Do you guys self harm?

[Sparkly rainbow]

I started self harming the same time I got depression and suicidal thoughts. So I've been doing it since I was 14 during COVID era (im 20 now). At 14 my mindset towards life just snapped and my will to live just disappeared (I'll talk about my personal reasons to ctb in another post).Self harm may numb the mental anguish and replace it with physical pain. But anyway, im wondering if you guys also self harm while having suicide ideation since they kind of go hand in hand.

 

[yes7777777]

No, it'll attract unwanted attention and hyper focus making CTB very difficult

if i lived alone and have no relation with family/friends etc then probably i'd try it because im an adventurous person

 

[apearl]

In a pretty similar situation as u, I was kinda suicidal before covid but it hit me like a truck during covid. I'd been self harming since before that. I do it for the emotional regulation aspect, it takes away the dread. In academic literature usually that's the main reason listed why someone self harms.

I can see how self harm and suicide can go hand and hand tho, they both deal with a person dealing with severe amounts of anguish and emotional dysregulation. Being mentally ill will make u do anything lol

 

[Slark]

No, but I'm thinking about starting. There are days when anguish and emptiness overwhelm me and I feel like I want to explode, so I was wondering if self-harm could help.

 

[Shadows From Hell]

I have self harmed before by cutting into my arm, and it got me attention I wasn't looking for. Family was all up my ass for days after that, and the constant phone calls annoyed the piss out of me.

 

[Kanau_Nano]

Yeah, I used to sh myself, but i stopped cause I was anxious about people bringing it up. I still want to tho

 

[spellbound]

I used to cut myself a bunch but it would always get noticed, which I hated. Nowadays when I feel like cutting myself I just strangle myself with a scarf until I almost pass out. It's a different kind of buzz but it's a great replacement for me

 

[Yuri440]

Used to for a couple years, started quite rarely to last year where a few months I just kept doing it. At one point the entire front of my body was just covered in cuts. Stopped not long after. I was mostly doing it as a way to chill when I was overwhelmed, but one day it just stopped working and my brain just lost interest in it immediately. I'll sometimes look at blades and think about it, but I quickly realise that I feel just ugh about it, like I know it wouldn't work if I did it.

 

[Bitterly_Nostalgic]

I used to self harm quite a bit. The ways I did it were cutting, biting and punching myself. I was eventually able to work fully through the cutting and have not done that in many years. However for a while, the time I would have spent cutting was instead replaced with more biting and punching so I wasn't completely better.

Over time I've dealt with the punching and biting as well for the most part. But I've found self-harm to be such a hard habit to completely lose though, for me it will still occasionally come back during periods of intense emotional distress.

 

[Front Back]

I was 14 during COVID era (im 20 now).

God it's been 6 years... I haven't really tried this SH things but going to work felt like it.