Do you think you will see next year?

[Lost Magic]

Is anybody planning on catching the bus this year or not much after? Life is worth fighting for if you have good opportunities for positive changes. In my case, I just don't see things getting all that much better. I am seriously contemplating saying farewell near the end of the year. I am so tired and sad I just can't see any other way. It will take more than a miracle at this point for me to want to stay. Who knows. The older I get the more I have lost and the fight to live just doesn't feel worth the effort anymore. I just want to be with my mother and brother in heaven.

 

[Hurt]

I don't think about that anymore. Now I ask myself if I will see next month or week

 

[boc]

Is anybody planning on catching the bus this year or not much after? Life is worth fighting for if you have good opportunities for positive changes. In my case, I just don't see things getting all that much better. I am seriously contemplating saying farewell near the end of the year. I am so tired and sad I just can't see any other way. It will take more than a miracle at this point for me to want to stay. Who knows. The older I get the more I have lost and the fight to live just doesn't feel worth the effort anymore. I just want to be with my mother and brother in heave

I'd say 50/50 I see next year. I hope I can find the courage to get it done when I have the chance.

 

[TheYounger]

Yeah. I'm really not sure. I have my method of catching the bus prepared so honestly i can leave whenever the time seems right.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

I hope not. I gotta get a grip and just do it, cause it's seriously getting weird.

 

[western_heart]

Probably. I want to go now but I don't think I will go through with it as long as my current living situation is stable

Plus, I have tickets for a concert in 2022

 

[Seiba]

I covered this a fair amount when it came to a post asking about courage. I think I'll be stuck here for a while longer just because of how things played out, but it is a matter of time unless things suddenly get better. Sorry about the loss of your family members.

 

[return2dreamland]

next year just seems like another year of misery, so i dont want to see it <3

 

[r2d2020]

Tonight if all goes well. I am getting ready to post my goodbye. I am feeling oddly calm, but that's probably due to taking benzos all day.

 

[Seiba]

Tonight if all goes well. I am getting ready to post my goodbye. I am feeling oddly calm, but that's probably due to taking benzos all day.

I wish you peace if that's your choice, though it may sound like a cliché to say.

 

[r2d2020]

I wish you peace if that's your choice, though it may sound like a cliché to say.

It's not and thank you.

 

[Bullit]

I hope by next year it will be over.

 

[Efilismislife]

I thought i wont see this year.
and then when it comes to my birthday i always wonder.....

I don't think about that anymore. Now I ask myself if I will see next month or week

Yeah same.

 

[loopylou]

Nope.

 

[xkonstantinexx]

I think about CTB almost daily. Even on good days because I know it'll not last. The desire is in place but I do not have the means as of yet. Plus, I've got loose ends that I'd like to close out before proceeding to CTB.

I'm hoping I don't even need to see what Q4 of this year brings..

 

[Kimuraaaa]

pretty sure I won't, I'll probably be gone within a few weeks if all goes to plan, but I don't know for sure.

 

[DelilahJones]

Probably as someone has to take care of my dog and I don't trust anyone else to do it.

 

[Tired Nacho]

With how things are going lately I don't really think I will, but probably won't have the courage, money or resources to do it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't want to see next year. I just don't know if I will manage to do it though. Whatever happens I will never reach an old age. I will get desperate at some point and I will find a way.

 

[Rae82]

I don't want to see next year in the state my health is in and it's not going to improve. I want to be here for my little girl but not like I am now. I'm in hell every day.

 

[Largeletters]

I don't really plan on being around to see the fourth of July, much less the first day of 2022... but I'll probably end up seeing it anyways :( if things work out, I'll be gone ASAP.

 

[Bedrock48]

As of right now I'm still living day by day. Most days its just "I've got to do enough to see tomorrow" rinse and repeat. That definitely puts seeing next year in doubt but I'm still actively trying to better my existence and I guess "recover". Maybe 75/25 right now since it feels like odds are against me.

 

[Scribble Fan]

I hope not. I'm not sure I can take another 6 months of this existence.

 

[Solar1703]

I had rather not.

 

[it's_all_a_game]

Nope; hopefully gone before January 1, 2022

 

[BeyondGoodNEvil]

probably
i always imagine catching the bus end of the week of but it never happens
its just im too weak and scared.My attempt ,it shocked me its too damn hard to do it.

 

[Lolkillme]

I fucking hope not

 

[Eire1992]

No. If my plans come to fruition I won't see the end of July. If they don't, I'll be backed into a corner and will have to go down another route. Cross that bridge if and when I come to it, I do have backup plans, I just don't like them as much.

 

[Jinnberg]

I hope I don't live past this year, I'm so tired of it all. I also just have an intense fear of aging, simply thinking about it nearly sends me into a panic attack. It sounds stupid, but I've always felt that way about aging, it's always been a terrifying concept to me.

I'm not sure why anyone would willingly put themselves through such an awful experience. Watching yourself slowly deteriorate doesn't sound like a good time at all.

 

[Xaxysh]

not at all, ideally i will be dead by end of next month.