Do you find it liberating to know that you are able to ctb?

[deprived hollow]

Not everyone can access a reliable method. But if you can. Do you feel like you are no longer chained by bureaucracy because you can ctb whenever you want?

The world chains you to debt and forces you to work nonstop for your entire life in a job you hate just so you keep on living.

But now they can't demand more things from you. You can't be incarcerated. They can't sue you because you are dead.

-We are going to take away your house and you will have to live on the streets.

-No, I don't have to. What are you going to do? kill me?

 

[StolenLife]

Yeah, I know deep down that ctb is the ultimate solution for me. Always was. I can't wait to be free of all the trauma, responsibilities and attachments. Ctb is like the ultimate immunity to the world's bullshit.

 

[Valky]

Yes very. It calms my mind. Knowing that whatever happens, I'll always have a way out.

 

[SoftWorries]

Oh absolutely. Actually being suicidal has been the best thing for my anxiety. It seems like every source of fear comes innately from a fear of death. I don't have that anymore.

It brings me comfort that I have a plan on how to go and a sense of solidity in my life. I'm not like I used to be trying desperately to ignore every thought of death. I know I'm going to die either by nature or by myself. That awareness brings a lot of peace to what was otherwise a very difficult life to live.

 

[Starlit]

I'm not actively suicidal at this point in time but honestly, yeah.

Life is better for me than it used to be, but nothing is guaranteed and if my life were to ever become genuinely irredeemably shitty and no longer worth living, it's nice knowing I'd be able to go out on my own terms if I truly wanted to. Remembering that regardless of whatever bullshit happens in my life, existence as I know it will one day just stop is both weirdly empowering and soothing.

 

[Bobert_Beniro]

When, sometimes I'm glad that all this will end someday, sometimes it worries me. Rather, it is reassuring, because no matter what unpleasant situations I found myself in, the thought of ctb always calmed me. I'm glad I can send everyone to hell and end my life instead of going to hard and low paying jobs

 

[Little_Suzy]

Why would I risk losing my preferred method to a psychopath when I can do the job myself? This is my rare opportunity to really let loose and not worry about repercussions.

 

[outrider567]

Yes, it is liberating--It would take me just 1 minute to start the process

 

[Zaphkiel]

I dont hve one yet... but i think having all thing set up so just with a press of a button i could go would be more calming than anything.
Wich is very bizarre in itself.

 

[sannoji]

ironically that's what keeps me going. the idea that if things get too unbearable i can just consider my options and decide to head out. makes me feel much calmer about most things actually.