Do you feel you deserved better?

[darkandtwisty]

I definitely deserved better. All my life, I've been reminded I'm the child my parents didn't want. They did everything they could to prevent my existence except having an abortion (but that's because they don't believe in it).
Then to face my dad walking out when I was 10, forced into growing up too soon because my mom was more focused on making sure my other two siblings were okay. I got ignored and learned hyper independence.
I found "love" from a POS guy who took me and broke me to my soul. 16 years I was raped and abused by him. My family knew but my mother always minimized everything. Told me "I know how you can be" and suddenly the abuse was my fault.
My parents still talk to him and even go to his house for barbecues. We've been divorced for almost three years.
Yeah, if I had parents growing up who actually loved and cared about me, hell, protected me the way parents should, I don't think I'd be on this forum wondering why I'm not good enough.

 

[LetMeOut67]

I am not a hustler liar backstabber and self serving cheat like most people
And for that I've been punished terribly

 

[Pluto]

 

[inthesky123]

I was adopted at birth so I didn't choose what family to be apart of. My parents were 40 when they adopted me divorced when I was 4 years old and I was raised an only child with my adopted mother. My adoptive uncle was seriously schizophrenic and the only young person in the family my adoptive cousin was born blind. I was put in foster care when I was 14 for no reason. Ctb will help me escape from this world of nonsense I haven't had the best of fortunes to live in.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Definitely, if I was nurtured and loved as a child as I needed to be instead of being severely abused. I wouldn't have bpd, and I wouldn't be suicidal right now. What some delusional parents affected by generational trauma think is just a "rough upbringing" can seriously ruin their childs entire life...

 

[RosebyAnyName]

I want to keep thinking I deserved better, but my experiences and relationships tell me that I don't deserve better.

 

[Rynalia]

No, I don't deserve better.

But that's just my pitifully low self worth talking.