Today, my dad called me. And I feel so sad that how he is going to feel when I die. But I really can't help it, I have been suffering since long and I can't keep suffering any more. I feel so bad about how much it is going to hurt him. He really loves me. I am so sorry.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,920
No, I just feel sad that I was forced into this torturous and futile existence in the first place. If people are so anti-death then why do they procreate, they are literally causing the person to die, procreation is such a terrible tragedy that causes nothing but harm. I never would have chosen to exist and I'd be glad to be free from the hellish imposition that is existence, only permanently ceasing to exist is desirable to me.
sussshiroll
Student
- Mar 17, 2023
- 105
Yes, but that will not stop me. I force myself into not thinking about it much.
In my view, best practice is to offer some opportunities to communicate and process to individuals who are able to accept my intentions. I haven't started yet; still afraid and avoidant of the inevitable resistance.
And, sort of, but it's not that I'm causing their pain. The world sucks and that caused the pain. Society cannot make room for me, and that caused the pain. I feel bad that people have to hurt but I will not accept the responsibility for it and I consider that statement the less cowardly than to take on all the hurt that my tumble through existence may leave behind.
Consider does the boulder crashing through a house blame the soil which ceased to hold it? The mountain which raised it beyond the point of adhesion? Gravity which pulled it down? Humanity for building a house beneath the slope? Or does it matter at all. I say no. I say those are all human judgements and interpretations, the fact is the entire moment at once without any need for language with which to communicate it because as soon as you translate a truth into language you have altered it. As with anything, explanations are mathematical and available to anybody who really wants to find them. As incomprehensible to us as the fact that we must exist in the first place
And, sort of, but it's not that I'm causing their pain. The world sucks and that caused the pain. Society cannot make room for me, and that caused the pain. I feel bad that people have to hurt but I will not accept the responsibility for it and I consider that statement the less cowardly than to take on all the hurt that my tumble through existence may leave behind.
Consider does the boulder crashing through a house blame the soil which ceased to hold it? The mountain which raised it beyond the point of adhesion? Gravity which pulled it down? Humanity for building a house beneath the slope? Or does it matter at all. I say no. I say those are all human judgements and interpretations, the fact is the entire moment at once without any need for language with which to communicate it because as soon as you translate a truth into language you have altered it. As with anything, explanations are mathematical and available to anybody who really wants to find them. As incomprehensible to us as the fact that we must exist in the first place
Helween
This is this and that is that.
- Apr 13, 2024
- 106
They were already sad that I was there anyway.
Saturn_
Arcanist
- Apr 22, 2024
- 423
No one ever really stayed by my side through thick and thin, everyone was more or less unavailable. I think one of the reasons I'm committing suicide is out of spite.
LunarLight
i'm a loser, a failure
- Apr 3, 2024
- 1,371
Yes, a lot. My poor partner is gonna have to live in grief for years…
No. Sure some family/friends will be sad at first but they'll soon realise they're much better off and be glad I did it
Eudaimonic
I want to fade away.
- Aug 11, 2023
- 341
Yes. In fact it's making me deliberate about recovering even though I don't really want to and am not sure how likely it is to work. I'm more concerned about how it will affect my sibling and the rest of my family than how it will affect my parents since they are at least partially responsible for this lol (procreative responsibility; the thing making me most suicidal and causing me the most amount of suffering is at least partially hereditary). I still feel bad even though it would be justified in their case.
No.
Now I don't care. I thought about this for a long time. But now I think it's nonsense that I should be alive for someone. I do not owe anything to anyone. Even my parents, I'm just a fetus of their "normal life", that they decided to reproduce. But I'm born ill and I don't thank them for this. Call me mean or something, but I don't care even about those who love me, I myself love no one and nothing.
Now I don't care. I thought about this for a long time. But now I think it's nonsense that I should be alive for someone. I do not owe anything to anyone. Even my parents, I'm just a fetus of their "normal life", that they decided to reproduce. But I'm born ill and I don't thank them for this. Call me mean or something, but I don't care even about those who love me, I myself love no one and nothing.
ijustwishtodie
death will be my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
- 5,202
No, not really. I'm only alive because the current available suicide methods for me are just too risky or downright horrifying. I'm not alive because of other people. The person who I care about the most is myself
jan28
Member
- Aug 11, 2023
- 10
"When the dying's finally done and the suffering subsides
All the suffering gets done by the ones we leave behind"
It's tragic for the people who care about us. I do feel bad about it, but it doesn't stop me from wanting to die.
All the suffering gets done by the ones we leave behind"
It's tragic for the people who care about us. I do feel bad about it, but it doesn't stop me from wanting to die.
thealteredmind
Experienced
- Apr 2, 2024
- 231
are you really sure about this?
yeah it breaks my heart doing this to them. but I reached the point of no return. I wish I had never taken any medications, I would be better and suicide would be like... 10 years far away.
kilowatt
Guns don't kill people I kill people
- Sep 9, 2023
- 377
sammiechzxv
just a girl who's kinda sad
- Aug 7, 2023
- 242
Yes but they'll move on someday. I've seen them do it with everyone else they've lost.
