Venting do I even exist

[LevUwU]

no one around me, no friends, no family, none of them see me. I don't know what they see, it's like they met a me that never was real, thats who they want when they look at me but all thats there is me. and in this lack of a true self that anyone could ever care for, everything i ever do is a failure no matter what it is or for who it is

at what point did I start to exist where the supposed pefect creature that everyone claims i am stopped, why am i here when I am the one thing no one wanted, where everyone seems okay to beat me up and dress me down searching for that being

where is it

why am I here in it's stead

 

[Helween]

I see you and you pretty much exist. it's these people out there who expect to much from us.