SolomonKado
This is taking too long…
- Jul 4, 2023
- 424
honestly, I put in so much effort to not be a "waste of space." I worked hard, helped others, tried my best to do better for others than I do for myself…. All it has done is lead me to where I am now.
I don't know if anyone's community is different and hope it is, but I worked in a place that said their staff were important to them. Even though they regularly let the ones who disappeared from their work area, constantly leaving others to do their work, to do all the overtime. It "looked" like they were working hard, but it was all a lie.
I refused to do overtime because I was a victim of these worthless people. I'd see them in supervisors offices or in other work areas socializing while the rest of us worked to the bone. Especially if you were friends of the right people you were given whatever you wanted. Since I didn't put up with it I was always at the bottom.
Those who knew about it didn't say anything because they didn't want to get "involved" and have their name drug through the mud. They were scared.
Now I'm a "shut in" looking for my CTB soon and when I'm gone all they will remember me as will be the mentally unstable person and not the one who tried to make his work area better for those who worked like I did. They will bury this under the rug and not take responsibility for it.
I can't say you're lucky because I am not you and not living your life. I feel worthless because no matter how much I tried to change my life and I was constantly stomped on to shut up. They will make me out to be this shitty waste of space of a person so they can continue to run the way they want. Doesn't matter that a lot of people that work there say the same thing, but they bury their head so they don't get it next. Those same people are in therapy and taking psych meds, alcoholics, addicts, or telling themselves and others "it will get better eventually" while it gets worse around them.
Those "high-value" people are not who you think they are. Public view is always going to be buttered up.
Whatever path you choose in life I hope you find the peace you are looking for. You deserve that!
I don't know if anyone's community is different and hope it is, but I worked in a place that said their staff were important to them. Even though they regularly let the ones who disappeared from their work area, constantly leaving others to do their work, to do all the overtime. It "looked" like they were working hard, but it was all a lie.
I refused to do overtime because I was a victim of these worthless people. I'd see them in supervisors offices or in other work areas socializing while the rest of us worked to the bone. Especially if you were friends of the right people you were given whatever you wanted. Since I didn't put up with it I was always at the bottom.
Those who knew about it didn't say anything because they didn't want to get "involved" and have their name drug through the mud. They were scared.
Now I'm a "shut in" looking for my CTB soon and when I'm gone all they will remember me as will be the mentally unstable person and not the one who tried to make his work area better for those who worked like I did. They will bury this under the rug and not take responsibility for it.
I can't say you're lucky because I am not you and not living your life. I feel worthless because no matter how much I tried to change my life and I was constantly stomped on to shut up. They will make me out to be this shitty waste of space of a person so they can continue to run the way they want. Doesn't matter that a lot of people that work there say the same thing, but they bury their head so they don't get it next. Those same people are in therapy and taking psych meds, alcoholics, addicts, or telling themselves and others "it will get better eventually" while it gets worse around them.
Those "high-value" people are not who you think they are. Public view is always going to be buttered up.
Whatever path you choose in life I hope you find the peace you are looking for. You deserve that!