Do you cry?

[snooperdooper]

I feel like I should cry, but I don't. I'm often confronted with the fact that I'll never be a girl, but I honestly just shrug and move on. Sometimes I'll think really really deeply about that fact and everything it means for me in life and I'll have a feeling like my heart is sinking into my stomach and maybe my eyes will begin to water but I never sob. There's never a tear that streams down my face. It feels like there is a constant aching pain that is building up inside of me, growing with each passing day, but never bursting into a fit of wailing and flailing and sobbing. Do any of you feel this way? Like everything is bottled up and you can't release it because your body is somehow physically preventing you from releasing it?

 

[Eriktf]

have not for years

 

[bankai]

I didn't for literal years. And then I started crying after I came to the site. For a few reasons.

Can't go into detail though.

 

[Mytimeisending]

I did lots of crying then just one day I couldn't cry again. I became numb and have been ever since apart from the feeling of wanting to CTB

 

[22yearsbroken]

Moat off the time when i do is when im alone.. i think about the what could of and what should of been... but moat of all what i wished i had of been..

 

[UnusedGate]

I usually start getting teary and then stop. I just can't fully cry for some reason.

 

[22yearsbroken]

Moat off the time when i do is when im alone.. i think about the what could of and what should of been... but moat of all what i wished i had of been..

Ive been holding tbis back and not told my partner even tbough she knows how i felt but i showed nothing at rhe time... but ibe been open through a few postss today so screw it....

We walked through town going to my docs appoinment a few days ago.. as was getting to the docs .( medical centet ) as it is now .. rurns out she has a new job the chemist under thr docs.. and was on her lunch break as she and he oyfriend walked past me ..he looked at me as if it well its a fhoat almost.. but i had to walk past my daughter as if ahe disnt exist ... because if i said hi im.your dad how would that effext her... i cried all might and immn now.aswell ...stepping awy frim what makea u wholes reealy fking hurts

 

[Forever Sleep]

Pretty much every day.

 

[Eternal Disaster]

I can't cry anymore no matter how much I want. Not a single tear drops from my eyes.

 

[Merocero]

I used to cry a LOT but nowadays it's less and less sigh..

 

[knickknack81]

I used to cry from time to time but in the last 6 months, when everything in my life has turned shitty and I am considering CTB, I haven't had a real cry once. Every now and again if I start verbalizing to myself what im thinking of doing, a get slightly teary eyed. But I haven't hard a good cry in a super long time. It's like im completely lost of any real feeling. I feel like I should be way more down and in the dumps and ready to unload. Instead, I'm just emotionally drained.

 

[The Unanswered Q]

Have tried to but can't, last time was at a funeral almost 4 years ago. Even then it was only a few tears, haven't properly cried since childhood.

 

[Ijustcantanymore]

Too much. Painfully too much.

 

[Cosmophobic]

I properly cried last week for the first time in over a decade. I usually just get the the eyes welling up/lump in throat thing but never the full waterworks. Probably due to emotional blunting from SNRI's.

Anyway I don't how or why but it felt good. Haven't been able to do it since.

 

[sinfonia]

Crying? Never heard of it.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I used to all the time since memories started trickling back. I see a therapist once a week. And not so much anymore. Occasionally yes.

 

[purplesky9]

I feel like I should cry, but I don't. I'm often confronted with the fact that I'll never be a girl, but I honestly just shrug and move on. Sometimes I'll think really really deeply about that fact and everything it means for me in life and I'll have a feeling like my heart is sinking into my stomach and maybe my eyes will begin to water but I never sob. There's never a tear that streams down my face. It feels like there is a constant aching pain that is building up inside of me, growing with each passing day, but never bursting into a fit of wailing and flailing and sobbing. Do any of you feel this way? Like everything is bottled up and you can't release it because your body is somehow physically preventing you from releasing it?

I used too. Not anymore. I think it's the medication.

 

[Emillss]

I cry pretty easily over things that slightly upset or inconvenience me. It physically hurts to cry so it's something I'm working on

 

[patheticparasite]

Yeah, best feeling I know. Sadness is great, I wish I could experience it more often. It's usually induced by a good story I can relate to (movie, game, book, music). In real life it's rare. None of the funerals I've been to made me feel anything, but when the family dog passed due to old age, I cried my eyes out for days.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

For just over a year now, I refuse to cry. Because it feels like if I allow myself to cry, then I admit this is really happening, this wrongness. July last year my world ended, and every time I wanted to cry I fought back the tears, not accepting what has happened. It could be denial, or perhaps delusion. Last week somewhere, for the first time, the eyes simply couldn't hold back tears, it was just flowing, but I refused to let go and just cry, or let too much emotion get involved, because it's better to not feel anything. If I'm dead inside, nothing can kill me again, emotionally. Tbh I also don't want to cry, because they say it's supposed to be a stage of grief. And this is not a stage, because this nightmare cannot be happening.

 

[PI3.14]

I used to cry a lot, almost every day for 3 months straight until like 3 weeks ago.

I no longer cry though, I just accepted my fate I guess and I'm ok with it.

 

[starboy2k]

last time I cried was when I received my HIV diagnosis……and that was in 2020. I LEGIT haven't shed a single tear since. Im a shell with a heartbeat at this point.