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Dandelion's

Dandelion's

Dumbass
May 24, 2026
191
I try to talk about the future with people to keep them from suspecting I might be suicidal, In reality I know all of the things I am saying are bullshit... but it's a pretty facade.
 
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2Sensible

2Sensible

Member
Aug 12, 2026
44
I don't like talking about it because i know i'm lying(given the fact that i don't plan to be alive). Which makes me feel guilt.
 
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Dandelion's

Dandelion's

Dumbass
May 24, 2026
191
I don't like talking about it because i know i'm lying(given the fact that i don't plan to be alive). Which makes me feel guilt.
I understand that point of view from a person who has loved ones, I personally don't feel guilty about it since they are lying to me as well.
 
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sanctionedpriest

sanctionedpriest

Member
Mar 27, 2026
6
yeah i do put on a facade when talking to people about my foreseeable "future" but honestly it's getting unbearable almost as if i'm living 2 different lives, though i usually only mention the next 2-3 years because i don't really see myself living beyond that but who knows... all i know is that i'm gonna be the one responsible for my demise
 
Nangijala

Nangijala

Life's a party and I am the piñata
Jul 25, 2022
37
Even as a kid when people asked me about the future I just treated it as an imagination exercise. Like if someone asked me what I wanted to be when I grow up, I just treated it as how normal people would treat a question like "if you grew wings, what would you do with them?".

Treating it that way made it easy for me to enthusiastically talk about my "future" even if I never had a hope for one.
 
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To_bareTo_tear

Member
May 30, 2026
10
Even as a kid when people asked me about the future I just treated it as an imagination exercise. Like if someone asked me what I wanted to be when I grow up, I just treated it as how normal people would treat a question like "if you grew wings, what would you do with them?".

Treating it that way made it easy for me to enthusiastically talk about my "future" even if I never had a hope for one.
Likewise i have all sorts of "futures" I've told people that I would never even come close to irl even signing up to things to try and "achieve" them. Sometimes I, of course fail, and people try to sympathise with me when I do since it must be so important to me and I feel bad about lying to them like that but in general my mindset around life is just not to take anything that happens too seriously so I just say i lost interest and move onto the next "future"
 
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UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Trial Mod
May 4, 2025
560
I used to lie to others about my plans for the future, it's gradually become half a lie to them and to myself. I don't know if I want to get better or die but I guess I'll see.