Do you guys feel like anything could make you happy and not CTB?

[wasteofspace22]

At this point in life even though I am 19, I feel like there is nothing in the world I really want out of life. Nothing that will make me not want to CTB. It's sad because I'm so young but yeah. Does anyone else feel like this? If you don't, what could make you happy in life and not want to CTB? I'm genuinely curious to hear it

 

[Changpango]

I'm not much older that you are. But yes, there is one thing that could prevent me froom wanting to CTB. My ex and her wonderful family.

 

[Ticket 2 Heaven]

Im 28 fml

 

[Obliviate]

I don't think there is a single thing anyone can tell me that will make me wanna stay. The world is way to fucked up for all this "positivity" crap

 

[Shivali]

I think there are no things or humans who can make you feel happy for a long time. And their loss will make you suffer anyway . No. Nothing can make me happy on this planet of suffering

 

[CrazyMary]

i am way older than you. Sometimes good things happen and give me hope. Like a new job project, meeting a new potential partner or something like that. It gives me a bit of hope for a while but I know eventually I might go back to being depressed and wanting to CTB either because I get used to the new "good" situation or because something bad happens.

 

[Funeralprincess]

Yes. Getting the love of my life back

 

[wljourney]

I am much older and looking back I have had many times when I was absolutely certain I needed to CTB.
While that feeling never really went away, my conviction that it was the ONLY thing I wanted waned.

There were times when I genuinely enjoyed moments of my life.
It's not like everything was pink and rosy and perfect. If you wait for the perfect life, you'll wait forever.
But there WERE situations, moments, sometimes people who really made me happy.

To be more precise: a day spent at a horse barn and going for a ride. I absolutely LOVED it and the memory really helped me through the rest of a rather mediocre-to-shitty life.
A few years later I came into some money and went on a really special vacation. Open sea diving and all. It was absolutely glorious and that memory too carried through and helped me to remember that not all is bad.

There are glimpses of happiness.

Now. Would I say that all these glimpses of happiness were worth all the pain and suffering?
Possibly. Maybe. Or maybe not.
Do I think there can be more of those happy moments?
Maybe?
Do I want to stick around, being in pain every single day, hoping for just a little bite of that happiness?
Nope.

I have lived. I gave it a good go.
Now I am ready to leave.
It's been rough. It's been ok.
Not more. Not less.

 

[Lookingtotalk]

At this point in life even though I am 19, I feel like there is nothing in the world I really want out of life. Nothing that will make me not want to CTB. It's sad because I'm so young but yeah. Does anyone else feel like this? If you don't, what could make you happy in life and not want to CTB? I'm genuinely curious to hear it

A time machine

 

[wasteofspace22]

A time machine

What's your age

 

[Sick&TiredURGH]

A world where there are Rainbows that fart unicorns.
Or being an Aes Sedai in Wheel of Time World
Both totally unrealistic never going to happen scenarios.

 

[Hollowman]

No

 

[Hurt]

Even if I were rich I'd be unhappy. At this point the only thing that would make me "happy" is knowing that I'm gonna die soon.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is absolutely nothing that could ever make me want to stay here. Living is not desirable at all, and enduring existence does not appeal to me and interest me. Why endure pointless decades just to die eventually. I see no point.

I believe that such a thing as happiness does not really exist as if someone is experiencing something they see as being positive it will likely just be taken away and cause more suffering. I personally see nothing positive about living at all. There is no benefit to me being alive.

This is why non existence is always preferable to any kind of life as with life comes unlimited potential for pain and the dead cannot suffer. Overall, I just don't see life as being worth living. There's nothing here for me in this world and the thought of being dead is comforting.

 

[hopelessdreams]

a new brain that isn't wired like mine. in other words: not gonna happen.

 

[SexyIncél]

Yeah, a time machine would be great

 

[juraviel]

it's just a feeling. feelings change. you're asking suicidal people if life is worth living, guess what sort of answers you're gonna get.

 

[jane]

yea if there was a magical cure for my chronc illness but even after that... i might still want to go

 

[freedompass]

Nope, I was never 'in love with life' or any of that shit. I'm here on sufferance serving my life sentence. The world holds nothing for me. Never did, and I'm 60 now

 

[theboy]

I'm 22 and I think the same

 

[Julgran]

At this point in life even though I am 19, I feel like there is nothing in the world I really want out of life. Nothing that will make me not want to CTB. It's sad because I'm so young but yeah. Does anyone else feel like this? If you don't, what could make you happy in life and not want to CTB? I'm genuinely curious to hear it

What's making you want to end your life..? I'm just curious, so I won't ty to hinder your eventual try to ending it, but I would like to gain some insight into how you are thinking and feeling.

As for me, I'm having some severe economical problems, which means that girls won't be attracted to me for the foreseeable future, but I'm hoping that you are having better life perspectives

 

[obafgkm]

If I didn't exist, I probably wouldn't choose to exist. But since I am already here, I don't know if the alternative is really better, I might just wait until I can no longer cope. The reluctance to ctb is still hard to overcome.

 

[wasteofspace22]

What's making you want to end your life..? I'm just curious, so I won't ty to hinder your eventual try to ending it, but I would like to gain some insight into how you are thinking and feeling.

As for me, I'm having some severe economical problems, which means that girls won't be attracted to me for the foreseeable future, but I'm hoping that you are having better life perspectives

My family is wel off, but I'm mentally I'll and used hard drugs such as meth and cocaine at 17 and am living in a world of regret. I have bipolar,ocd, and heavily suspected autism. And I don't see a future for myself where I am ever happy

 

[Sepultura]

A few million dollars wouldn't hurt.

 

[Life_and_Death]

my SO and nothing else. i know it should be wrong but my life is so fucked up and hes the only good thing. idk...i love my brothers, my cats, my grampy. kms pains me for them, but this guy is just on another level

 

[Lookingtotalk]

What's your age

34, if i could go back to 19 where u are, knowing about the mistake i made, just once changed piece of info, that is all i want

 

[carnivore]

M43. Good health

 

[AnxietyHangover]

I've never been content with existence but I believed there was something. I am so far gone and degraded that nothing would stop me and my grim thoughts. Lost my love for everything. I am ready to go.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Time machine back to grade school

 

[serah]

If i could somehow get rid of all my social anxiety, then id give life another chance