do you also feel ''at home'' here?

[lnlybnny]

it's comforting in a weird way knowing i'm not so lonely like i thought i was. even though we're united by this desire to ctb, it still brings some warm to my heart knowing that in spite of our hardships and reasons to be in this website we are still united somehow... it's good to not feel so lonely.

 

[dödsängel]

I'm honestly not even really depressed at this point, though I am kind of suicidal. But it's hard for me to find people with similar mindsets outside.

 

[lnlybnny]

I'm honestly not even really depressed at this point, though I am kind of suicidal. But it's hard for me to find people with similar mindsets outside.

yes, it feels like no one understands. we see people making plans and having dreams and i'm just like ''i just want out''

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I had a stronger sense of that in the past. It has grown to give off more vibes of a big open arena rather than than a cozy little community in my eyes. Not that access should be gatekept.

 

[sserafim]

Ya, this is my sanctuary

I'm honestly not even really depressed at this point, though I am kind of suicidal. But it's hard for me to find people with similar mindsets outside.

Why do you think that so few people share this mindset?

 

[LunarLight]

Yeah same for me, it's been like a shelter for me since I came back as a lurker a few weeks ago. You guys are so sweet. Here I understand people and I feel understood. I'm so lonely IRL, I have no close friends to spend time with in my shitty city (although I do have a lovely wife who understands what I'm going through - they just can't do anything about it). When I was living somewhere else, I had at least one close friend to help me get through the day. Now I have to take the train to see the few friends I have and it's exhausting.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Yes! This place is like an oasis in the desert, away from all the bull shit of existence. Everywhere people with different points of view waste their time in endless stupid arguments. Everywhere is full of lies but this place is real. Everyone is real here. This is my Zion!

 

[dödsängel]

Ya, this is my sanctuary

Why do you think that such few people share this mindset?

If most people had the same mindset as us society would collapse
East asia is probably where most people are like minded and suicide rates are high, birth rates dropping, many withdraw from society, etc

 

[sserafim]

yes, it feels like no one understands. we see people making plans and having dreams and i'm just like ''i just want out''

Same

If most people had the same mindset as us society would collapse
East asia is probably where most people are like minded and suicide rates are high, birth rates dropping, many withdraw from society, etc

Would it be a bad thing if society collapsed though?

 

[dödsängel]

Same

Would it be a bad thing if society collapsed though?

I wouldn't personally care as long as I can have a good life for myself
but obviously the goal of government and society is to prevent a collapse

 

[lnlybnny]

I had a stronger sense of that in the past. It has grown to give off more vibes of a big open arena rather than than a cozy little community in my eyes. Not that access should be gatekept.

been suicidal for over 10 years but only discovered here recently lol and it's sad bc i feel i need to ctb asap so i didn't get to spend much time here :(

 

[bookgirl]

I'm grateful that SS exists

 

[Throwawayacc3]

Yes.

 

[Hated By All]

Nah, I'm probably disliked here but this is the only place to talk about suicide and find methods.

 

[lnlybnny]

Nah, I'm probably disliked here but this is the only place to talk about suicide and find methods.

why do you think you're disliked? i don't feel particularly appreciated and don't have friends even here but it's nice to have a place to vent and see what others share

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

i didn't know i had a room mate.

 

[divinemistress36]

I love that people here are just as pessimistic as me it's comforting . Everybody I know is neutral or positive

 

[INTJme]

In terms of being misunderstood and making me wanna ctb? Yes, I feel exactly like I'm at home here.

 

[iloveduster]

Throughout my entire life, I've often felt misunderstood and unsafe, but being here feels like finding a home—comforting and secure. My whole life I felt so out of place and I had to hide my thoughts and feelings but here people understand. Here, people won't lecture you that "life is actually fun, you just aren't trying enough." I'm glad I share the same views as most of the users.

 

[Bannana]

this is definitely my happy place

 

[Oliver]

Suicidal thoughts are not a taboo here and that's a good thing, I think.

 

[pilotviolin]

while more internet texting isnt what i personally need or find much solace in anymore, i do feel this is a space where you are allowed to be genuine in your struggles and that is significant, and is an important resource for anyone to have; a space to speak, and a place to be able to consider information/stats. just like how libraries and freedom of speech are crucial for a healthy society. it is especially refreshing in an internet world where people just blatantly throwing out the (usually a mask but still) norm of being kind, understanding, and open to one another. ironically here is where i feel the least misanthropic and cynical in terms of places people can communicate online. so is it my home? no, but its something akin to a library and club to me, info and community.

 

[juna]

This is the only place where I can truly say how I feel. And no one judges me, it is nice to not be patronized about what's great in my life and how others lives are so much harder, it is not a competition. It feels nice to be accepted, I loved it when someone said that it is okay to ctb to me here, made me feel validated. If anything, this is my safe space.

 

[iloverachel]

Yes I feel more at home here than in real lifmost my days are spent browsing and posting here because people are actually nice and caring here, unlike the cruel cold world outside where I clearly dint matter

 

[Life_and_Death]

no, but i probably wouldnt take it personally i dont feel that way anywhere. this is just another place people are

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Honestly, I don't think that I'll ever have a place on earth that I can call home. I just don't belong on this planet in general. However, this certainly is the place where I feel most welcomed when compared to anywhere else on earth so this place has my respect for that. I'm just scared of the possibility of this site crumbling into oblivion. I hope this site stays alive (ironic phrase to use given the nature) for as long as possible

 

[EternalWinter]

I do feel at home here. It's not so much that there's a driving force toward CTB, more that we are all intimately aware of the option, and understand its validity in reference to the human experience. "Success" by most of our (western) standards is artificial, and the structures we've built to reward that "success" don't work, but they're very good at fooling ordinary people into believing they do. Turns out none of us are ordinary, some are just more fooled than others. For those who find passion and joy in the illusion, I feel happy… I simply don't share that sentiment.

Anyway, yes. I've lurked here for a while. The mood can understandably become bleak, after all, the tendency for those who arrive here is to have suffered. I recently crossed the threshold into peace before eternal rest. I will go home soon.

 

[imnotsurewhy]

YES! I am glad its not just me that feels this way

 

[Forveleth]

I haven't been here very long so I don't really feel "at home" but I am glad there's somewhere we can talk (and sometimes joke) about suicide without judgment or getting one of the cookie-cutter, cliché support phrases thrown at us.

The only other place I know is the peer support sub on reddit and good lord those people make me want to ctb MORE.

 

[Arachno]

Yes, I feel pretty comfy and less lonely here, I really like this site, would hate if they somhow got it shut down.