darkandtwisty
Member
- Jul 10, 2024
- 79
I definitely deserved better. All my life, I've been reminded I'm the child my parents didn't want. They did everything they could to prevent my existence except having an abortion (but that's because they don't believe in it).
Then to face my dad walking out when I was 10, forced into growing up too soon because my mom was more focused on making sure my other two siblings were okay. I got ignored and learned hyper independence.
I found "love" from a POS guy who took me and broke me to my soul. 16 years I was raped and abused by him. My family knew but my mother always minimized everything. Told me "I know how you can be" and suddenly the abuse was my fault.
My parents still talk to him and even go to his house for barbecues. We've been divorced for almost three years.
Yeah, if I had parents growing up who actually loved and cared about me, hell, protected me the way parents should, I don't think I'd be on this forum wondering why I'm not good enough.
Then to face my dad walking out when I was 10, forced into growing up too soon because my mom was more focused on making sure my other two siblings were okay. I got ignored and learned hyper independence.
I found "love" from a POS guy who took me and broke me to my soul. 16 years I was raped and abused by him. My family knew but my mother always minimized everything. Told me "I know how you can be" and suddenly the abuse was my fault.
My parents still talk to him and even go to his house for barbecues. We've been divorced for almost three years.
Yeah, if I had parents growing up who actually loved and cared about me, hell, protected me the way parents should, I don't think I'd be on this forum wondering why I'm not good enough.
