Do you cry?

[262653]

I used to a lot, when I was facing wrongdoings with helplessness. Or being frightful of Hell. And sometimes from indignation of getting worse cards then I would want to. When I'm realizing I'm stuck in the living realm and want to go home. I do LOVE crying. It's a sign from emotional brain that things are BAD and it HAS to be dealt IMMEDIATELY. Usually quickly transforms into fury and rage. Great for practicing methods. Or pretty much anything else.

 

[inconsequential]

Very frequently. Moreso after my last TBI.

 

[Bagger]

Rarely, only now i have such depression, anxiety and bad mood that i just can't help myself. Especially when i look at my hidden photo folder. Never ever taken pics of me or my surroundings, but this changed some time ago, and there are shit ton of images from time that i was genuinely happy, first and probably last time in my life. Ugh

 

[marcusuk63]

I cry at sad films , when i talk about the loss of my dogs or watch videos of them , and cried enough for everybody at my brothers funeral 3 months ago , we were very close . also as i struggle to get to sleep the image of when i had to break in and find him makes me sob , i think a lot of that is jealousy that it wasnt me though

 

[Donewith_]

yeah.. I have a specific relation with this. From as long as I remember, I can't control my emotions ..end up crying . I was called cry baby for a long time.. when i was a bit younger. It was embarrassing.. but I don't know any better way to control.
now.. I cry sometimes.. somewhat rarely in my room. others can't know.. thats a good thing. If a person knows about it.. they can't be at peace until they find a good reason. when I was younger, when others know that i am crying..it used to terrify me. coz they will make it a shitshow .. and i was the one feeling embarrassed there.. and they wouldn't obviously believe if I said the reason.. and also I was not the kind of person who would easily open their mouth to say either.
@Sailfisher Do you cry? you can answer your own question too )

 

[Midnight]

Once in the last 15 years or so. I don't know why i never cry .. it just doesn't happen.

 

[Bärchen]

Yes, from time to time when i realise what a weak piece of shit i am. and when i think about my cats from the past and my current cat's virus which will kill him probably in a few months.

 

[Conflicted Cat]

No. Not even when family dies... I often question why. Only time I ever do is when pets die, or something emotional happens in a piece of media, like when a much loved character dies. I guess the power of music helps. And also these fictional characters are much easier to get attached to because they have better personalities and are more likeable than most IRL.

 

[Retched]

As far as breaking down and sobbing, no. I keep myself from doing that.

Now tears on the other hand, will hit me at anytime, with or without warning. It's like my mind hits a low point and it triggers it.

I work in a high traffic job & will tear up unexpectedly. I tell myself I can bawl after work- but I don't. . I used to cry. I used to laugh freely too. I'm fairly numb now though. I cry for reasons, like a death. But mostly I get on the verge of crying with my eyes welling up.

 

[Final Escape]

Yes I cry sometimes especially when I feel helpless and hopeless, overwhelmed.

 

[Ko9]

I cry a lot at night, I am pretty ashamed by it. I just do not understand why the people in my life did the stuff they did and I am afraid I will never recover from these memories.

 

[Funkbunny]

Oh god yes! At the most bloody obscure moments too!

 

[Laststop]

I only seem to once in a very great while. I wish I could more. But I can't seem to make myself. It feels good to have a really powerful cry. When my grandfather died I kept it in. But a couple days later I bought some beer, when off by myself, drank, and cried it out. Years later when my grandmother died, it was different. She was about to go, and the family was outside her room in the ICU. It hit me this was it. My younger brother and I hugged, and I cried harder and longer than I ever had. I wouldn't let go. Normally I'm a quick huger, and I'm out. My family was there, there were hospital staff, patients and their families. I didn't care who saw me. I kind of worry if I cry that hard now I'll get too much out of me, and I won't be able to do this.

 

[lostangel]

Do you often find yourself crying?

I used to NEVER but for some reason now its every second day at least

 

[Miserable]

I can't cry anymore. I'm 35 now. I just lost the ability somehow. I still cry sometimes but its rare. I'm convinced that you need a generalized compassionate other to be able to cry and I just rarely feel that anymore

 

[Sh00]

Fairly rarely. Once so far this year and can't remember the time before that.

 

[deflagrat]

Back when I had emotions I would need sad music and sad thoughts to cry, otherwise it has always been impossible.

 

[_NoName_]

I'm numb almost completely, unless something triggers me. Otherwise, I occasionally cry whilst being drunk.

 

[TAW122]

Yes, sometimes. Though nowadays it is very rare for me to do that unless I happen to be very, very upset. Sometimes I feel like crying but just couldn't do it. I had times where I had to fight very hard to hold back tears and it was grueling. Smh, I don't even know why I'm like that (when I want to cry I couldn't, yet at times where I didn't want to or wasn't appropriate to, I had to fight back tears vigorously).

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

One of my worst and annoying qualities. I'm extremely sensitive. Wish i could turn off emotion.

 

[Codieb1]

I don't anymore. I've spent years throwing away all emotion to better prepare myself

 

[After The End]

It's extremely difficult to cry now. It literally takes effort and an hour or more of preparation.

If I wasn't a pro at eating my emotions I'd probably be crying 24/7, and I couldn't deal with all the fake people asking me if I'm OK (that is the tiny percentage who would even notice) I get enough of that with people noticing self-harm scars. They ask. But they have the blue-screen-of-death behind their eyes. If I tell them I fell over they nod and say, 'mmm, oh, you should be more careful.'

Because obviously you can cause perfect, parallel scars and cuts on the inside of your forearm by falling over. That they accept the explanation without any hesitation shows they're in sub-ocular BSOD mode.

 

[HGL91]

Honestly it started when they found my liver tumors. It was like the sudden knowledge that something besides myself may kill me, wrecked me. And they want to wait 4 months before deciding to biopsy or not and so I just walk around every day like "I could be slowly dying". One would think I'd be happy, but these weren't my terms damnit.

Have these tumors made you want to CTB more? Like beating them to it? Or not really?

 

[Morphinekiss]

Have these tumors made you want to CTB more? Like beating them to it? Or not really?

Right now I'm holding out for the final diagnosis. If it's the big C, I will probably ctb sooner than I've planned. At the moment I'm living in denial and channeling my fear into frustration at the oncologists.

 

[NotOfThisEarth]

Do you often find yourself crying?

Yes..at the slightest provocation:((

 

[Tabbyql]

I've cried so much, I'm really starting to think I can't cry nemore. The urge is always there but no tears come out.

 

[AnnihilatedAnna]

Constantly, I hate it. I feel like it makes me weak even though I know it doesn't. I only sob when I am with one person, and sometimes during a panic attack on my own. Can't explain why with that person though.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I do, always alone. I nevee cry when I'm with the people I would to tell about my problems.

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

I stopped crying for a long long time. But now it happens a few times a day. I just go to a room where im alone away from my kids and cry i sob then i get my face wiped up and try be 'ok' it happens a few times a day depending on what going on on the day...

 

[sunny.sativa]

I cry when I know no one will see me cry or notice that I have been. At night, in my bed.. often, as stupid as that sounds.

As a young teen, I would be really theatrical with it. I wanted the attention.
Now I just don't want to be asked questions. I don't want the pity, nor the "advice".

I'm not a hugger, but sometimes when I cry to the point that my stomach hurts, I wish my mom would come in and hug me just once. I don't ACTUALLY want that.. but in the moment, deep down, I think it would feel nice.