I feel guilt with happiness because I feel like I don't deserve it. It feels like love can go away in an instant and I'm not good enough for it to stick around. Nothing makes my suicidal thoughts/feelings go away. Is it like that for you?
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hihi2027
Member
- Jul 29, 2026
- 78
I have problems with that as well. Always have suicide in my mind. It never goes away
_Gollum_
I wish the ring had never come to me
- Mar 9, 2024
- 1,820
Always. Existence is fundamentally wrong. Happiness just lets you cope with it better. It's a bandaid on a gaping wound.Short answer: Yes.
Longer Answer: The desire to die is always there, regardless of whether I'm happy, sad, or just blase. My emotions only affect the likelihood of carrying out the deed myself. Sad? Then the desire to self-delete increases. Happy? The desire diminishes, but I would still prefer not to be here.
TwistedNightmares
My life is torture
- Nov 1, 2025
- 390
Yes, I still want to die even when I feel happy for a brief moment. I know my life is not worth living in the long run.Similar threads
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