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daemonblight

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Jun 26, 2018
82
Do you ever have those dreams that "feel" real? Like, you think you're awake and don't recognize it as just a dream? Do you ever - in those dreams - dream about you being happy?

Whenever I have those dreams I experience my ideal life. I'm happy, successful, healthy, I have great relationships and I look great. The emotions I feel are so pure. They're emotions I've never experienced in the "waken world".

Then I wake up, in the same bed and the same room in which I fell asleep. I sit up and look in the mirror on my wall and it's first then which I realize that none of it was real.

Those dreams cause me severe pain, but also intense happiness. Do you have those dreams too?
 
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war-is-lost

Student
Apr 15, 2018
124
Do you ever have those dreams that "feel" real? Like, you think you're awake and don't recognize it as just a dream? Do you ever - in those dreams - dream about you being happy?

Whenever I have those dreams I experience my ideal life. I'm happy, successful, healthy, I have great relationships and I look great. The emotions I feel are so pure. They're emotions I've never experienced in the "waken world".

Then I wake up, in the same bed and the same room in which I fell asleep. I sit up and look in the mirror on my wall and it's first then which I realize that none of it was real.

Those dreams cause me severe pain, but also intense happiness. Do you have those dreams too?

Yup, I do, dream is my ultimate escape, but 5 mins after I wake up, the reality sets in and it's all downhill from there.
 
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YaYaDr

YaYaDr

Student
Jun 26, 2018
128
I've had those dreams before many times. Makes reality feel evermore like a nightmare.
 
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Definitelyworried

Definitelyworried

Member
Jun 19, 2018
551
I thought I was the only one.
I recently was telling some people I know about those dreams.
Those dreams are really nightmares to me because it hurts me so much to know how my life could be instead of reality. If I could avoid those dreams I would.
I prefer no dreams.
 
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Rocky M

Rocky M

I'm A Monster
Jun 20, 2018
213
Do you ever have those dreams that "feel" real? Like, you think you're awake and don't recognize it as just a dream? Do you ever - in those dreams - dream about you being happy?

Whenever I have those dreams I experience my ideal life. I'm happy, successful, healthy, I have great relationships and I look great. The emotions I feel are so pure. They're emotions I've never experienced in the "waken world".

Then I wake up, in the same bed and the same room in which I fell asleep. I sit up and look in the mirror on my wall and it's first then which I realize that none of it was real.

Those dreams cause me severe pain, but also intense happiness. Do you have those dreams too?
I do occasionally. When they happen, they're wonderful. But I'd rather not wake up or have no dreams at all because of what I have to wake up to
 
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daemonblight

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Jun 26, 2018
82
I've had those dreams before many times. Makes reality feel evermore like a nightmare.
Indeed

Those dreams are really nightmares to me because it hurts me so much to know how my life could be instead of reality. If I could avoid those dreams I would.
I prefer no dreams.
I do occasionally. When they happen, they're wonderful. But I'd rather not wake up or have no dreams at all because of what I have to wake up to
I definitely agree. I wish they'd stop.
 
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Kira

Kira

Same stuff, different day
Apr 27, 2018
130
All the time. I don't really have any anxiety or pain like I do when I'm awake. Often times I dream about old friends and old places I used to visit. I had one of those dreams just the other night actually. I was back in my old town and I went to some kind of party. Many of my old friends were there and I felt so happy. Not too long after I started getting extremely tired, to the point where I could hardly keep my eyes open. The minute I fell asleep in the dream is the minute I woke up in the real world. All I could do after that was cry honestly. I wish things could go back to how they were before. I hate being alone.
 
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Fylobatica

Fylobatica

Inactive
Apr 1, 2018
365
This topic reminded me that it's been 10+ years that I've only been dreaming abstract, geometrical shapes.
No people, no landscapes, no "beautiful skies" or "green lands to explore".

Shapes. It's probably because either consciously or subconsciously I see existence as a mechanical trap ready to grind us all to powder.
 
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Tiburcio

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I almost never have dreams. But when I have them, they all are nightmares, very stressful thoughts so I'm too anxious to notice if I'm dreaming or this is really happening.
 
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Imaginos

Imaginos

Full-time layabout
Apr 7, 2018
638
Nope. Can't say I've ever had a dream like that, actually. I'd imagine that mostly comes down to the fact that there is no, nor has there ever been, some "other life" I'd rather be leading. I don't mind being a hikikomori. In fact, in most respects, I prefer it. However, having said that, I do mind being alive, which is really the main problem at the end of the day. Come to think of it though, I kinda find it strange how I've never had any dreams where I've died, and or, committed suicide. You'd think I would've had at least one, but nope. Never. Outside of nightmares, my dreams are usually either super boring or completely, totally whimsical. Not much middle ground, I'm afraid. Although, I do really wish I could lucid dream. I recall managing it once many, many years ago, but that's about it, unfortunately. Quite a shame, since it would certainly make me look forward to sleep way more than I do now. It could almost become a new hobby. Having complete control over my dreams and conjuring up whatever I wanted. But, oh well. That's life for you.

This is a good representation of the kinds of dreams I have. I actually had a dream exactly like this one in what feels like a decade ago and it's always stuck with me. I couldn't contain my shock when I saw it almost perfectly replicated by just some random guy. It was downright insane to see such a personal dream be plucked from my unconscious like that. The image of the giant silver obelisk on the beach especially, is just ridiculously close to the kinds of things I saw in that dream.

 
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iFeelmeaninglesss

Member
Jun 13, 2018
23
I wish my brain would stop dreaming as well just like others mention.

It's incredibly annoying what your mind can do to you in sleep mode, especially after waking up from a peaceful dream because then ,for me, I'm reminded that I have nothing to wake up for :(

That peace is gone/forgotten
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
because then ,for me, I'm reminded that I have nothing to wake up for :(

I've felt that way since school. It's only gotten worse every single year. And while you might be able to distract yourself from the preoccupation for a while, eventually society, once mindlessly optimistic, begins telling you that, yes, you have nothing to wake up for. When they won't consider you for life-sustaining work regardless your experience and qualifications because you're just too old now, despite excellent health and decades of life ahead of you. When you join community activities only to have everybody look through you, regardless how outgoing you are, because you're the ultimate un-cool, old. When everything you say or do is discounted, unwanted simply because of the numbers on your driver's license. And when your own federal government, fully aware of this, itself engages in ageism officially. Eventually the cavalier "hang in there" just fades to silence since, having hung in there, no one sees or hears you anymore.
 
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iFeelmeaninglesss

Member
Jun 13, 2018
23
Eventually the cavalier "hang in there" just fades to silence since, having hung in there, no one sees or hears you anymore.

It's ironic for some people longer lifespans doesn't always equal a more happy life :aw:
 
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CogitoMori

I won't be on as much as usual. Less alone time
Oct 21, 2024
408
I've dreamed of the only person I trust twice, and every night I try to induce more dreams of him.
 
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J&L383

Paragon
Jul 18, 2023
985
Do you ever have those dreams that "feel" real? Like, you think you're awake and don't recognize it as just a dream? Do you ever - in those dreams - dream about you being happy?

Whenever I have those dreams I experience my ideal life. I'm happy, successful, healthy, I have great relationships and I look great. The emotions I feel are so pure. They're emotions I've never experienced in the "waken world".

Then I wake up, in the same bed and the same room in which I fell asleep. I sit up and look in the mirror on my wall and it's first then which I realize that none of it was real.

Those dreams cause me severe pain, but also intense happiness. Do you have those dreams too?
Oh my gosh! Me too. So true. It must be more universal than we realize. Sadly, my dreams are what I live for these days. (But I guess I at least have something to live for).
 
-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
672
Yes. It's… quite disappointing, waking up from them.
 
Twiceler

Twiceler

Pro-suicide. Blackpill.
Dec 16, 2021
92
Those dreams if they come can keep me in that state for a half of a day. For me, evenings are more depressing usually. Though, with my anxiety growing, those dreams are gone.
 
Opera

Opera

Member
Nov 16, 2024
83
Do you ever have those dreams that "feel" real? Like, you think you're awake and don't recognize it as just a dream? Do you ever - in those dreams - dream about you being happy?
I do experience those dreams! They feel so magical and give me such joy... and then waking up to realize it's not real. It makes me sad that my dreams are always better than reality.
 
yellowsouled

yellowsouled

* Let justice be done.
Nov 29, 2024
165
The only real consistent source of peace in my life is dreams and daydreams. I'm spaced out almost constantly. Not a fan of having to "face reality" and all that.
 

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