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Unknown21

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Apr 25, 2023
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My whole life is now devoted to CTB. I literally cannot think of anything else and all I want is death.
 
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manic-dream

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No. I've been thinking about it since I was 12. Made my first attempt recently at 19 that was shitty and failed because I wasn't ready still.

It's funny in a way I think lol.
 
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Unknown21

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Apr 25, 2023
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No. I've been thinking about it since I was 12. Made my first attempt recently at 19 that was shitty and failed because I wasn't ready still.

It's funny in a way I think lol.
I am truly sorry for what you went through. A failed attempt can be tough and frustrating. What was your method by the way?
 
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No. IMO you can be in incredible pain, constantly thinking about CTB, and still not be ready. I've been suicidal for years and it was even worse than it is now in previous periods of my life, but it's only now that I think the time is actually right.
 
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manic-dream

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I am truly sorry for what you went through. A failed attempt can be tough and frustrating. What was your method by the way?
It was a stupid one even though I knew so much about suicide. It was cutting my wrist trying to get to the artery. It was a quick thinking thing and I couldn't even find the pulse before just doing it lmaoo
 
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cosmic-freedom

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Mar 18, 2024
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Ever since I was six,I fantasized about ctb.
 
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Aug 12, 2019
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My whole life is now devoted to CTB. I literally cannot think of anything else and all I want is death.

Do you think that constantly and continuously thinking about CTB is evidence of readiness?

My whole life is now devoted to CTB. I literally cannot think of anything else and all I want is death.

yeah , and I think that's the top way to get ready if you aren't there yet then continously thinking about it will soon get you ready
 
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Do you think that constantly and continuously thinking about CTB is evidence of readiness?

My whole life is now devoted to CTB. I literally cannot think of anything else and all I want is death.

yeah , and I think that's the top way to get ready if you aren't there yet then continously thinking about it will soon get you ready
I think I'm ready to do it, but I want to make sure I don't change my mindset or panic after drinking SN while waiting to pass out. If I had Benzos it would be much easier.
Ever since I was six,I fantasized about ctb.
I have had serious suicidal tendencies since the age of 8 years. I feel for you and how tired it is that all your preoccupation is with death and searching for it
It was a stupid one even though I knew so much about suicide. It was cutting my wrist trying to get to the artery. It was a quick thinking thing and I couldn't even find the pulse before just doing it lmaoo
Unfortunately, cutting is notorious for its ineffectiveness as a method. Anyway, I'm glad you're okay and here with us now.
 
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