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batmanreal

batmanreal

very normal guy
Sep 9, 2025
80
(specifically thoughts of harming other people, animals, or objects, not just yourself.)

i've always had thoughts of hurting others and committing violent acts, even when i was kid. i'd never follow through with these thoughts, though. they just pop up in my mind, go away, then i feel immense guilt for thinking about those things. i won't go into detail about the specific thoughts. there are too many scenarios that i've thought of, and diving into each gorey detail is just pointless (not to mention, kinda cringe). it's annoying, the thoughts come regardless of how i'm feeling. of course, they're especially intense when i'm really angry; but they still pop up when i'm feeling calm. gruesome, violent fantasies are just passive thoughts.
i used to be scared of myself and the possibility that i would eventually act on my thoughts, but i'm not really scared anymore. i know i won't do anything bad, but i still feel so much guilt.
i'm aware that it's very common for mentally ill people to deal with this, but it's still frustrating.
 
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famouslastwords

famouslastwords

asleep or dead
Sep 15, 2025
34
I do have a lot of those thoughts, they usually appear when i'm sad or angry, or even randomly. I never proceed with them either and feel bad about thinking about it. I dont know why they happen tbh
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

Death is near
Mar 15, 2025
685
I used to have a lot and still kind of do just not as much as last year. Especially when I was angry. I'd even write violent stories just for fun. But now they somewhat come and go but I've never felt out of control or that I would actually enact violence.
 
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technicallyAlive

technicallyAlive

Member
Nov 29, 2023
49
I used to deal with violent fantasies a ton when i was kid/teen. I'm pretty sure it was due to the fact that i consumed a lot of gorey content tho. I used to be a really sensitive kid and most people hated me for it since I'd break down over the littlest things, so I thought watching horror movies and graphic yt videos would help (it didn't.) I don't watch that stuff anymore though and the thoughts went away since I stopped. I'm sorry that you have these thoughts regardless of whats going on though, that sounds hard. hope ur doing okay
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
506
I have these thoughts during flashbacks of abuse, and then I think of ways to hurt my abusers back. But I'd never actually do it. It's just a coping mechanism, nothing more.
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

I'm the doodler, I make terrible doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
717
I've straight up had thoughts of becoming a serial killer for years now. Like I'll be in the shower and I'll be thinking of what my Netflix documentary name would be.
 
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AuraByte

AuraByte

If I'm lost, please don't find me.
Jun 24, 2025
115
Never animals.

Certain people, yes. But only as I got older, more jaded and lost patience.
 
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RestlessTaiga

RestlessTaiga

I'm glad you're evil too
May 18, 2025
58
I don't know if these thoughts are a way of coping, or genuinely craving violence.

It doesn't matter what kind of situation I am, my brain is always having this kinda of thoughts, even when I'm not angry or something similar, and at this point, I wouldn't be surprised if I do something bad.

I lost so much faith in myself, that I wouldn't be surprised if I hurt someone.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I do all the time...
 
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Hystearical

Hystearical

In tears
Jul 23, 2022
4,942
Against people who really harmed me without remorse or contrition.
 
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telekon

telekon

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2025
404
(specifically thoughts of harming other people, animals, or objects, not just yourself.)

i've always had thoughts of hurting others and committing violent acts, even when i was kid. i'd never follow through with these thoughts, though. they just pop up in my mind, go away, then i feel immense guilt for thinking about those things. i won't go into detail about the specific thoughts. there are too many scenarios that i've thought of, and diving into each gorey detail is just pointless (not to mention, kinda cringe). it's annoying, the thoughts come regardless of how i'm feeling. of course, they're especially intense when i'm really angry; but they still pop up when i'm feeling calm. gruesome, violent fantasies are just passive thoughts.
i used to be scared of myself and the possibility that i would eventually act on my thoughts, but i'm not really scared anymore. i know i won't do anything bad, but i still feel so much guilt.
i'm aware that it's very common for mentally ill people to deal with this, but it's still frustrating.
yeah. if you feel like you're going to hurt somebody the best thing you can do is never speak to them or see them anymore.
 
Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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58Alice85

Autogynephile
Aug 31, 2025
378
Yes but not destroying their physical bodies.
That immaterial kernel which writes down the thoughts in their head must be tortured, killed or ruined beyond any recognition.
i mean like i would force them to watch gore for years, listening to brutally loud industrial noises. They would all be crawling over each other, defecating in each others mouths. In their mind it would be delicious. All intelligence would slowly leave their intellect.
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

2036-01-10T08
Apr 10, 2025
2,203
sometimes, tho not serious ones... more like what if [insert harmful action here] that fades as other thoughts come in.
 
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raslyakovva

estrela, estrela
Sep 24, 2025
7
always. I think i must not say what exactly where my thoughts because people would think im a psycho, but since i was a kid ive been struggling with these, i always pray and say sorry for having these thoughts even though its not my fault, but i feel kind of blamed for it
always. I think i must not say what exactly where my thoughts because people would think im a psycho, but since i was a kid ive been struggling with these, i always pray and say sorry for having these thoughts even though its not my fault, but i feel kind of blamed for it
 
dask

dask

Member
May 6, 2024
27
Yes, mainly when i dont take hrt like im supposed to, i think and fantasize taking as much people I can with me and push everyone I know away
 
Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
387
Pretty much every single day for the past 13 years. Violent thoughts mostly against the people who have caused me the most pain and suffering.
 
tunnelV

tunnelV

Misanthrope is my religion
Oct 19, 2023
140
I've had violent thoughts about humans for over 20 years. Never once an animal, they don't even deserve such hate.
 
karenin

karenin

I know I'm not right, but I'm not wrong
Sep 22, 2025
29
I don't, but I daydream about becoming a hitman, "healthy" intentioned one who would have a mission to help people pass away with the dignity they deserve. However, these are very difficult thoughts; I can't imagine harming someone, especially intentionally.
 
somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

The future prepared for us is a twisted joke.
Aug 30, 2025
208
I get extreme thoughts about harming people (not any specific person, just people) regularly, been sofor almost a decade. My consumption of gore/snuff content during teenage didnt help either. I hate to say it but I've also gotten violent thoughts about hurting my pet dog.

When I'm bored my mind often comes back to these thoughts of hurting people in brutal ways. Perhaps I'm not over my "edgy" phase yet. But I'm sure I'll never act on them. I'm a coward. I feel really guilty after simply saying "No" to people when they're clearly manipulating me. I can't even kill a spider.
 
synthetic_suicide

synthetic_suicide

Heaven's Gate Away Team
Feb 11, 2024
38
I do fantasize about harming people who harmed me, i think it's a very human feeling
 
LetMeOut67

LetMeOut67

Mage
May 7, 2025
568
I fantasise about locking certain people in a building and burning them alive. Animal abusers, child rapists, bullies , narcissists , shit stirrers, smug self-satisfied people.
I just think there are a lot of evil people around nowadays.
Which we are sure of because social media has allowed people to expose themselves as the obnoxious scum they generally are. Social media has enabled a lot of evil behaviour for profit and I would gladly kill everyone of these cockroaches in a painful manner if it was allowed.
 
heisenberg

heisenberg

zzzzzzz
May 18, 2020
208
i have thoughts like this, i experience homicidal thoughts towards other people. not anyone in particular, just random people. id never act on them and these thoughts pop up randomly.

i've had thoughts of harming myself all my life, but they've escalated in recent time. i think of causing very serious injuries to myself. however i mainly think of this whenever my mind brings up something cringey or embarrassing from the past, as a way to flush it out of memory i guess
 
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kopebaldy

Dovahkiin
Jul 5, 2025
420
All the time, it's hard to keep them in these days.
 
memento-mori

memento-mori

😴
Jul 1, 2025
379
I've straight up had thoughts of becoming a serial killer for years now. Like I'll be in the shower and I'll be thinking of what my Netflix documentary name would be.
are you fr?
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,354
I tend to visualise specific scenarios. So, if I hear about reports of violence against others, it makes me angry and I imagine what I'd do in response- if it were me. Not that I necessarily would. Maybe I'd be too scared in the moment.

One report stuck in my mind. Some older celebrity guy I think it was grabbed his wife or girlfriend by the neck over dinner. If he's doing that shit in public, I dread to think what he's doing in private. But, I used to fantasize about upending the table of hot food into his lap.

My imagined level of violence tends to match the violence the perpetrator is dishing out. So- the guy that started randomly stabbing children in the UK gets far worse back in my mind.

Really though, I know it can't be healthy. It's just more violence wrapped up as retribution. Maybe the more disturbing thing is- I hope I would actually have the guts to stand up to such people in real life. So- even worse really- a part of me must feel like it's the right thing to do.

I have even weirder than that though in that- while I don't have any desire to hurt random people or, specific people really, I spend so much time alone. So, sometimes I have a weird worry that I may just snap one day and do something awful.

I suppose it's a general fear of losing my mind. Even things like dementia. I've known of people that it really altered in terms of character. That would be terrible if we still had lucid moments here and there. I've heard you can sometimes revisit childhood times with that and I absolutely don't want to remember that vividly. That could well make me lash out.
 
dead dav

dead dav

Specialist
Feb 27, 2025
348
Yes but only in my head I would never go through with them I'm a totally peaceful person I have been told I have OCD
 
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episodicend

New Member
Sep 15, 2025
2
I've often had violent thoughts as a supplement to suicide. Thinking things like "if I were to kill someone I'd be able to convince myself it's really the end, and go through with ending my life"
 

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