I'm waiting for some things to fall into place. Of course, I cannot predict the future as to whether or not I will succeed (so really the answer should be "I don't know"), but I truly wish I will ctb.
Hardest part is letting others down and causing tremendous pain to my loved ones.Upvote 0
SASU-KE
How I get up when I hear the alarm ↑
- Nov 26, 2025
- 1,148
There's no way to escape full suspension hanging is there?.Once you step off your support you're done.
If ever my health starts to fail, I'm done. Hanging, it is.Upvote 0
I was using a harness to take alot of the weight off. Still almost passed out and was quire disassociated and didn't know where I was for 20 seconds.Upvote 0Similar threads
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