Discussion Do you feel like you will do ctb this year?

[Nadienobody]

This year i will 100% decide to CTB or try to fix my life. And since I'm unmotivated and my anxiety is only getting worse, I think the first option is more likely.

 

[freakypossum]

I don't know but it's in a realm of possibility if even one more thing in my life goes wrong. Im on the edge honestly.

 

[003]

I probably will, at least that's my goal. However, I don't know if I will be successful.

 

[areyousafe??]

I probably will do it the last week of January, or late March/early April. I hope I can overcome my SI without benzos (using the SN method). There's nothing left for me here...came to the realisation that I'm just too emotionally fucked up to do full time work and I obviously cannot live without money. I don't want to move back home to a tense environment, where I don't have any control, independence or freedom. I've stayed around due to fear of hurting my mum and grandma with my suicide, knowing that they will likely be upset. But people eventually get over death, and with time it becomes easier. It's time for me to leave this year, I've stayed hopeful for far too long.

 

[NeedyAphrodite]

Absolutely. My ctb date was 1/5 and i didn't, and wish i did. My body and brain are miserable and i have no support system and every time i have to ask for help and get rejected i am retraumatized. I have watched and rewatched the rationality of suicide. It is time.

 

[Moroze]

Yes, this is my last year. It just makes me more miserable, knowing that I wasn't able to find a partner who wants to go with me. I guess my death will not be much different from my life—loneliness.

 

[cali22♡]

I see no other way out... Nobody is really interested in helping me and to be honest I have no strength left for all this so I'm hoping for another life somewhere else

 

[Defenestration]

i hope