Discussion Do you prefer improving your life or being dead?

[Tiburcio]

I noticed there are two kinds of persons here: the ones who want to live but due to their circumstances they have to leave it and the others who never liked life in general. Do you prefer being alive if it was possible or disappear without a trace?

Obviously I would disappear in any circumstance. Others could fake this is good but not me. I refuse this madhouse the world has become.


Edit: I consider living for helping others with problems, but the effort of one person will never be enough, sadly.

 

[Mari]

I wish I had done things differently and could contribute with something worth-while, so although I find the world sadly distressing, it isn't my reason for planning to go as I am.

 

[ScaredOfLife]

If it were possible, I'd prefer to stay alive.

 

[Midnight]

If i could buy myself the things that i like to keep me busy enough to surpress my depression for the rest of my life then i would stick arround. But that would mean winning the lottery.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Edit: I consider living for helping others with problems, but the effort of one person will never be enough, sadly.

I wholly agree. What brings me some peace are two things: (1) confrontation-free sharing with others who feel similarly about suicide & (2) feeling I've decreased another being's suffering. Since I'm very depressed and isolated, (2) is just a fantasy usually. It also seems to me that as we humans prosper, other beings invariably suffer. A lot. Because enough of us are OK with that, so the more of us there are...

So ideally, I'd rather just never to have existed. I respect others' different views, but I'm confident life usually involves more suffering than contentedness, let alone joy. And, again, joy too often comes at the expense of other beings' pain.

 

[wanttodie]

I'd prefer to dead i do,t want to be a alive.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

I think life is fundamentally broken, pointless and disgusting. I want out.

 

[Jon86]

That's the thing, I can't improve my life. My problems are never going away, i've tried for 20 years. I'd prefer to live if I had any control but I don't.

 

[skitliv]

Theres things about my past that haunt me and I know if I've made them differently I woulnd not be in this position.

But also I feel like this when I think about the grand scheme of things:

I think life is fundamentally broken, pointless and disgusting. I want out.

 

[creatureoflight]

I'd prefer to live too, but I'm at a tipping point right now in seeing whether things will get better or not. So if it were my choice-of course I would want to, but if the circumstances get too tough being dead is better for me.

 

[Dip]

I wouldn't mind staying alive if only to see how this train wreck called civilization crashes and burns out of morbid curiosity (and there are still some things that amuse me).

However I'm tired of jumping through hoops and engaging in pointless mundane busywork to prove how "productive" I am in this cancer. I'm sick of the delusions and ignorance of the majority and resent spending any time with almost everyone.

I suppose I could try to "improve" my life by either getting some shitty job jumping through pointless hoops for some moron who kissed the right ass to get their position or I could again try my hand at trying to sell pointless crap to customers in order to "earn" some precious currency to keep a roof over my head. I don't want to anymore. I've grown sick and tired of playing this ridiculous game.

EDIT: yes I realize that civilization needs most people to be working to keep it functioning. I just don't give a damn about my "contribution" to it, insignificant as it is. If everyone were to stop fulfilling their intended roles this show would stop, and I'd say to hell with it.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I suppose I could try to "improve" my life by either getting some shitty job jumping through pointless hoops for some moron who kissed the right ass to get their position or I could again try my hand at trying to sell pointless crap to customers in order to "earn" some precious currency to keep a roof over my head. I don't want to anymore. I've grown sick and tired of playing this ridiculous game.

Exaaaaactly.

 

[ge0rge]

Improving my life, definitely. My situation right now sucks ogre dick in hell and my mind is tattered, but considering death -- like, not being able to hear or make music, or being with dear friends, or getting lost in a foreign country, or doing work that's truly satisfying, fuck, even just laughing at vines -- I'd rather not.

Doesn't mean anything, though. My instincts will get the better of me, sooner or later. My instincts and my anger.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

My situation right now sucks ogre dick in hell....

I think you win the daily prize for most colorful expression. :)

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

Bump

 

[millefeui]

My life can't be improved to acceptable levels, so dead.

 

[sadak_the_wanderer]

Rather a lot of improbable events and changes would have to occur for my course to be "corrected." Would I like a fairy godmother to wave her wand and solve my problems? Certainly. I won't be holding my breath, though ... at least not until it comes time for that first of the last inhalations.

 

[Comatose11]

My life is fucked up beyond repair. The ways that it can get better will not be repaired to acceptable levels. But there are also many things that I will never be able to change about it that are permanent. So death it is.

 

[agreement]

Improving my life will open the way of another sure enormous failure so better dead.
Let's say I improve my life and I live another 10 years mildly ok and then?
I'm going to win something, realize something meaningful for me or for umanity or for a random grain of sand in a random beach?
I truly doubt it.

 

[Tiburcio]

Improving my life will open the way of another sure enormous failure so better dead.
Let's say I improve my life and I live another 10 years mildly ok and then?
I'm going to win something, realize something meaningful for me or for umanity or for a random grain of sand in a random beach?
I truly doubt it.

I can't understand you more, man.

P.S. nice rope selfie

 

[RoloTomasi]

Sadly, my life can't just improve despite my best efforts. Some weird health problem forced me to put my life on hold, not even the docs could help even just a little. So yeah, it's just a matter of when, not if.

 

[agreement]

I can't understand you more, man.

P.S. nice rope selfie

Thanks buddy

 

[Tomasnil]

I guess i could change my life and improve my self i just dont want to as weird as it may sound im only happy when im depressed in pain and alone

 

[Moogle]

Nicer garbage is still garbage

 

[LoverofDeath]

It's weird how I somehow fit into both categories. I would prefer to die though.

 

[Deleted member 847]

I tried to improve, but then I thought: "I can improve myself, but I will never be able to improve the world" and I thought again "I don't want to be a part of the world". I just feel like I'm too smart to stay here and suffer life like an idiot, when there are ways you can bypass the whole process. They can stick their social rules up their asses.

 

[Blackbird]

If I could snap my fingers and magically fix both myself and this world I probably would, but that's completely unrealistic. Death isn't really a bad alternative, once you're dead you can't fuck up anymore.

 

[Nessa]

I think life is fundamentally broken, pointless and disgusting. I want out.

Totally agree!

 

[mattwitt]

Being dead would improve my life.

 

[Tiburcio]

Being dead would improve my life.

Yeah, I understand you prefectly.