Do/did you self-harm?

[spectraltease]

Me, yea.
The last time I self harmed was in march I think. My scars are on the undersite of my arms and legs, nobody know about them, just a few ppl from my family by mistake but they don't really care. My end is near and I feel addicted again too self-harm. I want a razor so bad.

 

[Anon1337]

I used to sh a lot. Have pretty bad scars on my left arm. It's a terrible coping mechanism. In a way, I like my scars because It's the only physical 'evidence' of my suffering.

 

[dtjb]

I like your pfp of Budd.

I used to SH but after I got hospitalized, loved ones pay too much attention now.

 

[Death is my goal]

i used to, simply cuz I thought i can lose much blood that way and die. obviously it's not as easy as i thought it was so i gave up. have small scars

 

[madebrief]

Mm it is a good release?

 

[NoLightRemains]

Never really wanted to. It's crossed my mind before, but I have a terrible pain tolerance and I doubt I would find relief in it.

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

For the longest time I didn't think that I did, until I was told that staying in abusive or violent relationships is a form of self-harm.

 

[lifeisadream]

Have self-harmed for years. Even did it in the psych ward until they bothered to confiscate my weapons. It's the only thing which provides a temporary relief to the mental pain & it's like a fast acting drug. Got scars on my inner left arm.

 

[EdibleGasMask]

It's a compulsion for me. My body just chooses to rip and tare at myself like an animal. I can't really ever stop myself in my flooded emotional state, it just becomes too much and I feel like anything, even clawing at my own skin is a cope. Sometimes I wish I would stop but, when I look at all my previous scars, even the ones that were caused in such horrible moments. I can't help but feel better for no reason. My loved ones HATE it but, I literally cant stop myself, especially since I have little regard for my own body or safety.

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

I've self harmed on and off for years now, last time was just a few weeks ago. My shoulders are scarred to hell and back, and my thighs and stomach are getting there.

Sometimes it helps, but lately, I've been too tired for it.

 

[Un-]

I haven't done it in a month or so, but I've been self harming for years. You could look at me, and probably see scars. They're everywhere on my arms, my chest, and my thighs. Quite deep but not deep enough.

I also used to watch a lot of gore when I was younger as self harm. But after years of watching it, I've grown insensitive.

I envy people that have never even thought about self harming. Such different pains we experience.

 

[Life_and_Death]

im currently (the last 2 weeks and counting) dealing with a concussion i gave myself, and scars healing over. ive self harmed since 14

 

[lachrymost]

Yes, I've even burned my face a little. Externalizing the misery. I would love to get beaten up, I think. My partner indulges this to an extent he's comfortable with, where he'll punch me in the back for a couple minutes. If it's hard enough, I can't think about my ruined life because all I can concentrate on is enduring the current blow and bracing for the next one. Better than orgasm, mostly because it lasts longer.

 

[akirat9]

yes six year

 

[spectraltease]

I like your pfp of Budd.

I used to SH but after I got hospitalized, loved ones pay too much attention now.

Thank you haha.
Yeah, I only wear hoodies tbh

 

[thx1138]

Yes, I've even burned my face a little. Externalizing the misery. I would love to get beaten up, I think. My partner indulges this to an extent he's comfortable with, where he'll punch me in the back for a couple minutes. If it's hard enough, I can't think about my ruined life because all I can concentrate on is enduring the current blow and bracing for the next one. Better than orgasm, mostly because it lasts longer.

Same. I used to self harm, but the scars are annoying. Now I find other people to hurt me. I identify as "asexual but kinky". Which basically means I only want a beating. Lol.

 

[Hirokami]

I used to, yeah, due to self-loathing and intense stress. The only reason I stopped is because there was a point where I cut too deep and had to get stitches.

 

[Idkaho2]

I did it for a really long time but eventually it got to the point where I'd hit an artery each time I did it, so I haven't done it in like over a year. It's alright, pretty dumb, wouldn't recommend

 

[drainganggggg]

i used to sh heavily in freshman year, then i stopped, and now i'm doing it more heavily now if you don't currently sh i can not stress how much you should not start. it helps the first few times but then you just keep wanting to do it more and deeper.

 

[lifeORdeath]

I hated self bad enough to hit self in head with bat and punch self in head and face, and ram head into brick wall.
Now will just end it instead of hurting, if get bad enough

 

[CandyCane]

No. The only time I self-harmed was when I took an SSRI. It's an adverse effect of the drug that doctors seem clueless about. Before and after no harm.

 

[willitpass]

i've self harmed almost my entire life. last time i did it was last night. i've done it all kinds of ways. currently i'm back to cutting, but i also pull my hair, bang my head against the wall extremely hard, starve myself, dehydrate myself, scratch myself, i've cut off blood flow to limbs for sometimes hours, i've consumed extreme amounts of caffeine, burned myself, purged, etc. you name it i've done it

 

[Alayna]

Damn it feels good to feel control over your body. Focusing on outdoing my pain-aversion mechanisms seems like good practice for beating SI. Dreaming, ok?

Also it's a nice high and I liked seeing my blood

Don't do it anymore though...

 

[S like Siren]

I did it two years ago until last year....banging hard my head and chest,i restarted doing it few days ago for desperation

 

[achromatic]

I don't even know why I stopped. I guess it was not worth it with stress about my family finding out - but maybe Im just to apathetic for it now. I just don't feel like it.
It was my suicidal ideation and self - hate manifesting, giving me hope for overcoming SI later- but it doesn't work that way.