Discussion Do you have sleep problems?

[The Disqualified]

Do you have any sleep problems? Do you feel like you sleep too much or too little?
I always dreaded sleep itself, but feel fatigued most of the time even if I sleep.

 

[parabellum_]

It's the worst. I can't sleep at night and I'm really sluggish all the time. I just lie on my bed and get plagued with thoughts

 

[froggirl9000]

I either sleep too much or too little, and no matter what I never feel well-rested.

 

[gardenhouse]

I can't sleep without meds because of fucking ringing in my head, if i try to sleep without, i just end up being awake the whole night. If death was possible by not sleeping, i would have done it.

 

[inpainnosleep]

A neurological condition literally doesn't let me sleep. a higher dose of Clonazepam (like 3 mg, which isn't even all that high and I'd been on benzos for 20 years) was helping because its an anticonvulsant and I can't tolerate other anticonvulsants. But then I run out of my extra pills, now have major withdrawal and akatisia. I'm also majorly kindled due to coming on and off the med. And nobody in the world will dare to prescribe me 3mg of Clonazepam instead of 2 even though Clonazepam is literally inmpossible to OD on. The lack of sleep was what made me suicidal in the first place. And after fighting so hard and seeing what my life will be like with that neuro problem plus lots of others that stacked up, and also becoming super med intolerant to the point that I wouldn't probably be able to take meds to lower my blood pressure or something like that, I just want to leave this planet. Surviving a very violent family, several nervous breakdowns lasting up to a year and a half (along with a migraine that lasted a year and half), bullying, immigration, no friends, friend betrayals once I found friends, fucked up relationships, constant anxiety, horrible OCD and depression, late diagnosis of autism and bpd, I feel like I fought very hard. But all these neuro problems that came on kind make me want to end it 100%. When I look back at the last 2+ years, I feel like the universe was testing me. I had so many signs and chances to go in the right directions, but I apperently I chose the wrong path every time thinking it would be harmless, and I feel like my choices have killed my health and therefore killed me. I'm terrified of not sleeping.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

I wake up every two hours, has been like that for over 15 years.
Always tired

Even went to a sleep clinic, tried meditation, breathing exercises...zip.

Sleep meds my doctor won't give anymore because of me getting easily addicted

 

[itsgone2]

Tons of sleep problems
Had them fixed. Or at least very managed.
Now back. So tired would rather just die

 

[kunikuzushi]

it takes me hours to fall asleep. when I wake up after 8-9 hours, i don't feel rested.
and now I've been having nightmares every single night of my fears and past traumas and they blend into my memories, ruining my relationships and i can't do anything throughout the day.

 

[Smiles & Giggles]

The transition in-between sleep and wake is referred to as hypnagogia. This state is characterized by a dream-like thought process accompanied by vivid hallucinations. Many prominent geniuses of history attribute some of their greatest realizations to this, Such as when Kekule discovered the molecular structure of benzene through a hallucination. Nikola Tesla would purposefully try to induce hypnagogia in himself for the perceived benefit to creativity that it brought on. It's a curious, natural phenomenon that everyone has experienced before whether they are aware of it or not. Unfortunately I am acutely aware of when it happens because, for years, it manifested itself as pervasive and disrupting hallucinations that would jolt me into wakefulness or stall my ability to relax, sometimes preventing sleep for the whole night. I was assailed by these almost every night for over a year.

I will now describe one incident that particularly stuck out to me, not for the contents of what I hallucinated but for the amount of distinct hallucinations present at the same time. I had already been attempting to sleep for multiple hours to no avail (insomnia) when I noticeably entered hypnagogia; I could hear loud scratches and general pitter-patter coming from all around me and under my bed, accompanied by footfalls. It sounded as though a person was right next to me playing the violin. There were multiple male voices explaining to me that I would be harmed in some way (I don't remember if they were threatening). Behind my closed eyelids I could see two theatre masks and a sudden flash of light so bright that it would have hurt had it really existed. Everything became louder as I came closer to sleep. I was getting closer still when I heard a young sounding female voice make a 'Psst!" sound, as though to beckon me into looking up. I was so tired that I had become stupid and reflexively opened my eyes. My room, which was once lit up by sound, instantly became dead silent.

I would also experience sleep paralysis at least once almost every time I fell asleep or woke up, and more irregularly what I've heard people describe as "exploding head syndrome"

I've skimmed through other first-hand accounts of hypnagogic hallucinations but I've never heard of anyone else having as negative of an experience with them as I have, although I'm surely not alone in this and my experience with them hasn't been purely negative.

 

[litany_of_thoughts]

Sober it definitely takes me 3-4 hours to even get to sleep, even then I get like 5 hours if that. Think my circadian rhythm CTB early and beat me to it

 

[mikidagreen]

yea cant sleep at all at night anymore, literally have to exhaust myself to sleep

 

[alivebutnotliving]

if i don't take sleeping medicine i don't sleep. i can't fall asleep to silence either

 

[shaggy_dooo]

Yes i struggle to sleep i tried to kill myself and well i got sick (diabetes) my eyes hurt constantly i cant eat sugar or i feel like ima have a heart attack when i go to sleep also have insomnia and depend on my anti psychotics to knock me out every night or else i feel very sick in the morning bc i coulndt sleep without my medicine i guess not sleeping makes my glucose have spikes and i feel very shitty in the morning like really bad.

 

[outrider567]

Yes, I always wake up after a few hours, then I stay up another 2 hours, then try to go back to sleep, but not always successful

 

[thelostautistic]

It takes me ages to get to sleep because I worry so much. I also have frequent nightmares which sucks

 

[starboy2k]

The only problem I have with sleeping is that I eventually have to wake back up.

 

[gardenhouse]

I can't sleep without meds because of fucking ringing in my head, if i try to sleep without, i just end up being awake the whole night. If death was possible by not sleeping, i would have done it.

 

[voc_89]

alot. I sleep maybe interrupted 1 hour at a time. Sigh. Another struggle. Thanks life. U didn't give me enough to deal with

 

[dcomfort]

My whole life, yes. I've needed ambien in more recent years on a pretty consistent basis, but I'm usually up in the middle of the night, lost in my own thoughts for hours.