Do you have any item(s) ready to actually CTB?

[Z-A]

I can't keep going like this. I'm so upset about this world, the way the existence has been built. All of this is so unfair and unnecessary. I'm not even thinking "why?" anymore because you can't have an answer for this craziness. Anyways, enough of this garbage philosophy.

Unfortunately, I only have a rope. I'm scared of poisoning, drowning or gassing myself. No access to desired methods like firearms or specific drugs. I can't imagine when I will personally do it.. It must be very fucked up for me to go for it, impulsively*. Smh, even exiting is a hell of a deal to go through.

Does anyone have a plan and items ready to CTB when the time comes? If yes, what method will you use? If not, how do you see yourself potentially achieving it?

 

[Traveller12724]

I know exactly how you feel. I am planning on using Nitrogen and exit bag since it's almost impossible finding a good SN source in the US. I am getting Nitrogen this monday, and I will start making the bag. My plan is to ctb towards the end of the year but I need to get everything ready in case I have to go sooner. I am still exploring other methods of course.

 

[Red Moon]

I'm also sick of this world and society.

I'm from a pro life country and there's nothing available for me other than the rope and jumping, so it might be hanging for me.

 

[idk3]

Vodka+Benzos

Cranberries singer Dolores O'Riordan drowned in bath while drunk

The Cranberries frontwoman Dolores O'Riordan drowned in a London hotel room bath after drinking alcohol, an inquest heard.

www.scotsman.com

 

[Sarros]

Got my SN. Might've waited too long to use it though. Not sure about its shelf life.

 

[Meteora]

A good rope is important to have. I still think it is one of the best and easiest methods.

 

[SadTitan]

I do, actually! I just finished filling capsules with SN and have 40g of it on standby along with some OTC medication to take prior to the SN.

 

[Rev346]

I have my SN. Its in a sealed bag from supplier but I will need to get test equipment to ensure its legit. No AEs yet though. Things have gotten better but no way am I getting rid of my bus ticket. Just like condoms, better to have it and not need it than need it and not have it.

 

[HereTomorrow]

I've had my rope tied in a slipknot for about 6 years on my door, comedically being used now to hang my work bag with a hook (bit hard without visuals, but the bag hooks onto the slipknot for easy grabbing in the morning). I don't know how nobody found it openly suspicious since I've had many people enter my room. It's desensitized me to how dangerous it actually is since I've almost CTB'd with it if my SI didn't kick in.

I've been looking into the Night-Night method for a while so I might buy material for that in the future over hanging using the Amazon links in the megathread. They're both quicker then SN, which I don't know if I want to get considering the risk of a welfare check if purchased.

 

[Agon321]

Theoretically, I have all the resources ready.

I can CTB anytime. But I don't have the mental balls yet ;).

 

[AmericanMary]

I have everything ready for CO, partial, and full suspensions.

I am in the process of having everything for SN.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I have a BBQ ready (CO with charcoal).

 

[comprapt]

I've had my rope tied in a slipknot for about 6 years on my door, comedically being used now to hang my work bag with a hook (bit hard without visuals, but the bag hooks onto the slipknot for easy grabbing in the morning). I don't know how nobody found it openly suspicious since I've had many people enter my room. It's desensitized me to how dangerous it actually is since I've almost CTB'd with it if my SI didn't kick in.

I've been looking into the Night-Night method for a while so I might buy material for that in the future over hanging using the Amazon links in the megathread. They're both quicker then SN, which I don't know if I want to get considering the risk of a welfare check if purchased.

Could you share some info or point me in the direction of more info on the Night-Night method?

Sorry, I'm new here. I've never heard of it before. Sounds nice and peaceful though.

I have a short barrel 12 gauge shotgun loaded with 00 buck shot tucked under the side of my bed. Been thinking about it since I was probably 17 (I'm 39 now). But due to health issues and bipolar disorder only seeming to get worse as I go on, I've been thinking about it way more. I've even grabbed my gun and driven to my spot a couple of times this year. Just never can pull the trigger.

 

[onbekend]

I don't have any of the resources for my actual preferred method, but I have several immediate backup methods. If I can't get one method to work, I could just go to the shooting range and blow the shit out of my skull, if all else fails I can also just hang myself using my belt or a piece of rope I have.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I've had SN stored properly for years but I still need to buy the other equipment like a scale and some other stuff. Not sure if I can acquire antiemetics either so I might just have to prepare multiple doses.

 

[FuneralCry]

I so envy those who have the means to reliably die on their own terms, it must be so relieving for them. It truly is so horrible and cruel how we exist in such anti-suicide society where I cannot just have the option to easily die in peace, access to painless death without any risks and complications should be a human right and it's beyond hellish how it's not.

I really wish I had access to a death which is like never waking again, all I wish for is to never wake, eternal sleep would solve everything for me, I see no value in suffering in this futile undesirable existence I never would have chose in the first place.

 

[LunarLight]

I have my SN, AEs, propranolol and benzos - I'm just waiting for the right time.

 

[Forveleth]

Got my rope, handy steel beam for an anchor, and a mouth guard. All tested. I'm ready to go.

I've had my rope tied in a slipknot for about 6 years on my door, comedically being used now to hang my work bag with a hook (bit hard without visuals, but the bag hooks onto the slipknot for easy grabbing in the morning).

Why do I love this so much?

I have a BBQ ready (CO with charcoal).

See, you put it like that and then I just think about eating instead of ctb.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

See, you put it like that and then I just think about eating instead of ctb.

The best is - it's not suspicious at all.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Absolutely. Have everything I need. I'm going by CO. Have my tent, charcoal, chimney starters, metal buckets, some bricks, sealant, tarp, and a CO analyzer. Even a "chaise-type" lounge cushion to lay on. I guess I don't have "warning" signs ready to go, but I can make those anytime.

 

[Freedomatlast24]

Absolutely. Have everything I need. I'm going by CO. Have my tent, charcoal, chimney starters, metal buckets, some bricks, sealant, tarp, and a CO analyzer. Even a "chaise-type" lounge cushion to lay on. I guess I don't have "warning" signs ready to go, but I can make those anytime.

Have you practiced multiple times like you so rightly emphasise to others? I'm honestly just curious

 

[yyytry]

I got a hemp noose set up on a large climbing grade locking carabiner.
I can attach very quickly and securely when the moment comes. Full suspension. Zip ties for the ankles and wrists.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Have you practiced multiple times like you so rightly epathise to others? I'm honestly just curious

Not yet, but I will be as soon as I get my garage bay cleaned out, which is one of the MANY things I'm working towards as an overall "package" of getting my affairs in order. Doesn't it stand "on its own" that it's a fairly prudent idea to "practice" and "refine" one's technique in order to get to the place where one has confidence in what they're doing so that the outcome they desire stands the best chance of coming to fruition? Seems logical to me. Maybe not so much to you? Are you one of those that would rather act on a "whim", or impulse, and let the chips fall as they may, no matter the consequence? Seems like. You don't need to concern yourself with what I'm going to do. I can take care of my own business. I will be repeatedly going through all of the steps I need to take with my method in order to be assured that, when the time comes, I have the utmost confidence in what I'm doing and will be successful the FIRST time. Don't you worry about me. Your energies might be better spent on making sure that whatever plan you have in mind for your own self, assuming you even have a plan, goes the way you desire.

 

[Freedomatlast24]

Not yet, but I will be as soon as I get my garage bay cleaned out, which is one of the MANY things I'm working towards as an overall "package" of getting my affairs in order. Doesn't it stand "on its own" that it's a fairly prudent idea to "practice" and "refine" one's technique in order to get to the place where one has confidence in what they're doing so that the outcome they desire stands the best chance of coming to fruition? Seems logical to me. Maybe not so much to you? Are you one of those that would rather act on a "whim", or impulse, and let the chips fall as they may, no matter the consequence? Seems like. You don't need to concern yourself with what I'm going to do. I can take care of my own business. I will be repeatedly going through all of the steps I need to take with my method in order to be assured that, when the time comes, I have the utmost confidence in what I'm doing and will be successful the FIRST time. Don't you worry about me. Your energies might be better spent on making sure that whatever plan you have in mind for your own self, assuming you even have a plan, goes the way you desire.

This wasn't even a dig, I agree with you in the idea of practice and refinement. I envy you having that opportunity, I really do. If I had a garage and lived alone, I'd be doing the same in a heartbeat. I was actually simply just curious...
I also get overwhelmed easily due to my neurological conditions so all the idea of 'prep' especially when I don't have a private area to do so just feels so impossible right now. So again, I was simply curious, sorry! Probably some frustration directed at myself really.

 

[Vicolo cieco]

I have my beloved semi-automatic pistol. As George Sterling said: "A prison becomes a home if you have the key."

 

[dggtscccvfd]

I have SN stored securely in my wardrobe for use later this year.

 

[Z-A]

I have my beloved semi-automatic pistol. As George Sterling said: "A prison becomes a home if you have the key."

That's when death welcomes us with open arms ;).

 

[locked*n*loaded]

NP. Sorry on my part, too. I probably read more into what you posted than was meant. I'm good if you are. Yeah, I really wish you had a way to run some trials for a CO method, any method really. Things usually come out so much better if you can. I mean you know what to expect and no surprises. I plan on posting a thread on everything I do and my results whenever I get to it. I hope to report back with # of charcoals necessary, not in lbs but in actual pieces, so that someone who can't obtain a meter knows for sure how much to use. I'll have a bunch of pics, too. I have no timeline, yet, as to when I can get to it, but it is going to happen just as soon as possible.

 

[AlexYaBoy]

I call it my "To-Go Kit." Largest bottle of vodka that money can buy, alongside the best rope.

Just in case. It's nice to have it ready.

 

[lovedread]

Just sn. Need to test