Do you ever get jealous?

[Lifeaballache]

Bit of a weird one tonight.

I'm getting really jealous about who will live in my flat next.

I think because I anticipated that I would be here a long time.

Also getting really jealous of family's etc. Not that I ever had any intention of starting one but I think its the what ifs and the happiness shared by them when they are out and about enjoying life. Part of me wishes I was a child again.

 

[Hollowillow]

I try not to think of my loss... I want out enough already... But I'm very jealous... Anyone healthy

 

[Huntfish34]

I completely understand. Same for me sometimes,. Just depends on the situation I guess.

 

[Cerulea]

I spent my entire life building a life that someone else now lives and gets to reap the rewards of. My partner of 18 years replaced me before I was gone. I know the person who has put on my skin and walks around in the life I built. I am jealous of them. It's not their work and they don't deserve it. I suppose I'm jealous that they matter enough to be with and I simply don't.

It's easy to feel jealousy towards people who have access to what we don't have access to. We're feeling the delta of difference between how others are cared for in the world vs how we are received.

I'm sorry these difficult feelings are finding their way to you. I hope they pass quickly.

 

[theboy]

we have all felt jealousy

 

[ManicPanic2018]

I've spent my entire life being jealous of anyone who was born a woman. Or is at least shorter than me. Gets too tiring to deal with after a while

 

[Mofreeko]

I used to. Then I realized that the vast majority of people spend the best parts of their lives going to a job they hate during the best part of their day. Then during their free time they sit on a couch and watch tv. I don't want to trade places with anyone because in the end it's all the same. I'm tired of all life, not just my life.

 

[StolenLife]

I get jealous whenever I see people going to school with a group of friends. I wonder why I could have never had that while I was in the K-12 system. Instead I was either abused or ignored. I get jealous whenever I see Instagram profiles of people I used to know, all of which seem to be doing much better than me. I get jealous of how much other girls are loved and desired by men while I look 30+ due to trauma which aged me up. I can't take it anymore and I want to go, the problem is sadly in me and other aspects of life aren't good enough to make me stay.

 

[Cerulea]

I'm tired of all life, not just my life.

I feel that in my bones.

Does this concept prompt any particular feelings for you? Sometimes it makes me feel insane, other times it makes me feel resolute. Just curious to hear from someone else who at least knows the feeling.

 

[denix66]

Un poco raro esta noche.

Me estoy poniendo muy celoso acerca de quién vivirá en mi apartamento a continuación.

Creo que porque anticipé que estaría aquí mucho tiempo.

También me pongo muy celoso de la familia, etc. No es que nunca haya tenido la intención de comenzar uno, pero creo que es el qué pasaría si y la felicidad compartida por ellos cuando están fuera y disfrutando de la vida. Una parte de mí desea volver a ser un niño.

Tal vez... No es el momento... En caso de duda, pospondría el tema y lo dejaría de lado por el momento.... No sé tu edad o condición física/mental... si eres joven... .y tu estado físico/mental es "aceptable"... En mi opinión (66 años, dolores musculoesqueléticos etc. etc)...... debes analizar "tu" problema con detenimiento... .. Un abrazo para ti.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I am jealous of people who were able to navigate life properly…

 

[Huntfish34]

Yep ,. That's me in a nutshell right there.... People that can navigate through easily and properly. I seem to be missing something or I'm just a Fckn idiot,. Idk anymore. Extremely draining to say the very Least.

 

[FuneralCry]

I only envy those who no longer exist. They cannot suffer anymore and are free from all of life's problems. I could never envy anyone who is still alive. I don't want what they have. Life simply does not interest or appeal to me in any way. Non existence is ideal.

 

[KQuotientW]

Jealous of people who've been total arseholes to me and have a better life than I do. A decent home, in a decent town, a family who loves them and isn't toxic, a job, no stalker (not an ex), no ex who was a cop and they don't get harassed by police, a completed tertiary education, etc. All of the things I can't have because I'm stuck living here. I often wonder why arseholes get a better life and kind people end up with shit.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Also getting really jealous of family's etc.

this but not the same reason you mentioned. i just wish i could be part of the functional family playing frisbee together

 

[Lifeaballache]

this but not the same reason you mentioned. i just wish i could be part of the functional family playing frisbee together

Legit same.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Anyone who doesn't feel a strong compulsion to die. But otherwise I try not to indulge envy too much because it doesn't do anything.

 

[Al0neAlwayz]

Bit of a weird one tonight.

I'm getting really jealous about who will live in my flat next.

I think because I anticipated that I would be here a long time.

Also getting really jealous of family's etc. Not that I ever had any intention of starting one but I think its the what ifs and the happiness shared by them when they are out and about enjoying life. Part of me wishes I was a child again.

I get jealous all the time. Especially when I see people in pics with their families, having fun... I had all that and lost it all. Now I won't ever have it again and it completely crushes me every minute of every day.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

I'm absolutely jealous of those out there that never got dealt a bad hand.

 

[FrozenMango]

I completely understand. I walk around stuff, hear stuff, and see stuff that would never happen to me. I am done, counting the days

 

[makethepainstop]

Bit of a weird one tonight.

I'm getting really jealous about who will live in my flat next.

I think because I anticipated that I would be here a long time.

Also getting really jealous of family's etc. Not that I ever had any intention of starting one but I think its the what ifs and the happiness shared by them when they are out and about enjoying life. Part of me wishes I was a child again.

I get jealous of men who are big blond and muscular, rich people, famous people and especially people who lead charmed lives. I was NOT born under a lucky star, a dark star perhaps but not a lucky one.

 

[Traveler VII]

I feel that in my bones.

Does this concept prompt any particular feelings for you? Sometimes it makes me feel insane, other times it makes me feel resolute. Just curious to hear from someone else who at least knows the feeling.

Though I'm not the person you were asking, I hope you'll pardon my chiming in...

A truly grating thing for me is the veneer of happiness that is projected in various media, as opposed to any actual sense of enjoyment experienced by others.

This apparent joie de vivre is driven by a corporate desire to sell a lifestyle. A person can filter and edit their reality to their heart's content while others look on in envy, often believing that portrayal to be the subject's reality.

The desire some have to constantly be seen at their best by all - vanity - has been exploited by those who have created certain digital veils of deceit for their own gain.

Outside of YouTube (and minimally, LinkedIn), I've never felt any desire to utilize social media. In all, I've found it healthiest to not consume, especially since my true interests lie elsewhere.

 

[FrootyBat]

I get jealous of past me. Also I get jealous seeing people's fantastic photos and stories on FB and IG.

I know I shouldn't compare other people's highlight reels to my own daily news, as they say.

I've been trying to live authentically these past two years and it sucks.

The pathetic thing is that when I was thin and pretty and made much more money, I was very miserable.

I try not to go on social media anymore.

 

[freedompass]

I used to. Then I realized that the vast majority of people spend the best parts of their lives going to a job they hate during the best part of their day. Then during their free time they sit on a couch and watch tv. I don't want to trade places with anyone because in the end it's all the same. I'm tired of all life, not just my life.

Yup I would echo this. I am just not engaged enough with life itself to really be jealous of anyone as such. I've never really wanted anything. Never had big dreams. Never wanted to marry or raise a family. Maybe it was a case of 'sour grapes' as on some level I knew those things would never be mine. None of them are proof against the worst in any case. Having people or things that you value leaves you more fearful of losing it all. I'm content to keep 'watching the wheels' for now at least.

OP I'm curious, are you planning to ctb, is that why you're leaving your flat?

 

[AUTIST777]

I have a fear of missing out. I missed out on so many opportunities when I was younger that I now regret it. There is no going back to my formative years and reversing the damage that was done.

I would say its more of a missing out thing than jealousy, since I don't have any close friends irl or online to talk to and compare myself to.

 

[conflagration]

I am extremely jealous of people who were raised by good families without abuse and therefore are hundred miles in life before me.