Do you love yourself?

[volo]

Hate hate hate

 

[Cyaneed]

Only if I'm drunk or something.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I have many good sides, abilities and whatnot, but also negative sides and all the rest. Overall I think I'm not exactly a golden person. I hate the way people made me, the way I was forced to be due to the things I endured and suffered through. If I hate myself in an unhealthy way, it's due to others. Pure hatred.

 

[meowpuppy]

i used to hate myself, but now i'm pretty okay with, and even actively like, most parts of myself. i learned, through no small amount of effort, that it was the world that hated me, and that was no reason to hate myself.

 

[dyingisanart]

I don't. I really hate myself.

 

[bhaloo]

Same here. I am a pile of garbage. Even my mother hated me.

 

[LRkin]

Nope. I despise and constantly abuse myself.

 

[lv-nii]

I hate my existence

 

[darkestofkestrels]

Yes, but also no. My entire life, I've been both my harshest critic, but also biggest supporter. Most so the former than the latter. I overthink everything, turning small things into big things that should just be small things, and I hate it. It torments me. I wish I could turn my brain off. I wish I could of done better in so many different ways. I wish could just leave well enough alone instead of a stupid perfectionist mindset left on me from my upbringing. Constantly dwelling on my mistakes and all the ways they haunt me. I wish I could love myself on the same level as some of the people I know do. But instead I'm just in a love-hate relationship with myself. But a lot more hate than love.

 

[sherlock]

To everyone who responded to this thread, I respect you all and I wanna send you all my love. Sorry for not responding to everyone, but I've read all your responses and tried to feel and understand each one of them.

I wish everyone finds their serenity and peace in their own way.

 

[yotaka]

It's hard to say. I'm frustrated with myself for being so incapable and useless. I'm frustrated with myself for having completely fucked my life up and for never having become anything.

On the other hand, when I'm alone and thinking about the end, I do love myself in a way. In those moments I can tell myself that it's all ok—I was never meant for this world anyway. It's almost like feeling love and comfort and belonging from the other side, even though I don't think there is another side...

 

[Lamentice]

Yes, absolutely I do, and I'm the only one. I only like my own company, likewise no one else likes my comany LOL

 

[oakash]

I find it very difficult to love myself. I feel as though I hate myself and am sick of myself existing. I don't know exactly why but I have always had a sense that I am totally unlovable

 

[Busridin'26]

Nah and im tired of fronting. I think I have a certain amount of respect and reverence for myself but so many situations can throw that outta the damn window so fucking fast

 

[misc_handlings]

It really depends on the day. Sometimes I think I'm great but poorly suited to the world I'm in, other times I think I'm useless as a being.

 

[limenlux]

If I loved myself, I'm not sure I would be depressed, let alone contemplative of suicide. I don't despise myself either, though. I just acknowledge that I have very little to offer at this point.

 

[SuicideWebsiteUsern]

I would say I like myself love is too strong of a word tho I am quite pathetic lol

 

[NanamiMomozono8]

I do not hate myself, I do think I'm a decent person overall. I'm just very, VERY, disappointed in myself. As if I were my own mom or something lol, "look at the mess you've made, you moron!"

I think we get self-hatred and deep regret confused at times. I see that a lot on this forum. Our actions do reflect who we are to an extent, but life is more nuanced than that: sometimes you make a few decisive mistakes and pay a very high price for a very long time. More often than not, those mistakes were either made in good faith, due to genuine mental instability, or because you didn't have all the info. However, it doesn't mean YOU inherently suck. That's my 2 cents at least...

 

[CowardlyLies]

No because i'm such a sloth and keep postponing even the most important tasks, then i rush everything in the last moment. Even for planning to CTB i delay LOL.

 

[KatalinaKrimson]

I've felt love for myself before. Especially like... nurturing love towards past versions of myself that I wish I could protect. I've felt confidence in myself before.

But recently especially, I've felt searing hatred towards myself. Pathetic, idiotic, disgusting, selfish, crazy. And just plain not good enough. Low value person.

 

[smirks00ts]

genuinely hate myself as of recent. I feel like im nothing but a waste of precious air some random guy should be breathing instead. I do like some parts of.myself st times but at this point I have given up.

 

[anopenwound]

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

(No, I don't)

 

[woofwag]

I hate myself so so so much. But also apparently there are parts of me that love myself, or at least love me as an alter, cuz I will often hear a voice say "I love you!!" That being said, that could just be a nervous tic since they seem to say that whenever we're in a stressful situation.

Overall I can't live with myself. I'm horrible and evil and irredeemable no matter what anyone says.

 

[NitrogenNightmare]

Yeah, I think I'm pretty OK. Just wish I didn't have to struggle so much. Y'all who hate yourselves probably need to give yourselves a break. Real monsters don't feel about about it.

 

[Aknu132]

No.

 

[valar_morghulis21]

I hate every single thing about me.

Love myself enough to stop tolerating bullshit from others and choose to ctb on my own time. My self-esteem is still very low tho I do try my best to hide it so I don't seem too vulnerable.

 

[fluorescentpearl]

I can only love my beloved in truth, I'm not worth my own care

 

[RawRX3]

I think maybe I do but not in the ways that would keep me from wanting to die. I like that I try my best to care for others and show them love when I can; that I am curious and like searching for answers and discovering things; I like that feel deeply and the way that shapes my every day experiences; and I like that I work hard to be the change I wish I had when I was starting out in the world.

But none of that has been enough to change the way I feel inside. I hate that I wasn't born in the way I experience life, I hate the way I've felt disconnected from life for as long as I can remember, I hate that no matter how many friendships I have or the way some of my family supports me that it's not ever enough in the right way; and I hate that I can't ever find something to live for because the thing I want isn't something you buy or accomplish or can become good at and for some reason nothing else matters outside of that thing.


So I guess I hate the fact that the love I have for myself can't heal the brokenness I live with every day and so instead I simply live everyday with the loss of who I could've been and the weight of what I could never change because it was never about what I couldn't do only what I needed and was never given.

Maybe I love and hate myself at the same time then.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I don't hate or like myself, so I guess I feel neutral.

 

[here_for_now]

Not to generalize but if your on this website, it's a given that you don't enjoy life, and most people including myself tend to turn that distain for life inwards causing self hate and other fun stuff