Do you have friends?

[weni]

Every time i see posts of my friends hanging out together on sns, i feel miserable. I can't adjust to new environments at all, and i'm always by myself
I don't even know what i've achieved in my life

 

[KimDokja]

I understand. I have friends, but I don't hang out with them, and the few times I do I feel like I don't really fit in. Sometimes I get jealous of how close they are with each other. Why can't I be like them?

 

[OvercastingClouds]

None irl. Haven't had any since elementary school and seeing posts of my peers and people my age hanging out and stuff makes me miserable as well since I've been hole up alone all these years. I've gotten to the point where I don't think I'm capable of making friends, hell I can barely make any online at all. I always feel like an outcast. Rn trying to convince my brain to stop being lonely and give up the thought of having connections

 

[darksouls]

I have no friends

 

[the_path_of_sorrows]

I do have plenty of people that I talk to about unrelated to death stuff. A few of them that I would call close friends know about how suicidal I am and they are suicidal themselves. The problem right now is that some of those few ones want to die together with me. We're discussing those ideas irl and giving each other some sort of hope by still staying alive, even when it's just pure pointless suffering.

 

[kopebaldy]

I have people that might be a lil bit sad when I'm gone.

Hopefully not for long, I'm already a big ass burden while living, shouldn't leave behind any more unnecessary emotional burden.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

None, like the lyrics from this song.

 

[elaineparks]

Every time i see posts of my friends hanging out together on sns, i feel miserable. I can't adjust to new environments at all, and i'm always by myself
I don't even know what i've achieved in my life

No. I have no friends. My only friend died years ago.

 

[Pluto]

 

[unluckysadness]

i have no friends since i was in the high school. i only had 2 or 3 good friends but then i got agoraphobia and high anxiety so i couldn't go to parties and other stuff like that. so they disappear. i never had a partner too because nobody saw i have huge autistic traits. i have a cat and a woman i know who like collecting DVD like me but i cannot consider her as a friend. maybe my mother is my best friend. i'm 43 and i hope it will be my last year here because there is no hope anymore

 

[may30iswhen]

I don't have any friends.

 

[F@#$]

No

 

[Carrot]

Maybe I could, but I don't really have friends. I'm really good in one on one conversations, although I'm not the most "fun" person to hang around with, you can have deep meaningful discussions with me. People get tired of that eventually, or simply don't need that all the time in their lives.

 

[z14z]

sadly no, im good with everybody but there's no real connection or close friendship, it's the usual hi and byes

 

[knickknack81]

I have some really good friends and they were really a second family for so many years during my 20s and 30s. Unfortunately, now I am in my mid 40s and a lot of my friends are in different points in their lives. They now have their own families, careers have taken a bigger piece of their lives, they have moved away and other things that have made people just drift apart somewhat. And that has been really difficult for me. Combine that with loosing my longtime partner this year and I feel very alone. I don't hold it against any of them, it's just how life is. And trying to make new friends/connections as the years go on can be more difficult. Certainly has played into the struggles I have had as of late and made me have thoughts of CTB.

 

[katara]

None irl. Haven't had any since elementary school and seeing posts of my peers and people my age hanging out and stuff makes me miserable as well since I've been hole up alone all these years. I've gotten to the point where I don't think I'm capable of making friends, hell I can barely make any online at all. I always feel like an outcast. Rn trying to convince my brain to stop being lonely and give up the thought of having connections

Basically me except it's been since middle school. Maybe if I wasn't struggling so much in school I could've had friends. I always think about what could've been bc I come on here and there's so many ppl going to college and parties I'm like wait? Where are the losers like me? I feel so scared and alone. Where I live doesn't help either like my dream would be to find a person online who lives close to me and we could Hotwire a boat and drive far away from here and if we die we die. I just feel so trapped here like I'm in hell and can never escape.

 

[amerie]

I only have one currently lol

 

[that_guy2611]

Nope

 

[Shiksa]

I had friends but now it's pretty much just me. My friends were all way more well-adjusted. I really struggled keeping up with them after awhile. When I started falling deeper into drugs and alcohol maintaining those relationships was impossible. They still talk and seem pretty happy together which makes me feel good sometimes.

 

[Lyn]

We used to have a small online community. It seemed like we were close.

But it fell apart, as it always does. Nothing lasts forever.

And as time went on, all the people I knew ghosted me and our paths parted.

 

[S like Siren]

no I don't...it's a sad life:(

 

[EternalShore]

Every time i see posts of my friends hanging out together on sns, i feel miserable. I can't adjust to new environments at all, and i'm always by myself
I don't even know what i've achieved in my life

Well, you mention having friends in your post~ Why don't you ask for them to invite you to hang out with them? :)
Unfortunately, I struggle with this, and a lack of irl friends [thankfully, I have online ones, which keeps me partially sane~ thank you very much, guys and girls~ ^_^], as well~ I'm embroiled in jealousy quite easily, so I hang out around here to give myself less people to be jealous of~ :)
I wish you the best in finding a way to gain new irl friends or re-connecting with old ones if you can~ :) I know it can be quite the struggle tho~ :(

 

[LetMeOut67]

Basically no

 

[Archness]

Nope, none. Back in my school days I had just a few, but it was all only surface level. Eventually, I realized this reality, that I was only ever the dumb & autistic class clown. Just being "Friendly and nice" really isn't enough past elementary, let me tell you.

Seeing everyone else with actual friends and connections, it just makes it clear that kind of stuff isn't really for me. I've never connected with another person like that, and I probably never will. I've approached that kind of relation, maybe one other user here that's dead now; but really I just keep getting my hopes up just for being able to talk to other people without carefully watching what I say with people online.

Lonely now and forever, until I die, and beyond.

 

[knux]

One friend but he's pretty much become an acquaintance

Sometimes I struggle with it and sometimes I'm okay. I've always been a bit of a lone wolf and in general I really enjoy my own company. There are days when I'd just like to hit a bar with somebody and vent about the world.

 

[DeadSouls]

Every time i see posts of my friends hanging out together on sns, i feel miserable. I can't adjust to new environments at all, and i'm always by myself
I don't even know what i've achieved in my life

No. I thought I was kind of making a friend,but now he's stopped talking to me because I'm not interested romantically in him. This has just happened twice in the last weeks.

 

[UglyLife82]

No

 

[ididnotconsent]

No. I can't even handle my own company, why would i drag another person into that? I wasn't always like this though, i had spark as a kid, but somewhere along the way something put out my fire. I'm close with my immediate family though and that's who will be most sad when I'm gone.

 

[fernstaysquiet]

I tend to develop an extreme obsession with one person. I have no friends beyond that because I can't really manage multiple relationships.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

No, I don't like people. The only friends I have are imaginary (I don't mean that as a joke, btw. I'm serious).