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noname223

Angelic
Aug 18, 2020
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I think my nervous system is pretty fucked. I am overly anxious all the fucking time. Popping benzos and sleep medication (z-drugs) would help me a lot. I took benzos for a certain time period and the withdrawal was nightmarish. But it helped me to survive college temporarily.

I could imagine it would be a lot of fun to abuse them without negative consequences. In real life there negative consequences and I hate the notion to be with my back against the wall.

I never took hard drugs, never smoked weed and tbh I never intentionally drank alcohol. But I could imagine drugs could alleviate the pain. However, certainly not for my brain. I had stress induced psychosis. Psychoactive drugs would induce new psychoses.

I sometimes imagine being on drugs similar to being manic. But some people in this forum told me there are some differences. Being manic was a great time. But I could never be in a relationship while being manic. I like to listen to Lil Peep. His nervous system sounds similar fucked as mine. And I think being in his skin was not always very pleasant.

I think maybe I could enjoy live if I could take benzos forever without addiction etc. Science should work on inventing such drugs. I don't know anything about chemistry but it sounds easier than to upload our consciousness to the internet or shit like that.
 
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Captainfalconcrou

Member
Apr 21, 2024
8
Probably not since I think most of the nice effects make you unable to interact properly with other people
 
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PINKIESISU

Member
Apr 21, 2024
52
I think my nervous system is pretty fucked. I am overly anxious all the fucking time. Popping benzos and sleep medication (z-drugs) would help me a lot. I took benzos for a certain time period and the withdrawal was nightmarish. But it helped me to survive college temporarily.

I could imagine it would be a lot of fun to abuse them without negative consequences. In real life there negative consequences and I hate the notion to be with my back against the wall.

I never took hard drugs, never smoked weed and tbh I never intentionally drank alcohol. But I could imagine drugs could alleviate the pain. However, certainly not for my brain. I had stress induced psychosis. Psychoactive drugs would induce new psychoses.

I sometimes imagine being on drugs similar to being manic. But some people in this forum told me there are some differences. Being manic was a great time. But I could never be in a relationship while being manic. I like to listen to Lil Peep. His nervous system sounds similar fucked as mine. And I think being in his skin was not always very pleasant.

I think maybe I could enjoy live if I could take benzos forever without addiction etc. Science should work on inventing such drugs. I don't know anything about chemistry but it sounds easier than to upload our consciousness to the internet or shit like that.
Nope I will never take any drugs ever oh wait that's right I'm already doing that they wanted me to start taking high blood pressure medication at 20 years old and I refused and I'm 50 now and I still refuse and I never have and I never will fuck man's medicine fuck any medicine fuck procedures fuck cures the only cure for me is to be restored to my real self and life and how can that take place that's right through death and separation of this body there's no other way and no fucking man's medicine shit will ever do anything close to that
 
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divinemistress36

Enlightened
Jan 1, 2024
1,842
I felt normal the first time I took benzos I was like wow is this what neurotypicals feel like ? Of course over time one builds a tolerance and they stop working and the withdrawals are hell. I would take them for life If it wasn't for the negative consequences of them
 
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LilysAngel

LilysAngel

Experienced
Apr 30, 2024
249
I use to have a fenty problem. But if I could safely take that every single day without
A)being scared to die, arrested, or thrown in a psych ward
B)the negative stigma of being a "junkie"

Then probably.
 
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thenamingofcats

annihilation anxiety
Apr 19, 2024
358
Actually yeah I think it would work for me, as long as building tolerance isn't an issue. I would go for a stimulant.
 
thealteredmind

thealteredmind

Member
Apr 2, 2024
99
of course man. I felt better on olanzapine for sleep + escitalopram for mood. 20% better.
until they stopped working and ... well.. check my posts.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
7,758
Not sure. I haven't tried that many drugs. Fluoexetine (Proxac) did nothing. St John's Wort maybe helped a bit. I don't see how they solve life's problems though. You still have to work to support yourself. I've yet to see a drug that makes that ok. A third of the people in my friend's workplace are on antidepressants. They still sound depressed though!
 
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martinso67

All human rights are important
Feb 5, 2021
168
Nope I will never take any drugs ever oh wait that's right I'm already doing that they wanted me to start taking high blood pressure medication at 20 years old and I refused and I'm 50 now and I still refuse and I never have and I never will fuck man's medicine fuck any medicine fuck procedures fuck cures the only cure for me is to be restored to my real self and life and how can that take place that's right through death and separation of this body there's no other way and no fucking man's medicine shit will ever do anything close to that
I am taking high blood pressure medication. It has no side effects and it's safe medication. I will not and would not take it forever or many years though.

But yeah I hate the pharma industry. And how the government regulates it.
Medications such as N that are safe (to end ones life) and people who want that medication know what they want. These medication are not really available because of regulation. But SSRIs and anti psychotic drugs are available, which can kill you slowly when taking too long or for some people. And they have many dangerous side effects. And there is a study that says SSRIs do not cure depression or really work
 
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ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
2,665
Nope. There isn't really a drug on this planet that will make me not work and not make me suffer through old age so, no, I wouldn't choose to live life due to drugs
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
9,051
A drug won't solve my problem that is making me suicidal rather it may increase the problem.
 
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