Just realized that writing notes is absolutely exhausting. I originally planned to write a note for each of my friends and extended family members. It was way too draining having to explain my reasons for ctb and tailoring it to each person. I realized that in reality, they don't actually care too much about my problems. My friends rarely reach out to me and in general, people tend to back away when they realize that your problems are too uncomfortable for them. Essentially, they don't care about your issues until it's too late when they say stuff like "I wish I'd known" at your funeral. I don't judge too much as everyone has their own issues and lives, but I just don't care to give them the effort. It is what it is.
The only people who've truly and deeply cared for me are my direct family and ex girlfriend. I'll probably make a long, detailed note to each of them and do up a general note for everyone else.
The only people who've truly and deeply cared for me are my direct family and ex girlfriend. I'll probably make a long, detailed note to each of them and do up a general note for everyone else.
