Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
I do. It's stressful.
 
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BloomingStrella

BloomingStrella

bus tickets are expensive
Mar 29, 2023
285
In what sense? Don't tell me you mean some sort of parental controls screentime kind of thing.
 
sorrowful

sorrowful

My exhaustion knows no end
Feb 13, 2023
284
august 2024, sometimes it feels stressful
 
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soft-flower345

soft-flower345

🌸I'm ashamed of who I've become🌸
May 15, 2023
93
May 2025, I've learned to cope by just letting go of everything, nothing matters anymore so theres no need to worry, no need to fear, as long as I get to die the way I want nothing else matters. I can spend the last 2 years of my life managing the resources I procure to enjoy myself. It's really comforting to think this way and counterintuitively it's helped my depression a lot, I'm a lot more active and social than I've ever been in my life now that I know Im going to ctb soon.
 
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NoLightRemains

NoLightRemains

I found my light again. Namu Amida Butsu
Sep 26, 2021
374
My time limit is a bit flexible as I have enough money to live for years with my family, but I'd rather go sooner (within the next few months) rather than later. If I don't CTB in the next few months, I might never get the motivation to CTB which is frightening to think about.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,415
I'm hoping this week will be it. I should be going on a trip soon, but I dont look forward to it or anything at all. This is a good sign that there is nothing left for me.
 
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leloyon

leloyon

I'll see you in the Wired.
Feb 4, 2023
1,095
I'm not seeing 2025, I know that much.
I cope by reminding myself that I don't have access to a good method yet, that I will soon and that it will all be over soon. It's better to be patient.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
9,829
No- because I'm waiting on my Dad and I have no idea how long that will be. Honestly, I'm not coping brilliantly.

Are you stressed because time is getting near to it and you don't feel ready?
 
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XdragonsoulX

XdragonsoulX

Vengeance Incarnate
Apr 13, 2022
145
October 2025, I'm not sure if I actually will then, trying to find the best method but I cope by researching methods
 
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leavingsoon99

I'm at peace... Finally.
Mar 16, 2023
722
August 26. Although, I'm feeling like I want to do it sooner. I just want out. At this point, life IS the 'dark place'.
 
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Kikoo

Kikoo

Sing me to sleep ♡
Jun 12, 2023
165
2 months. If I'm unlucky then 1 month and about 2 weeks
 
Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
No- because I'm waiting on my Dad and I have no idea how long that will be. Honestly, I'm not coping brilliantly.

Are you stressed because time is getting near to it and you don't feel ready?
Yeah I'd rather not yet
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
9,829
Yeah I'd rather not yet

Sounds like it's definitely better to delay then. I hope you can make peace with that decision. Seems better to be sure about it before going ahead.
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
Sounds like it's definitely better to delay then. I hope you can make peace with that decision. Seems better to be sure about it before going ahead.
I don't have a choice.
 
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sorrowful

sorrowful

My exhaustion knows no end
Feb 13, 2023
284
A year lol why are you stressing now?
that's the maximum, i don't exactly have a set date planned, it depends on my circumstances but i know i can't go on longer than that. i guess it just feels closer to me, a year can go quick especially when every day is repetitive and easy to forget.

sometimes i worry for the afterlife. i always thought i would face punishment but i try to get that belief out of my head. that's mostly the stressful part. regardless, i'll take whatever over this place
 
Techef

Techef

Student
Jun 19, 2023
124
Financially I think I have at most 3(?) more months before I'll be forced onto the streets. I was hoping to finish CTB prep before, but my physical health took a rapid downturn and I wasn't able to do much in May/June when the more pleasant weather had previously lessened symptoms and allowed me to be more productive in the past 2-3 years. Sometimes I find myself wishing I could go back in time to around 2015 or a bit before to start prepping for CTB, and carrying it out in 2017 when I had the perfect opportunity to do so without hurting those around me (at least immediately - circumstances back then meant I could "disappear" and nobody would think anything of it until at least a year or two later).

Now that I have to rush, it's super stressful. Feels like the constant stress is breaking me down physically faster too.
 
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LittleAngel

LittleAngel

When life gives you lemons, squeeze em into ur eye
Jun 26, 2023
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charlotte_

charlotte_

Arcanist
Mar 12, 2023
435
No time limit for me, because I don't even know where my life is heading atp. Perhaps it'll just happen on a random day where I'm insane and high enough.
 
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istheretrulyalife?

Ser Alexander V
Jun 14, 2023
130
No actual date but I might ctb in a year or so.
 
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Nemaki Arber

Nemaki Arber

Lost soul & chat lurker
Mar 24, 2023
37
Completely depends for me, I have planned that if my report against my ex for sexual abuse falls flat I'll just ctb then, or if some even worse things happens in between the time when there's a court verdict and now.

I'm just getting numb and coping with drugs tbh
 
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loopdaloop

-
Apr 16, 2023
323
already have gone past it many times
 
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BloomingStrella

BloomingStrella

bus tickets are expensive
Mar 29, 2023
285
Dw, they're talking about until they CTB
Oh, since they didn't really go into any further detail, I just assumed it was some random thing. My bad. I personally have no set date for my CTB, because I'm still thinking it over, and also I have a crazy survival instinct, which doesn't help at all.
 
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Kerrtu

Kerrtu

Komeetta ♊︎
May 8, 2023
474
I was more stressed when I thought I was planning to CTB on my birthday. The whole month of May had me feeling incredibly anxious. I realized a lot of the anxiety and general "doom" feeling was my reflecting on it being 10 years since my first solid, near successful attempt on my 30th birthday. I felt like it had to come full circle, I had to finish what I wasn't able to when I turned 30. I was being very hard on myself.

Then when the day passed, I felt a lot less anxious. The self-imposed pressure went way. I feel ready, and confident in my chosen method (SN). I could go any day and be alright with it.

How am I coping? Weed helps.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,508
I would never put myself under additional pressure with a time limit to ctb. It's either I have my method ready to go or not. When the time is there and when the point of total desperation and hopelessness is reached I hope I will find the strength to just do it.
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

The past never dies.
Apr 25, 2023
985
November 2023. I cope with that by addiction ( anime and tv series, social media,...etc)
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

The past never dies.
Apr 25, 2023
985
Anime which ones?
The top 5 for me are:

1- Attack on titan
2- Naruto
3- hxh
4- death note
5- bleach

And i also like Monster, bungou stray dogs, demon slayer.
 
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