Discussion Do you enjoy thinking about death?

[franos666]

I really like the idea of death. It makes me feel better when I start thinking that one day I will just die and stop feeling any emotions, suffering or anything else. I don't have to do anything. I can sleep, eat, play games or do anything in this world and death will eventually come. It's a beatiful feeling knowing about it...

Another thing that I like about the idea of death that it makes our world more fair because it doesn't matter if you are rich, poor, happy or depressed you will die one day.

 

[FoxSauce]

Kinda brings me comfort yet im afraid of it

 

[isthisthingon]

Personally, it haunts me. It's right there waiting for me, yet I can't commit.

 

[Another Iteration]

Pondering death is the single most important quality us intelligent beings can possess, especially in this day and age. So much suffering in this world, and we can all hold ourselves accountable to the fundamental responsibility of illuminating the darkness.

 

[BlueberryDeer]

I do, and I called it thanatophilia. Do not confuse it with necrophilia, who is a sexual fetish for corpses. I certainly not have any intention to mess up with cadavers.
Anyway, I know what does it feel. Death fascinates me, specially their personifications, both in the popular culture and the the religions. One thing: I am not fascinated with murders, or war. Only to read about it, altrough the lifeline advice of google pops ups frequently, hahaha.
Anyway, specially regarding deaths by suicide, I feel like a hobby or personal philosophical daydreaming about it.

 

[Done_with_the_world]

Yes, it is a relief. I think I want to die while in water…because the ocean and lakes have always comforted me. It calms down my overreactive nervous system. Same as the cold. Dying in water or a cold place would be comforting.

I just want to fall asleep and not wake up…

 

[Oiled Sandwich]

Most comforting thought for me. Whenever I get really anxious about life, I think of the silence and stillness of death.. I think about the thousands of people that die everyday, and the hundreds of thousands that die every year. Regardless of what the anti-ctb crowd think, life is a messy game of chess where everyone meets the same fate one way or another. You can either speed it up, or prolong it, but make no mistake: There is no winning this game, because it's not meant to be won. Entropy is the fate.

Reminds me of Carl Sagan's Pale Blue Dot. At the end of the day, it doesn't matter what your social status was, how much money you made, how many wars were fought, how many children you had, etc. One day you and I will be forgotten about just like the common people in the past, our arrogant species will disappear from this planet, and this planet will meet it's end. Nothing but silence(Not really since planets produce sound). The universe will continue to exist regardless of how much humanity wishes to be the center of it. Helps calm the mood while listening to Sleep Token.

Immortality sounds like a fate worse than death: Constantly having to seek distractions to not become insane from boredom, and watching people constantly die. That's something I definitely consider childish.

 

[crossingtheriver]

yes, every waking moment of the day I draw comfort from fantasizing about death. I started doing this in my early teens, tried a ton of different therapies NONE worked. Even the ones that seemingly worked for some time, then it stopped. I want to embrace death soon, I want to get that peace , that break from constant mental chatter that ruined me and people in my life.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

Yes yes yes, it's the only thought that makes me feel comfort too and I feel like death is the thing I actually adore. And it will help me escape from this vile reality.

 

[StarryEyed]

How refreshing to read these replies!!!

Since I was a kid, when vampires would talk in movies about the curse of immortality, I totally got it. As traumas accumulated over the decades, I became suicidal. But I tried it and it obviously failed and I'm too chicken to try again. It's the only thing getting me through is knowing that with every passing second I'm getting closer to death and I'm 100% guaranteed to die. I'm actually almost starting to get excited about it, and can foresee maybe one day I will actually feel joyful about the fact that I'm actually dying. So, no, I wouldn't say as the OP asks if I "enjoy tthinking about death", but in comparison to how I feel about everything else in my life, relatively speaking, perhaps I do actually enjoy thinking about my impending death.

But I don't think about other people dying much - not like my own dying.

So I got to thinking a few months ago if there are famous reflections on pro-death (so to speak). And I found some interesting stuff. To me, anyway. These are all from Pinterest and I have not verified all of these as accurate quotes of the author. In case anyone else is interested, here you go...

 

[tomatobastard]

i just like to think that there's nothing afterwards, no emotions no feeling no thoughts.

 

[StoneCactus]

The one thing that gives me comfort is knowing that however bad my life gets it won't last forever.

 

[buriedinmyhead]

Thinking about my own death brings me relief since I know I can always just opt out of life

 

[LovesickLoser]

I really like the idea of death. It makes me feel better when I start thinking that one day I will just die and stop feeling any emotions, suffering or anything else. I don't have to do anything. I can sleep, eat, play games or do anything in this world and death will eventually come. It's a beatiful feeling knowing about it...

Another thing that I like about the idea of death that it makes our world more fair because it doesn't matter if you are rich, poor, happy or depressed you will die one day.

Every time I find myself ruminating on how my life has become over the years and my mind starts to spiral, the greatest comfort I have is being able to tell myself it won't matter after death. Regardless of if there's an afterlife or not, nothing here will matter anymore.

 

[Tomorrow Is Today]

Only times I've felt at ease these days was when I thought about how it would be over soon. The process of reaching it is scary though.

I acknowledge it was kind of self-destructive in a way, when I just let things in real life spiral out of control to the point where I practically dug my own grave.

 

[Cauliflour]

I like thinking about the dying process more than the death part. I'm an atheist so I'm supposed to think there's nothing afterwards, but that makes me a bit uncomfy. I can't explain why, I guess it's the thought that all of this time, this work, this effort, would just vanish permanently in a blink of an eye? I'm not very good at dreaming so I like to hope that the afterlife is just a peaceful existence in various liminal spaces where I can just sit there and relax for once. Is it realistic? Probably not but hey, you can't scientifically prove what happens after death so maybe the afterlife is just personal delusions!

I wish I could vividly dream though, I'm like 1 step away from total aphantasia (the stage 4 in the diagram with just the outline) and I hate it.

 

[Lost Magic]

That's a tough question to answer. I don't really want to be here, but my survival instinct is stronger than I anticipated. It's a bit of both really. I've came close to the edge a few times though.

 

[dyingisanart]

Yes, it brings me relief and makes me think there's a way out of everything I deal with