Do you even remember who you used to be?

[outrider567]

Me 2 years ago died the day this shit happened to me.This happy,full of hope fella is not here anymore.I barely remember this version of me.For me this person is like some stranger,because I don't feel like it was me.
So I kinda can remember what I used to be,especially when I look through my 2 years ago photos but I barely can admit it was me.

Yep, me since also since January

 

[akana]

I can remember/recall parts of my individuality but I wouldn't say I remember it. feels so so distant never felt anything like this. i feel like an entirely different species from becoming so traumatised :(

Since around November/October last year I stopped recognising myself in the mirror I'm entirely different from who I used to be

 

[Sick of it all]

I remember the days before my mom died. After that I became worse mentally. It doesn't matter to me who I was because I only know what I am now.

 

[Forgotten]

I'm a shell of my former self. When I try to remember my past it's like remembering a movie or a dream or something along those lines, because not only I was completely different, but everything felt different as well, all the joy, all those happy moments, I know it's impossible to experience anything like that ever again, hard to believe I even experienced them, it's just something so distant now, the show is over for me. It's actually strange to think I felt happiness back then because today feeling happiness is an unknown feeling to me.

 

[hamvil]

I do not remeber the details anymore, everything is just fading. I have difficulties separating what was real from the imaginary world I built in my mind to forget things. I do remeber general stuff, like that I had a creative job, that I used to travel. But I do not remeber of mix up the places I have been. I feel everyday confused and scared.

 

[deformedface]

I don't think life has been better back then either, was miserable because of bullying since i remember. I have PTSD from it which it scars my memory. I have a jaw issue which doesnt really help

 

[4390101]

yes bc i haven't changed a bit, i'm still suicidal and i'm still stupid and have the reactions of a fucking mid-schooler

yes, my surroundings have changed and my life has "improved" now but it's like i'm stuck inside of a cage that i can't break out of and everything just happens around me without me actually participating or being taken into account. this cage is what i like to call "my safe net choke-hold" bc i'm basically restraining myself from being anyone or doing anything in order to not let my fucked up mind show and to keep pleasing the people around me so i'm still useful for them, and at the same time my fucked up mind doesn't allow me to concentrate or to study or work or do anything really bc dealing with all the shit that goes through my mind is already exhausting also there's my "inner child" who kinda wants to try new things but is being held back by my "adult self" bc we already tried everything there is and nothing sparks joy anymore (also bc there's many other things that i simply can't do bc of my chronic illness) and all of this together holds up my day-to-day life.

I never knew who i was i don't know who i am and i don't want to even try to be someone.

 

[AliceTheGoon]

I remember who I used to be because I still have all his stuff and he's only been gone for nine and a half months.