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genesisofpasaqalia

genesisofpasaqalia

yes
Mar 27, 2023
21
i just simply stopped crying, and feeling much, i can laugh at funny videos so ig thats some type of emotion, but life feels extremely neutral, maybe its because ive made peace with the fact that CTBing will most likely be how i end?

its kinda weird that such a human thing such as crying (and emotion in general) i was feeling just completely vanished out of the blue. i used to cry most if not every single day, even if it was for like a little bit at a bathroom in a public place (if i really had no choice) or locked in my room ranging from as quick as one minute or as long as 3 hours. and now its gone
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,315
I haven't had a good cry in over a year. Once in a while I'll she'd a tear but I'm pretty much constantly emotionally detached.
 
cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
971
I can't remember the last time. If someone sees me they make fun of me. I feel like I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I'm out of tears.
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Visionary
Apr 15, 2024
2,086
Same, I stopped crying. But I also feel little to no purpose or even empathy anymore. I just don't care about much anymore and everyone, including my family, are just fake and selfish. Maybe it's because I feel like I'm on death row just waiting to be called.
 
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puzlewillburn

puzlewillburn

PuzzleMasterWillBurn
Feb 27, 2025
32
well has run dry. if i had a dime for every time i wanted to cry i wouldn't be on this site.
 
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DarknessWave

Having a panic attack right now..
Mar 10, 2025
112
I really want to cry, even if i want to cry i just can't it just rarely happens anymore to me.
 
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JesiBel

JesiBel

protoTYPE:cclxxv
Dec 5, 2024
1,113
I feel more emotionally unstable; anything makes me cry. I wasn't like this before: a song or a movie, a thought, some real-life news... I'm embarrassed because sometimes my eyes fill with tears while I'm in public. I try to hold it back.
 
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amomentspeace

amomentspeace

Student
Mar 2, 2025
160
no because
 
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Rose Mine

Member
Mar 9, 2025
58
I'm a cry baby, I blame it on me being a cancer lol. I cry about being lonely a lot which is pathetic as hell and I can't stop crying sometimes until I just forget about it or I am not lonely anymore. I also cry when someone hurts me and I reach a breaking point with them. I also cry for animals like yesterday I was thinking about the dog that was sent to space and how lonely they must have felt and I almost started crying but I kept it in. I hate crying though it is the worst thing ever especially because I have a clicker septum ring so the snot is just dripping and dripping lmao.

I honestly would rather not cry at all anymore it is so terrible and I feel like a little baby
 
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cme-dme

cme-dme

wants to sleep forever
Feb 1, 2025
564
Cant really remember the last time I've cried. It's not that the well has run dry but more that it has always been dry. I've been depressed for probably 10 years now but I don't think I have ever cried because of it. I can remember crying due to stress though.
 
divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
I cry over everything like a toddler. psilocybin will bring out the tears
 
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dingokettle3531

dingokettle3531

Member
Mar 26, 2023
77
I only cry when I'm watching/reading/playing something that makes me feel strong emotions. The day to day and my own thoughts don't make me cry anymore aside from that
 
LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
755
I want to cry at times, but I cannot because I feel too numb.
 
twilightSparriw

twilightSparriw

TwilightSparrow
Mar 6, 2025
73
I can't do it either… wish i could. Will try again today 💚
 
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wishingiwasok

Member
Dec 18, 2024
40
Almost every day. And on the days I don't cry I want to.
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
It's harder then ever
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,823
Nope, stopped crying. Just empty inside, even laughing feels fake.
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,677
The last time I cried was at my grandson's funeral. That was 26 years ago.
 
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notreallybored

Specialist
Nov 26, 2024
366
ב''ה,
Only when G-d thinks it's funny.
 
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Confusedsoul12345

Member
Jan 29, 2025
67
Same here.I am extremely sad and depressed but I can't cry anymore.Supringly it happened when I finally decided to CTB and started making efforts towards it.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
919
I cry everyday just because I am still alive.
 
Haematemesis

Haematemesis

Student
Jan 12, 2025
190
i just cried to a video of walruses that have to squeeze in a small area and most of them dies either of hunger or by falling off of a cliff
 
x3la

x3la

Member
Feb 8, 2025
38
Only very occasionally, bc of a combination of bottling things up for far too long and external triggers.
 
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