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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,847
Lots of pics during on our many trips around the country, but I won't look at them now, not a chance
 
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hamvil

hamvil

Wizard
Aug 29, 2022
650
I do actually, then I feel immediately miserable. Most of them are from a time I was doing much better (at least on the surface). Some are with a person that used me.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I don't really like any pictures after college… My life got poisoned and weird… I stopped taking pictures and writing in diaries… The narrative of my life fell apart… I noticed that I only like to do pictures when I'm happy… Following mental breakdown my smile looks weird and forced…
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
I have decided to stop looking at them. They just make me feel worse about my facial injuries.
 
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makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
Oh, I look at old photos of my family and myself. Then I get mad as hades, as I was not 6'8 280 pounds of solid muscle with platinum blond hair and blue eyes. And I was not born into a family that had train loads of beautiful US greenbacks. So, yeah, I look and wish I was never here.
 
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TiredLostHope20

TiredLostHope20

SN Arrived!
Aug 24, 2022
135
I look at my pictures of myself when i was 8 and keep asking myself. "What happened?"
 
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Poisonblood

Member
Mar 26, 2021
31
I don't like looking at my old pictures. My childhood was painful and even now as an adult my life is still painful. Though looking back, I regret not pursuing a job that would allow me to leave my country and family behind permanently. Now I'm stuck with them and I hate it.
 
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SecretDissociation

SecretDissociation

Suicide enthusiast
Sep 11, 2022
386
Not ever really I can't stand my face even though I was child.
I honestly think I looked so ugly it makes me want to weep of embarrassment
 
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a3q

New Member
Sep 6, 2022
4
Sometimes, usually when it pops up on google photos or smth. Don't really have any older ones because android and iphone wasn't really a thing before. But if it ever does, you do wonder where it all went to shit so bad. I wouldn't redo anything I did. It was fun, crazy most of the times but the best times of my life.
 
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S like Siren

S like Siren

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,564
I often look at the pics of me as a baby and i wish i could hug that baby and protect her from all the suffering....it's heartbreaking,i cry every time...we are all so innocent as babies/kids
 
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Leiden

Arcanist
Sep 1, 2020
435
I can't bare to look at older pictures of myself before it was as bad as it is. To me it's like stabbing myself in the eye with a screwdriver.
 
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waitingforrest

Elementalist
Dec 27, 2021
842
Very few pictures of me remain because I burnt most of them in preperation from the last serrious attempt. But from the ones that remain from childhood, always had this vacant look in my eyes. And the smile, somehow looked sad.
 
Alcoholic Teletubby

Alcoholic Teletubby

Rip in piss
Jan 10, 2022
446
No. I can't bring myself to do it. Even though I've never been a fan of taking my own pictures, looking at images of my younger self just makes me sad. I want to apologize so badly, for messing up everything. But I can't.

I'm trying to push forward, but at the same time, I hate it. I'm so tired.
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
I keep looking at the photos before and after my facial injuries hoping to see something different, but the fact is I will never be the pretty woman I once was. It's not something I have adjusted to, but yes, I'm back looking at them hoping to see something different. Ridiculous.
 

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