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trulyfeelhopeless
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- Dec 13, 2021
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EXACT SAMEYes I do. But at the same time, I weigh it against the pain I'm causing now and the pain I will continue to cause if I stay. I don't know which is worse, honestly.
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EXACT SAMEYes I do. But at the same time, I weigh it against the pain I'm causing now and the pain I will continue to cause if I stay. I don't know which is worse, honestly.
I have a loving family and friends. Everything was great up until a few months ago. I made the worst decision of my life and I'm paying with it with my own life now. I will feel extremely guilty, knowing that it will hurt them so much. I unfortunately do not have any other option at this point
Yes. I feel like a letdown to my family, friends, and most of all myself by CBTing. But this chronic illness I'm afflicted with has no cure and I simply don't have the strength to live every day in misery and agony. It's a tough call and not a pleasant decision to make, but something has to be done. I've already written my CBT note for my family to read and recorded a video for them where I expressed my love and sang a fairly recent song that has given me comfort so that they can hear my voice and hear me tell them I that I love them even after my departure. I also decided to leave the remaining of my savings with them and have instructed that they may do as they please with my belongings.Myself … no.
Only person I know I'd deeply affect is my nan, who raised me.
But I've rationalised it, thus:
She'll grieve for a while, but then (hopefully) she'll be able to get on with her life and no longer have to worry about "that" knock on the door by the police, and/or ambulances again. I'd like for her to live the rest of her days in peace, as she constantly worries about me as it is.
How about you?
Try to stay for your nan. I promised my dad I would not leave before him. He was the center of my universe. He told me he would not last long without me.Myself … no.
Only person I know I'd deeply affect is my nan, who raised me.
But I've rationalised it, thus:
She'll grieve for a while, but then (hopefully) she'll be able to get on with her life and no longer have to worry about "that" knock on the door by the police, and/or ambulances again. I'd like for her to live the rest of her days in peace, as she constantly worries about me as it is.
How about you?
Same here. Living for my friends and family was my most powerful motivator to keep going when things first got really bad, but it feels like each month that passes it's less and less of a deterrent. I still feel bad for the few people I know it will devastate, but it doesn't feel like a good reason to keep going.i feel immense guilt, mostly for my family. but over the years i have gone from using it as a reason to stay alive to an unfortunate side effect of my death. you can only stay alive for other people for so long
I can relate so much to everything you said. I don't know what other option there is but I feel so guilty about hurting my family/friends.I have a loving family and friends. Everything was great up until a few months ago. I made the worst decision of my life and I'm paying with it with my own life now. I will feel extremely guilty, knowing that it will hurt them so much. I unfortunately do not have any other option at this point