Do you plan to leave a suicide note?

[sad]

If you said yes do you plan to leave one general note or write certain ones to certain people? Would you type or hand write it? Would you make it lengthier with more explanation and details or keep it short and sweet?

 

[WornOutLife]

Yes, I'll leave notes for my dad, nephew, mum, brother, my only friend left and my students.
I'll just tell them how much I love them and ask them not to grieve for me because I'm more than happy with the decision of leaving this world.

I might even record some goodbye videos for them too.

 

[Pookie]

Yes, I have 2 drafts on my phone. One will be a general one addressing a few people at the same time, the other to a specific person.

 

[Rayzieka]

I think I will. But instead of leaving hand written notes I might send timed emails that wont send until a time where I'm sure I would be confirmed dead or conscious enough to cancel the notes. This would be my best bet in my notes not being found until I'm long gone.

 

[sad]

Yes, I'll leave notes for my dad, nephew, mum, brother, my only friend left and my students.
I'll just tell them how much I love them and ask them not to grieve for me because I'm more than happy with the decision of leaving this world.

I might even record some goodbye videos for them too.

Same I am considering making videos too. How do you plan to send these videos? I want to make sure the right video gets to the right person. Do you think timed emails would work?

 

[WornOutLife]

Same I am considering making videos too. How do you plan to send these videos? I want to make sure the right video gets to the right person. Do you think timed emails would work?

Yes! Scheduled e-mails are a good idea but I also thought of uploading all my videos to a youtube channel in private, leave them my username and password and they could all watch the videos. Also, you can schedule videos on youtube so, I thought of doing that and automatically upload the videos every day or something like that, one by one, but the problem is that the videos would be public. I don't mind that but I think the private option or scheduled e-mails are better choices!

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

I will propably leave one general note in which I will name some members of my family and tell them how much I love them.
I will write it by my hand, because I think it's more personal than a pc version.
I will try to make it quite short only with the most important things, but I will see how much I want to say.

This is already on my mind (I want to write it to my mum):
"I never forgave you giving me life. But I hope you will forgive me taking my own life now."

 

[AndromedaZ]

No. Everyone that knows me either:
1. Is close enough to me to already know why I'd do it
2. Isn't someone I'd want to know why

Although, I might leave a postit that just says "sorry for the mess, use this to hire cleaners" on top of a stack of cash. That's about the only note that would make sense for me.

 

[Revered]

A short one to make it obvious no foul play was involved, which should be obvious enough but still... You don't want your parting to look suspicious because police will get involved after the fact and people around you will be questioned.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yeah. It will ease the pain for my family as the note will tell them that I am now in a better place and there is nothing they could have done. It would be a form of closure. It would be one note and probably quite long as I would be explaining why this is the best thing for me. It would be handwritten.

 

[Aeathelina]

Yes for select people but that's it.

 

[44nutz1977]

Yes! Scheduled e-mails are a good idea but I also thought of uploading all my videos to a youtube channel in private, leave them my username and password and they could all watch the videos. Also, you can schedule videos on youtube so, I thought of doing that and automatically upload the videos every day or something like that, one by one, but the problem is that the videos would be public. I don't mind that but I think the private option or scheduled e-mails are better choices!

Exactly what I have done. Private YT vids. I will make them visible just before I CTB

 

[Ch92921]

I wont leave a suicide note! I just want my soul to be free from this hell!

 

[Cant go back]

No. Because I wouldn't know what to say, and I don't think it would ease their pain anyway.

 

[looseye]

I don't have anything to say, really. The people I talk to don't understand or misunderstand my problems I've been trying to communicate to them so many times. It wouldn't make a lot of sense to explain myself. The only note I'll leave will be for whoever finds me: "No, this wasn't an accident. Sorry for the mess! Do a dead man a favor and don't develop a trauma over what you're looking at."

 

[Sarros]

Not sure. I like writing but I also hate it because I've never been completely satisfied with anything I've ever wrote and put out there. I'm not really good at getting my thoughts straight, I'd probably end up rambling on too long or forgetting something important. I don't know whether I'd say something to help the living cope or just say what I want to say. When I actually end up leaving, I can imagine that I wouldn't leave a note because otherwise the contents would be something I'd ruminate over a lifetime.

 

[nfives]

I'll definitely leave a note for my boyfriend. He deserves to know why and that it isn't his fault. I want him to live on without me, to be happy and find love again. For the rest... Idk.

 

[DoughRedMead]

I am sorry to bump up this old thread. I read today about someone who scheduled emails to their loved ones before they ctb. Do you think this is a good idea? It would be nice to let people who tried to help know how much a difference they have made, but at the same time, it seems a little cruel to remind them that I am gone.

 

[unnoticed]

honestly, i don't really want to, although i probably should. :-( there are, of course, so very many things i want my loved ones to know when i'm gone, but i just feel overwhelmed with the idea of gathering all my last thoughts. i don't even know where i'd begin. i do feel like i owe everyone an answer as to why i did it, i suppose.

 

[tipsytiger]

I am sorry to bump up this old thread. I read today about someone who scheduled emails to their loved ones before they ctb. Do you think this is a good idea? It would be nice to let people who tried to help know how much a difference they have made, but at the same time, it seems a little cruel to remind them that I am gone.

I think it depends on how you write the email. No matter what you do they will always remember that you're gone, but they will get over it at least that's what I believe

 

[Celerity]

Yes, the people in my life deserve to know my reasons. For them, I think it would be cruel to just go with no explanation. For others with more tumultuous relationships, silence might be more merciful (assuming they deserve the mercy).

 

[yuno]

I'm not very sure at the moment. Part of me feels like I've written too many notes and it'd probably be best just to go in silence. But at the same time, I want to express my love for my people too. Give them one last reassurance of how much they meant to me.

 

[speedbaby]

I actually had to postpone the date because of how long it took me to write what was originally supposed to be a note and ended up turning into almost a novel. I addressed it specifically to my daughter and told her that it's up to her how much and with whom she chooses to share it either in it's entirety or parts. I just wanted to minimize the impact on her and make sure explain it the best I could so that she wouldn't struggle with the questions "why?" or blame herself somehow. She knows my outlook on life and death and she partly agrees with my views but I know it's a big gap between a theoretical discussion and dealing with a loss.

 

[allblackallwhite]

If you said yes do you plan to leave one general note or write certain ones to certain people? Would you type or hand write it? Would you make it lengthier with more explanation and details or keep it short and sweet?

A short and sweet note with a sentence or two each specifically for the 4 special people, mostly apologies and regrets, and one all inclusive sentence for all the people that drove me here. Their names don't get to grace my note. I'm going to email it to my wife with a 3 day delayed send.

 

[home]

Im leaving a personal note for my mom and one for my best friend. Im also leaving one for the police to find. I dont want the police to find take the notes meant fpr my mom and friend because theyre not guranteed to get the original back. Sometimes theyll only give your loved ones a copy since the note is technically evidence and sometimes shit happens and it gets destroyed. Knowing my mom and friend theyll definitely want the original, so I want to at least give them that. So I plan to put the one for the police next to my body, and put theirs in a separate spot with instructions to not notify investigators of their individual note's existence

 

[KQuotientW]

Unfortunately, the police officer, Acting Sergeant K-- G-----, I was going to email, will be on shift when I CTB. I was hoping she wouldn't be working that shift and would find the email the next day. Alas, her shift starts at 3 pm, this week. Instead, I'll email the senior sergeant and the district inspector who work during the day. Police are partially responsible. I've been in contact with them for a while, because of stalker (not an ex) and my ex whom I have court orders against. I know the personal, work emails of these police members because of ongoing communication.

I can't be bothered with my family being notified because I haven't spoken to them in years and they don't deserve to know.

In my emails to police, I'll let them know that it's carbon monoxide from charcoal burning so any first responders aren't injured.

I'll never be free of predators trying to do something to me, and police will never pull their finger out to do their job and help me.

 

[makethepainstop]

If you said yes do you plan to leave one general note or write certain ones to certain people? Would you type or hand write it? Would you make it lengthier with more explanation and details or keep it short and sweet?

Why should I say anything to them as they didn't value me or talk to me when I was here. I would not give them the comfort, satisfaction, or dignity of a final word.
Screw them, they are too stupid to know what they have done anyway.

 

[thedaywillcome]

Still no answer if I will. Cant decide.

 

[Mtnwildflowers]

The last few weeks I've been obsessing about what I am going to write/leave for certain people. I know there are a few people who "care" about me that I'd like to write something to more for me. These few people were big parts of my life in the past (some of the only good parts really)

I feel like right now for me getting cards and including small momentos/pictures for certain people is more for me as I work on my closure with my future death.

Unfortunately with society as it is, I will die alone and not have opportunities to say things I may want to. I can't exactly say things in advance or people will intervene which goes against best chance at being successful. This also helps me overcome any small amounts of guilt I may have for a few family members/friends. Since society says I can't have my suicide be in the open with people aware in advance, it's all I can do to have some control in my final time alive.

 

[akirat9]

yeah i write note for myself listing all failings