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steppingoff

steppingoff

Experienced
Jan 18, 2024
212
If it wasn't painful would you be dead by now?
 
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sugarh1gh

sugarh1gh

Death is new departure and beggining of a journey.
May 27, 2024
328
Oh absolutely
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
35,434
What I'd fear is trying to die potentially going wrong and leading to way worse suffering, it's horrific how that could happen, it disturbs me how there's no limit as to how much agony a human can feel, it's terrifying how one can potentially suffer so much yet not die. All I wish for is a guaranteed, peaceful death which is like never waking again, it's such an unacceptable, hellish tragedy how the option of such isn't a basic human right.
 
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tsumihoroboshi

tsumihoroboshi

Lost Impact
Oct 31, 2023
198
it's the knowing it's the end of conscious thought and not knowing what that means.
 
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lizzywizzy09

Specialist
May 11, 2024
397
If I was guaranteed a comfortable death, I would have been gone years ago.
 
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BardBarrie

Specialist
Mar 17, 2024
300
If it wasn't painful would you be dead by now?
Oh absolutely I would; the pain is the main barrier for me.

I don't mind not being alive, we've all already been there before anyway.
 
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LaughingGoat

Mage
Apr 11, 2024
596
My method is painless so not the barrier for me, but I do wonder how people endure the pain of many years remaining alive due to fear of pain for a short amount of time. Not meant as a a judgement, honestly just a struggle for me understand empathetically.
 
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underscore_nine

underscore_nine

the sweet release
Feb 17, 2023
145
Pain most definitely, or rather survival
 
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beardyoldcorpse

Member
Jan 4, 2024
21
Of course……why do you think we're all here? Everyone wants to die with as little pain as possible…. Both to ourselves and also to the loved ones we leave behind!
 
ferrie

ferrie

she/they
May 19, 2024
486
I don't really care about the pain, I only worry about it not working after my past failed attempts
 
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MikUma

MikUma

certified red flag
Dec 7, 2023
56
it's the fear and worry of making myself suffer more than i already am, versus the fact that i will just stop being a person, i guess. i dont want struggle because i feel like the si a person has is so strong and the human body can feel so much, it doesnt matter if i die or not, it'll be so unbrearable. i just want to die and not worry about pain.
 
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Traveller12724

Experienced
May 14, 2024
233
I fear that stupid survival instinct that seems to be programmed into all of us and the fact that it can stop you or make you terrified to go through with it. Overcoming it is the biggest and most important thing.
 
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timetodie24

Wizard
Apr 14, 2023
620
It's more SI, fear of failure, others getting in the way. I don't care about painless method as I want to suffer like I deserve but I guess my body fears the pain. Like I've stood on bridge and wanted to jump but my body freezes up.
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

?/?/2024
Apr 25, 2023
874
I fear pain and failure. If it were not painful and there was no possibility of failure, I would have been dead a long time ago.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,557
Pain, and then surviving with continued physical pain.
 
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DeIetedUser4739

Guest
Apr 21, 2024
428
I definitely wouldn't go for a painful method but fear of failure and not knowing what happens after we die is my issue.
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,280
Jumping isn't painful. It's just scary and final. Imagine regretting it once over the edge 😳
 
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reallytired241

New Member
May 28, 2024
3
If it wasn't painful would you be dead by now?
Definitely. I remember my recent attempt failed only because it was absolutely terrifying. I tried it multiple times, but it always ended up the same. I didn't have the guts to do it, at least not in the way I did it. Maybe one day. For now i keep on going.
Jumping isn't painful. It's just scary and final. Imagine regretting it once over the edge 😳
You ever heard of the poem "The View from Halfway Down"?
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,280
Definitely. I remember my recent attempt failed only because it was absolutely terrifying. I tried it multiple times, but it always ended up the same. I didn't have the guts to do it, at least not in the way I did it. Maybe one day. For now i keep on going.

You ever heard of the poem "The View from Halfway Down"?
Yes from Bojack. Great show. But I can't rewatch it because of the celebrity drama stuff.
 
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reallytired241

New Member
May 28, 2024
3
Yes from Bojack. Great show. But I can't rewatch it because of the celebrity drama stuff.
Yeah lol. That's one of my fears about jumping though. Regretting the choice after the fact. Though if ever, I'd pick somewhere nice and quiet and beautiful.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,284
I don't fear the pain as I know it won't be too painful and won't last too long. The process of dying and the activities leading up to it is what makes me anxious and afraid.
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,280
Yeah lol. That's one of my fears about jumping though. Regretting the choice after the fact. Though if ever, I'd pick somewhere nice and quiet and beautiful.
I wonder what its like to hit the earth at 100 miles an hour like a meteor
 
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reallytired241

New Member
May 28, 2024
3
I wonder what its like to hit the earth at 100 miles an hour like a meteor
Probably breathtaking, literally lmao. Although one thing i also fear about jumping is that there is a big chance that i'd still be alive when i hit the ground, depending on the height. Imagine being down there for a few seconds, still alive and breathing, and you can't move anything at all and everything is just painful. would suck ngl
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,280
Probably breathtaking, literally lmao. Although one thing i also fear about jumping is that there is a big chance that i'd still be alive when i hit the ground, depending on the height. Imagine being down there for a few seconds, still alive and breathing, and you can't move anything at all and everything is just painful. would suck ngl
The pain would make me feel alive. My brain needs to be destroyed violently. It was ruined by CPTSD.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
3,655
I fear the pain and also the method going wrong. I don't fear death itself as death I'd peaceful.. perhaps the most peaceful thing I can ever get. I thought perfection was impossible but it isn't because death is perfection
 
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byebyeblondie

byebyeblondie

Member
Jun 24, 2023
35
For me it's that I am scared I will fail again. I worry I'd end up being sectioned and then I would lose the only reasons I actually get out of bed in a morning.
 
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