Discussion Do you feel like you can't keep living, but also can't make yourself die?

[dogemn]

Do you feel like you can't continue living like this, but also you can't make yourself die because of factors such as lack of reliable or painless method, survival instinct, fear, etc.?

 

[F@#$]

Yes

 

[yotaka]

I think that's how a lot of people here feel. I certainly do. Every morning I wonder how I can possibly make it through another day, and yet here I am...

 

[Albertvincent]

Yes

 

[hurts2b]

Yes. I am trapped in limbo and I can't die or live or do anything at all. I just fucking. Want out.

 

[SadB0iHour]

the only thing stopping me is knowing it would fuck my kids up for life. at least right now I'm stopping the cycle of generational abuse. if I offed myself in a way that made it obvious I was trying to, I'd just start a new cycle of pain.

still pray for death nightly tho.

 

[lpdsvm]

I overcame that thing.
Sometimes, I want to CTB right away but I haven't met the requirements yet.
But I still find it weird because I know I will have to CTB one day.
Finding the right method is important. Partial/Full doesn't require much if nothing else is left.

 

[smirks00ts]

I feel like it often

 

[UnknownGuy69]

Yeah pretty much and i want to break this cycle so bad.

 

[Busridin'26]

Yeahhh and it seems like to get outta this shit limbo I needa do smthin but what I dunno.

 

[kittygolem]

Yes. Humans are fragile, but dying on purpose is incredibly hard, both mentally and physically. You need to find a method that's quick and relatively painless to avoid the chances of backing out or disfiguring yourself but remaining alive. There's just not much available to the general public that fits these criteria.

 

[thunder_rayne]

I wake up every morning disappointed I'm still here. I just keep telling myself I'm halfway at life expectancy and any day it can/ should/ will be over! If I risk another possible failed attempt, my life will be horrible, so I patiently wait...

 

[anopenwound]

Let me build up the courage and I'm out.

 

[Kokonoe]

yes. i wish i could die so badly.

 

[urgent]

I think that's how a lot of people here feel. I certainly do. Every morning I wonder how I can possibly make it through another day, and yet here I am...

Me too.

 

[burninghill]

Yes. I'm always suicidal in some way, whether it's passive or active ideation. I really wish passive ideation wasn't a thing.

I really wish I was as suicidal as I was late last year, just desperate to die. I want to be gone so bad but half my brain isn't ready.

 

[Hollowman]

Limbo's the worst, been in it for years.

 

[dogemn]

Yes. Humans are fragile, but dying on purpose is incredibly hard, both mentally and physically. You need to find a method that's quick and relatively painless to avoid the chances of backing out or disfiguring yourself but remaining alive. There's just not much available to the general public that fits these criteria.

A rope is available to most people however. I think it's just that most people haven't been desensitized to experiences of pain and fear to be able to do it.

 

[kittygolem]

A rope is available to most people however. I think it's just that most people haven't been desensitized to experiences of pain and fear to be able to do it.

I think people are rightfully fearful of that method, as it has the ability to either go very right, or VERY wrong. A society sensitized to pain is a society sensitized to the personal experiences of one another and themselves, and I think that's a good thing. Ideally, I advocate for a society where simply trying to exist in it doesn't lead people to suicide, but the option to do so painlessly is freely and easily available.

 

[woofwag]

Kinda, I have all my methods and stuff I'm just slacking on prep. Finally I wrote all my
notes and am working on archiving my writing tho. The hardest part for some reason has been cleanin my room and sewing a plush for my bestie that I promised him a long while back.

 

[EmployedHikikomori]

About a year ago, I told myself I'd CTB. I haven't and probably won't for another three years because I want to do three things before I CTB.

One - Rid of all obligations I have. This includes paying off any debt (or file chapter 7) I have, resign for my job, and cut all ties with family.

Two - Erase any traces of me. I've already shredded some old docs of myself. But I also plan to use those service to remove your data from brokers. Along with selling or throwing out all of my earthly passions (my clothes, desk, bed, my car, ect).

Three - A range my own funeral. I won't have one. I was thinking of just buying pot of land (was thinking of having my body stuffed into a tree pod) and just burry me there. No ceremony, no wake, no anything. This is partly why I want to cut ties with my family.

I doubt I'd get this done in three years. But I'll do as much as I can. As of right now, maybe my family would hold a funeral for me before selling my stuff for me and be horrified by the debt I hid from them. Don't know, lets see.

 

[50/50]

100%

Constant suicidal thoughts, but not enough courage

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I always suffer from being trapped in this terrible, torturous existence that I just always saw as a mistake and for me the peace of non-existence is just all that's positive in this existence of torturous suffering, all I want is for this existence to be erased and forgotten for me, I just want it to be like this existence was never imposed at all.

I always suffer from existing in this horrific prison world where humans have made it a crime to peacefully cease existing with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, there's just so much evil in anti-suicide, making peaceful death inaccessible will always be such a terrible crime to me. I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, all that existence ever does is just torture existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

 

[Penelope12]

sì, perché sono controllato and I don't feel like going to a hotel

 

[0dysseus]

About a year ago, I told myself I'd CTB. I haven't and probably won't for another three years because I want to do three things before I CTB.

One - Rid of all obligations I have. This includes paying off any debt (or file chapter 7) I have, resign for my job, and cut all ties with family.

Two - Erase any traces of me. I've already shredded some old docs of myself. But I also plan to use those service to remove your data from brokers. Along with selling or throwing out all of my earthly passions (my clothes, desk, bed, my car, ect).

Three - A range my own funeral. I won't have one. I was thinking of just buying pot of land (was thinking of having my body stuffed into a tree pod) and just burry me there. No ceremony, no wake, no anything. This is partly why I want to cut ties with my family.

I doubt I'd get this done in three years. But I'll do as much as I can. As of right now, maybe my family would hold a funeral for me before selling my stuff for me and be horrified by the debt I hid from them. Don't know, lets see.

I actually checked on the tree of thing and it's not workable as people's think.

 

[T22222222]

Do you feel like you can't continue living like this, but also you can't make yourself die because of factors such as lack of reliable or painless method, survival instinct, fear, etc.?

yes

 

[Pluto]