Do you ever feel

[wildflowers1996]

It's SO weird how you are you. And not someone else.

I know people will say asking "why am I me and not someone else?" is the same as asking "why is a rock not a flower" but I don't see it as the same thing.

I'll never know what it's like to be someone else. No one else will ever be me. I feel so alone in my mind. Like I wish there was a second soul inside my body to keep me company.

I can't help thinking WHY am I me? Why wasn't I born someone happy and beautiful and loved? This is probably my only life I'll ever have and it's been ruined. I so badly want to be reincarnated as someone else. I want to live. Just not as me. There's so much I've missed out on, so much I'll never experience. I wish I could ctb and be reincarnated as someone happy. But there's 0 evidence that will happen. Even if reincarnation were real my karma would be bad so I'd just end up miserable and lonely again

 

[Equilibrium]

Same feelings. I'm literally living to build up good karma if reincarnation is true. And the path to building good karma leads to better habits and some happiness in my life so I see it as a worthy cause to strive for it if this is just the one life we get to have. In a sense, that's kinda liberated me from my suicidal thoughts and depression for the time being. I have nothing to lose if this is all I can ever have, might as well just do what I can do and accept this situation. It's not easy and some days I feel like what the point of fucking doing anything if this all I'm ever gonna have but having hope isn't bad in my opinion. Nice to know I'm not the only one in that headspace and someone else has a similar thought process. DM me if you'd like, I'd like to get to know you.

 

[wildflowers1996]

I'm glad I'm not alone but so sorry you've suffered so much to feel the same way. I think because you're a new member it won't let me DM you yet

 

[Equilibrium]

I'm glad I'm not alone but so sorry you've suffered so much to feel the same way. I think because you're a new member it won't let me DM you yet

Yeah I saw that do you have a discord? (:

 

[untothedepths]

Yup. Feel this. Especially when I recount the differences I made in my life to better it and keep going down the same path as before so things aren't getting better.

 

[Meteora]

I know people will say asking "why am I me and not someone else?" is the same as asking "why is a rock not a flower" but I don't see it as the same thing.

Guess ppl who say that just dont understand. I do. I spent many years wishing I was someone else. It s such a painful feeling.
I think, it shows the level if suffering is very high.

 

[Lavender Dreams]

Well, the question is… Have you ever developed a sense of identity? Life is a long journey of discovering your likes, dislikes, personality traits, moral values etc. The more time you spend investing in yourself, the easier it becomes to grow content in your own skin.

From experience, it is possible for that feeling to get better but I think most of us aren't immune to this, especially when we dislike parts of ourselves and they can't be easily changed. Nowadays I try and adapt small attributes of other people that appeal to me if I still have the energy.

 

[vadim]

I'm the same. I now don't believe as wholeheartedly in pessimist philosophy (existence = suffering, non-existence is preferable to existence) as I used to in that I don't believe it's universal. It seems some people are capable of being happy and I'm just not one of them.

I'll never know what it's like to be someone else. No one else will ever be me. I feel so alone in my mind. Like I wish there was a second soul inside my body to keep me company.

I feel this so hard. People might try but no one can ever truly understand or know me because they can't get inside my head, nor can I ever truly know or understand any other human being. We all come into this world alone and we leave it alone. I believe this is true for all people, although they might not be aware of it. It's probably much easier to be happy if you don't feel incapable of genuine human connection.

 

[Bannana]

It's SO weird how you are you. And not someone else.

I know people will say asking "why am I me and not someone else?" is the same as asking "why is a rock not a flower" but I don't see it as the same thing.

I'll never know what it's like to be someone else. No one else will ever be me. I feel so alone in my mind. Like I wish there was a second soul inside my body to keep me company.

I can't help thinking WHY am I me? Why wasn't I born someone happy and beautiful and loved? This is probably my only life I'll ever have and it's been ruined. I so badly want to be reincarnated as someone else. I want to live. Just not as me. There's so much I've missed out on, so much I'll never experience. I wish I could ctb and be reincarnated as someone happy. But there's 0 evidence that will happen. Even if reincarnation were real my karma would be bad so I'd just end up miserable and lonely again

Our individualism and separation from the collective body liberates us
but then we are alone in our bodies
you are who you are not because of fate or birthright
you are who you are because you are you, you think therefore you are
nobody is born happy, we they work towards it
only you can decide weather you want to put in the effort to better the soul
or return to the collective losing your individualism, being your life

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Yeah, it sucks knowing that you'll always be you no matter what you do. Still, you seem like a really nice person, so much so that I always notice when you make a new post on here. I'm not even that good at remembering shit so that's saying a lot.

If reincarnation exists then I would want to be reincarnated as someone much cooler than the lame broken piece of shit I am. Then again, a large part of my faults are my own doing. Still, having a do over would be great.

 

[LevUwU]

me when the disassociation hits

 

[wildflowers1996]

Yeah I saw that do you have a discord? (:

I do yes, not sure if I am allowed to post it here?