Do you know anyone who’s died of suicide?

[Gl1tch3d G1rl]

No one irl, but have lost several close friends on sasu. The thoughest one by far though was my bff @Ash. I belive her ctb was uneccecary also, although it wasn't her fault. She was pushed towards ctb by a shitty mh system that abandoned her when she needed them the most. I'm glad she is in peace though I wish the ctb would have been on her own premiss rather than being pressured into it by a failing mh system. It's tragic really.

 

[Griever]

I miss my best friend every day

 

[yxmux]

nope. not a single person. not even anyone with active suicidal ideation (that i'm aware of). i might be a bit of an outlier here

 

[karakoltriste]

Have you lost anyone to suicide? Has it changed how you view your own possible exit?

I've lost 2 close friends to suicide. I'm autistic so I haven't been close to many people in my life. I tend to attract and be attracted to neurodivergent people with mental health issues, so it's of no surprise to me that of the 5 people I've been closest to in life, 2 are dead from suicide.

My first friend and I talked a lot about suicide. We both believed we would experience a self-chosen death, even if it was not in the immediate future. He worked so hard on his mental health issues. Therapy, in-patient treatment, medications, Buddhist practices…… the list goes on. I support his decision to end his life because his suffering was overwhelming. I miss him tremendously, but it would be selfish of me to want him to suffer for me. I believe he made the right decision for himself.

My other close friend and I never really discussed suicide. Her death caught me by surprise. She was suffering from postpartum depression. I don't believe it was the right decision for her because she was in a temporary bad place. I believe it she stuck around, things would have gotten better. It hurts me that her son will grow up without his mother. I believe she convinced herself that she was bad for him and he would be better off with her dead, but nothing could be further from the truth.

I've always been upset that the first friend I mentioned didn't call me or leave me a note. We had discussed suicide many times and he knew I would support his decision and not do any welfare check BS. I'm glad he is at peace, but I'm sad I didn't get to say goodbye. Because of this, I will call my best friend to tell her goodbye. She already knows this and wants me to. I would also leave letters to other loved ones.

I also have many acquaintances who've died by suicide. One, I had a meeting (recorded) with him 2 weeks before he shot himself in the head. Out of curiosity to the mentality of a person 2 weeks before their suicide, I started to listen recording of the interview. I hadn't noticed anything off in the meeting, but hindsight is 20/20. We said hello and he asked how I was. I said I was fine but sad summer was over (it was early Sept). He told me he's optimistic and he believes we will still have more summer days. I found his optimism a bit strange and didn't listen to the rest of the recorded meeting.

Yes, 2 friends. One of them bought a lot of diazepam from me days before

 

[50decadesleft]

Yeah, a classmate from middle school. Caught the bus a few years later. She was always alone and got bullied a lot, I hurt everyday for not reaching out to her and at least trying to help......

 

[LetMeOut67]

Yes about half a dozen I think.

 

[darksouls]

I had to go to a psychiatric hospital again and again
unfortunately it often happens that patients commit suicide
most of the time we were not told anything about the cicumstances
I often think of a young man
he was in his early twenties
he grew up in a loving family
but he heard voices and could not cope
his mother found him in the attic
he had hanged himself
may they all rest in peace

 

[lonely person1]

nope. not a single person.

 

[AuraByte]

One family member jumped in front of a train. Another had various suicide attempts until they died of natural causes.

My family genepool and mental health history is fucked.

 

[FoxSauce]

Well one of fam members that ive never knew about she had schizophrenia so yeah. She ended herself. Ive never met her or anything. She died before i met her

 

[prettysurethistime]

Not anyone close, although a few attempts. I found out someone I knew (who grew up down the road, was born in the same ward at the same time as my sister and her family ran the newsagents we regularly used to get travel cards etc.) Killed herself last year or the year before. It made me so sad because I knew her family loved her and she had a small baby. She was also a really kind person.

And I found out a doctor who had tried to reach out to help me killed himself a few weeks ago. I know a little more than I should about the local politics in the medical community and coupled with so many former patients saying he'd helped them, I'm going to guess he was actually one of the good ones and it's, to put it bluntly, boiled my piss quite a bit. I might write my own post about this and not get into it here but I've really had some shitty experiences with healthcare and if I thought I could turn stuff around, I wouldn't want to CTB. Mostly the fact this guy died alone in the woods when he definitely had family and friends who loved him and was still a successful doctor, just makes me ashamed at how ungrateful we humans altogether are.

 

[kitkat9234]

I've had four friends CTB. I think my dad did but it wasn't ruled a suicide because he didn't leave a note. "Accidental OD". And I guess my ex technically did. He just drank himself to death.

 

[Seaofsleep]

My mum almost. Walked in front of a bus at the bottom of our street on my 21st birthday and somehow survived.

 

[thaelyana]

Yes, my friend A. is an angel now. She was 18 and passed away on June 6, 2025, exactly one month ago today. I love her deeply, even now.

 

[Grog]

My first cousin CTB two years ago via gunshot to the head. I wasn't as close to him as my oldest brother was, because we aren't in the same age bracket. But, I would always see him at family functions and he always had a smile on his face and was nice to me and everyone. I remember he was the bassist for a Rolling Stones cover band and he was really good at it; they all sounded really good! My uncle, his dad, had my cousin and their cover band play for his 50th birthday party. That was a really fun memory~

I was a little bit closer to my uncle; I think he really enjoys having nieces and nephews. My uncle is the sweetest man you'll ever meet. He has hosted our family Christmas at his house every year since my grandpa died because he really loves our family and didn't want that tradition to die.

And then, one day, my cousin calls up my uncle to ask him if he wanted to come over to watch the Green Bay Packers game; one of their favorite activities together was watching their favorite football team. He lives an hour away from my uncle but my uncle makes the trip anyway because they love spending football Sunday together.

Unfortunately, when my uncle showed up to my cousin's house, my poor sweet uncle found him… I cried for my cousin and I cried for my uncle too because he's always been one to treat me so well and give me fun Christmas gifts and always making sure that the whole family is having a good time… no one deserves to lose their child… I just don't understand why my cousin called him and asked to watch the football game if he was going to do what he did. He must have known his dad would find him, right? I just know my uncle can't get that image of his son out of his head… my heart aches for him so much and for my cousin… maybe if I was older, I could have hung out with him more and talked to him on a relatable level. Maybe he just needed someone… I don't know…

My cousin is now buried at the mausoleum in Lambeau Field, where the Green Bay Packers play. I love him and I miss him very much…

 

[thaelyana]

My first cousin CTB two years ago via gunshot to the head. I wasn't as close to him as my oldest brother was, because we aren't in the same age bracket. But, I would always see him at family functions and he always had a smile on his face and was nice to me and everyone. I remember he was the bassist for a Rolling Stones cover band and he was really good at it; they all sounded really good! My uncle, his dad, had my cousin and their cover band play for his 50th birthday party. That was a really fun memory~

I was a little bit closer to my uncle; I think he really enjoys having nieces and nephews. My uncle is the sweetest man you'll ever meet. He has hosted our family Christmas at his house every year since my grandpa died because he really loves our family and didn't want that tradition to die.

And then, one day, my cousin calls up my uncle to ask him if he wanted to come over to watch the Green Bay Packers game; one of their favorite activities together was watching their favorite football team. He lives an hour away from my uncle but my uncle makes the trip anyway because they love spending football Sunday together.

Unfortunately, when my uncle showed up to my cousin's house, my poor sweet uncle found him… I cried for my cousin and I cried for my uncle too because he's always been one to treat me so well and give me fun Christmas gifts and always making sure that the whole family is having a good time… no one deserves to lose their child… I just don't understand why my cousin called him and asked to watch the football game if he was going to do what he did. He must have known his dad would find him, right? I just know my uncle can't get that image of his son out of his head… my heart aches for him so much and for my cousin… maybe if I was older, I could have hung out with him more and talked to him on a relatable level. Maybe he just needed someone… I don't know…

My cousin is now buried at the mausoleum in Lambeau Field, where the Green Bay Packers play. I love him and I miss him very much…

Maybe he didn't want to be alone for too long after his passing… Maybe that thought made him anxious…? Try not to hold it against him. Sending you strength and my condolences

 

[Afterglow]

Lost my sister last month from SN.

 

[Malfunction]

I know a few.

One was in our teenage years. He used a shotgun. It took two shots because he flinched on the first one. I can't imagine having to finish yourself off after losing a chunk of your head.

Other friend got drunk and walked out in front of a transport on a highway. He was dead on impact.

I wasn't a witness to either. But for the first, his younger sister was in the house. She ran to his room after hearing the first shot, and saw him take the second. I don't think she recovered from it.

 

[waistcoat]

i've lost quite a few friends to suicide :(