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weni

weni

Member
Jul 9, 2025
26
I have BPD, and i don't know if it's like stockholm syndrome or something, but i actually feel comfortable around friends who are tough, outspoken, and speak bluntly. We always start out as enemies and then somehow end up as friends.

Sometimes, one meaningless comment from them can make me feel down all day, and I give it so much meaning. But when they say "i like you" or acknowledge me, i've never been happier. They only keep people they genuinely like around them.

I'm just curious if you've ever had something like this too.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,354
It's more that I've let friendships drift and with CTB on the cards, it seems safer/ kinder to leave them that way.

But yes, in the past I have found myself overdependent on people and, needed to take a step back. Not so much because they were mean (thankfully.) But, because I was expecting too much of then when their life was moving on.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,278
Have BPD here too and kinda the same. Of anyone was mean to me or comments bad things yeah i dont wanna be around you.

Say or do one nice thing and im hooked.
Its really difficult cuz well I'll tell personal things and be happy around you.


The cycle continues. Its tiresome cuz you dont know who can use info against you.
 
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Grog

I am a defect.
Jun 3, 2025
499
I've cut many people out of my life, and I'm very proud of myself for doing so. I only have time for people who bring me joy and peace anymore.
 
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trying ungracefully

trying ungracefully

Experienced
Jun 11, 2025
225
My boyfriend. The relationship is real unstable and it got to the point I snapped the other day and yelled in his face that he's a broke ass bitch because he's blaming me for his money problems when I don't even have access to them or know how much he has or makes.

Then my brother. He is still young so I'm carrying hope and I still love him but he's turning into a person I really don't like. He has a good heart but he is an asshole on the surface and even he bullies people/contributes to it. Last night he was laughing that his friend poured water on a random persons head and he says he had to bully his friend for him to get skinny and sometimes it's necessary for people to lose weight. He only has that opinion of guys but he thinks 120 lb is overweight/unhealthy just because the girl is a bit chubby. I'm 5'4 and 120lb is about a 20 bmi for me. 18.5 is underweight, that weight is pretty healthy for an average height person. There's so much I can mention. Everything is really getting to me and also I'm 185lb. What the fuck does he think of me? He acts like I'm not fat but I can see myself.

But haha he wants to gain weight and muscle but can't really. Karma.
 
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bleeding_heart_show

Student
Dec 23, 2023
195
All I can say is familial expectations will be the death of me.