Do you think you ever had a chance?

[NotWorthLiving]

No

 

[stargazer]

No because I have a physical issue since birth (a slender frame) and no muscle mass. Makes labour work impossible. Feel tired a lot and people think it's laziness. It's not.
I don't think I've ever had a chance. Crooked teeth, bad IQ, I could go on.

 

[lost illusions]

My bio donors fucked up when they fucked

 

[Final Escape]

do you think you ever had a chance of living a happy and fulfilling life or do you think you were born hopeless?

i think there were some decisions i could've made that would've led to a somewhat more pleasant situation than the one i'm in. who knows, though, might've been worse now if i did. i think the only way i could've lived a truly fulfilling life is if i was born into an entirely different environment with a different brain in a different society. if i was, i guess i wouldn't really be me though, so i guess i don't think i ever really had a chance.

If I had been given up for adoption I might have had a chance at a decent life but I would have had to be put into intensive therapy in my teens to prevent further damage to myself at the very least.

 

[Bread]

I wonder about this all the time. A big factor in me wanting to ctb is that I have a chronic illness, but I think I was already depressed before that happened. It might have taken longer, and I might have had a few "good" years, but I think I would have ended up here anyway.
Other than not getting sick the other thing I think about is how my life could have turned out if I grew up somewhere else. Even in a town half an hour down the road, I could've been a completely different person. That said, I'll probably never know for sure if my depression was triggered by the way the other children treated me or if my genetics were just a ticking time bomb.

 

[Bread]

If I had been given up for adoption I might have had a chance at a decent life but I would have had to be put into intensive therapy in my teens to prevent further damage to myself at the very least.

I was adopted when I was two days old. It definitely gave me a huge step up in life but I managed to mess things up anyway. Not that you would have had the same experience though. I think a lot of how I ended up is from my biology and not necessarily external factors.

 

[okyeah]

i never had a chance. My parents are mentally ill. They are incompetent. It is not surprising I have had all the problems I did. It was over before it began. I have been coping with a bad life and have had an addictive personality since I was 12. What is the point of continuing. I get 0 enjoyment out of anything. I have no support system. I cannot connect with anyone on any level, nor does anyone want to connect with me.

 

[Xaphous]

Abuse my entire childhood ruined it for me, self imposed isolation to 'protect' myself with the only way I knew how, developed strong avoidance tendencies and so isolated my whole life as still now. What fcking angers me the most after is the lack of understanding, non existent help or support. Why not go to a therapist so they can sit their smirking or tell me how others have had it worse within 10 minutes of meeting me, talk to me in a condescending tone, talked to like a child or have them get angry because you don't want their shitty pharma meds to dumb you down and make you even more numb then section you against your will because you didn't take their non existent 'help'. Then on top you're seen as weak by everyone else for not having anything going in life, with more shaming putdowns belittlement and bullying like all of this is my fucking fault.

 

[BjartNO]

do you think you ever had a chance of living a happy and fulfilling life or do you think you were born hopeless?

I had a good chance.
I fucked it up.
It was just me.

 

[azucaramargo]

do you think you ever had a chance of living a happy and fulfilling life or do you think you were born hopeless?

i think there were some decisions i could've made that would've led to a somewhat more pleasant situation than the one i'm in. who knows, though, might've been worse now if i did. i think the only way i could've lived a truly fulfilling life is if i was born into an entirely different environment with a different brain in a different society. if i was, i guess i wouldn't really be me though, so i guess i don't think i ever really had a chance.

It's funny that a lot of us on here blame ourselves, and we feel we made some wrong decision along the way. I wonder if that's really true. I mean, maybe the deck was just stacked against us. It's one thing to feel bad about one's present circumstances. But, regretting the past -- something I do A LOT -- just sucks. If you can avoid doing it, you should.

 

[lululoo]

I think if a certain type of person had come into my life, maybe. When I was a child, an adult who could fill in as a loving a parent. When I was older, a guy who could be my boyfriend and love me and help me develop self-esteem. But I don't think I could have made it different on my own. Sure, I made lots of mistakes (LOTS) but it's hard not to when you have no self-worth, no gut feelings, severe depression, etc.

 

[[NoName]]

Yes, and that what's makes me feel so shitty. I had my life on a silver platter and I just chucked it out the window.

 

[LifeSick]

Depending on the day I still think I have a chance.

 

[LifeSick]

Depending on the day I still think I have a chance.

Yeah, I know, silly me.

 

[Redt2go]

I did. But then I messed it up bc of my mental health. So I guess not really lol