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noname223
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- Aug 18, 2020
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I think my nervous system is pretty fucked. I am overly anxious all the fucking time. Popping benzos and sleep medication (z-drugs) would help me a lot. I took benzos for a certain time period and the withdrawal was nightmarish. But it helped me to survive college temporarily.
I could imagine it would be a lot of fun to abuse them without negative consequences. In real life there negative consequences and I hate the notion to be with my back against the wall.
I never took hard drugs, never smoked weed and tbh I never intentionally drank alcohol. But I could imagine drugs could alleviate the pain. However, certainly not for my brain. I had stress induced psychosis. Psychoactive drugs would induce new psychoses.
I sometimes imagine being on drugs similar to being manic. But some people in this forum told me there are some differences. Being manic was a great time. But I could never be in a relationship while being manic. I like to listen to Lil Peep. His nervous system sounds similar fucked as mine. And I think being in his skin was not always very pleasant.
I think maybe I could enjoy live if I could take benzos forever without addiction etc. Science should work on inventing such drugs. I don't know anything about chemistry but it sounds easier than to upload our consciousness to the internet or shit like that.
I could imagine it would be a lot of fun to abuse them without negative consequences. In real life there negative consequences and I hate the notion to be with my back against the wall.
I never took hard drugs, never smoked weed and tbh I never intentionally drank alcohol. But I could imagine drugs could alleviate the pain. However, certainly not for my brain. I had stress induced psychosis. Psychoactive drugs would induce new psychoses.
I sometimes imagine being on drugs similar to being manic. But some people in this forum told me there are some differences. Being manic was a great time. But I could never be in a relationship while being manic. I like to listen to Lil Peep. His nervous system sounds similar fucked as mine. And I think being in his skin was not always very pleasant.
I think maybe I could enjoy live if I could take benzos forever without addiction etc. Science should work on inventing such drugs. I don't know anything about chemistry but it sounds easier than to upload our consciousness to the internet or shit like that.
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