Discussion Do some of you guys put up an act to keep people happy?

[weisel]

I have put up a strong act for years, since I was thirteen, while completely wanting to die.

 

[lament.]

Absolutely, ever since I can remember I've wanted to die and have been depressed, my close family knows I am depressed - but they do not know the severity of it and I don't want them to find out. A while ago I would sometimes let it slip but if I ever mentioned that I felt suicidal I would "recover" a week later, which of course is a lie I have never once recovered in my life, as I grow older I just get more suicidal.

 

[Forever Sleep]

To an extent- yes. People probably can tell that something's wrong (I'm not that good.) But- I doubt they realise it's as bad as it is.

 

[Wyldfyre4948]

Yes. This year has destroyed me and I'm pretty much done, but for my family and coworkers I put on my mask and make them think I'm getting better. They see what I want them to see and I've stopped being quite so open with them about what is going on. Just let them know good things and they're happy enough.

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

for the most part, yes. i try not to let on or cause any drama. that's why i've slowly distanced myself from all my old close friends. maybe some have done the same to me as well.

 

[Ambivalent1]

My pain is constant and sharp. Everyone I encounter sees my suffering. I don't hide it. It's etched into my face and causes many to go into hysterics. People can't handle the non-smiling face.

 

[blue_muse]

To a degree, yes so that I can bypass anyone trying an armchair psychology routine.

 

[Hollowman]

My pain is constant and sharp. Everyone I encounter sees my suffering. I don't hide it. It's etched into my face and causes many to go into hysterics. People can't handle the non-smiling face.

Same here, isn't it ridiculous how people are expected to smile so much.

 

[Das Nichts]

At work definitely. Family and friends, I let that slip out of my hands to a certain degree.
There are several personal triggers though where I have a hard time controlling myself.

 

[Ju1z]

Yes. Ever since I was a kid I have struggled to feel any genuine emotion. I feel like I am faking everything.

 

[FuneralCry]

After all I would never share how I wish for non-existence, I think it's always a terrible idea opening up about wanting to die, I believe it would just make existing even worse, I see no benefit to doing such a thing. To me it's better to stay quiet until somehow I cease existing.