do you still cry?

[lnlybnny]

i see people who are so numb by the pain that they don't cry anymore, which sadly is not my case. i've been crying so much lately. i wish i didn't feel anything, it would be so much easier to ctb

 

[Agon321]

Honestly, I haven't cried in a relatively long time.

I used to cry regularly.
It allowed me to "reboot" my emotions.
I just felt better.

Now I don't cry anymore.
I do not know why.
I just don't feel like it.

 

[RoseGarden]

I used up all my tears nearly a decade ago

 

[Eudaimonic]

Not often, honestly.

 

[whywere]

Heavens, I am 68 and I cry a lot. I have a soft spot for helping folks and when I read something about someone hurting physically or mentally I cry. I also cry when my depression goes into high gear, this is me.

Walter

 

[Little_Suzy]

Yes, of course.

Recently, a number of the posts have been heartbreaking. Women and little girls do not merit such mistreatment. It's so sad that not long ago they were sharing their stories, and now some have ctb.

 

[lnlybnny]

Heavens, I am 68 and I cry a lot. I have a soft spot for helping folks and when I read something about someone hurting physically or mentally I cry. I also cry when my depression goes into high gear, this is me.

Walter

Yes, of course.

at least i'm not alone then :)

 

[yearsoflonliness]

I used to be completely numb/dead inside. Now that I'm actually getting ready to CTB soon I've been crying a lot more.

 

[divinemistress36]

I cry over over the littlest things I wish I could be more numb actually

 

[hadenough58]

There are times where for no apparent reason I feel the tears well up, other times it will be a place or recollection of better times in my life that is the cause.

 

[devoidvessel]

Every fuckin' day. I don't like to feel suicidal. If it was my choice, i would rather love to be alive and not to cry about it.

 

[alivefornow]

Sometimes. I go a few months without crying and then it starts over again. It's weird and I don't know what that's about.

If I'm crying over a song or a movie, it probably means I'm improving a little. If I'm crying over some personal trauma, it's really dark and hard to control.

But if I'm not crying at all, just hurting and losing my mind with no relief, then I'm at my lowest. That's when I can't distract my thoughts from taking my life.

I find it hard for me to believe I can feel happiness. It's been too long. Any improvement doesn't last very long and then I'm back in the self-feeding depression spiral.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Pretty much every day, multiple times.

 

[momento.mori]

I use to cry so much that I'd have to take benzos to call me down. Now I'm just so numb, I'm just exhausted with life.

 

[thelazyegg]

at least i'm not alone then :)

You are definitely not alone! I cry literally so much, I think I have started to get wrinkles from crying haha I wish I was numb! I'm jealous that people can not feel like they want to cry and they can even stop themselves. Everyone calls me a cry baby and I am

 

[GreenGlassDoor]

I find it really hard to cry. Its common for me to feel like crying but not be able to produce tears or anything. I can and do from everyday things like laughter, but its hard to cry just from raw emotions. But then every so often I break down completely. Its almost cyclical, if any of this makes sense.

 

[Have_a_nice_Life]

i see people who are so numb by the pain that they don't cry anymore, which sadly is not my case. i've been crying so much lately. i wish i didn't feel anything, it would be so much easier to ctb

i feel everything but am mostly unable to cry. Crying is cathartic to me but i can't.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, not really. I just feel tired of existing and dread for what lies ahead. Really wish I never existed more than anything, existing has only ever caused me to suffer, only death can bring me peace from this cruel, futile and undesirable existence.

 

[Throwawayacc3]

Yes.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Sometimes

 

[Red Moon]

No, I don't really cry.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I wish I could but I can't. I'm unfortunately one of those people who are just numb and cannot cry even if I wanted to

 

[billie]

I cry every fucking day

 

[BlankFace]

Not really.

 

[LunarLight]

I cry alone, every day, especially when I think of CTBing and leaving my partner alone. It breaks my heart.

 

[pilotviolin]

i see people who are so numb by the pain that they don't cry anymore, which sadly is not my case. i've been crying so much lately. i wish i didn't feel anything, it would be so much easier to ctb

i cant cry properly anymore i can get 2-5 tears if im lucky but i feel the strong emotions that should come with tears. i am wishing those in this thread who need to cry a cathartic moment of release, and those who cry often some comfort and relief.

 

[mtoro998]

Yeah every day when im alone. I still cant believe that this is what my life has become and this is the end.

 

[Malaria]

I've cried almost every day this past week. I cried today too.

 

[BackToLobby]

I cry almost every day. I try to forget the memories that hurt me but I can't get over it even though everyone around me has already done so and that makes it hurt a lot more.

 

[CalCal]

I usually cry whenever I think about anything to do with my past, and how happy I use to be. I don't really cry in any other circumstance, I've just become numb to everything else. Crying makes me feel so weak even though it feels good