thereisnomeaning

thereisnomeaning

To live here is my nightmare
Mar 15, 2023
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I'm an addict, and at university I am bullied because of it and because of my autism and social anxiety. It's been tearing me apart, I can't leave my house, I've tried to ctb because of rumors spread up about me, I just don't know how to deal with this, it's affecting my whole life
Do you guys go through something similar?
 
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Lulzacruel

Lulzacruel

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Jun 13, 2023
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im schizotypal and i experience lots of weird and downright insulting comments about me when i go outside

some say that im "strange" and others say that i "look like a sex offender"

i guess the best way to describe myself is a mix of Rosco P. Coltrane and Ted Kaczynski with messy hair wearing a trench coat as an Italian.

i find it kind of surprising that when i travelled to the states to meet my family, i didnt get much of those comments as in Italy, nobody questioned me and i only got weird stares around schools.

i got off track, point is that people are really rude if you don't meet their stupid expectations for what a "normal" person should look like, its as if as soon as you look ugly everyone woman and child around you thinks that you will touch them or give them a disease.
 
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theboy

theboy

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Jul 15, 2022
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Yes, the hurtful words do come into my head at certain unexpected times.
 
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Walilamdzii

Walilamdzii

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Sep 19, 2021
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I was thinking about this yesterday... I experienced insults about my body, hurtful teasing, social exclusion.
 
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noname223

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Aug 18, 2020
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I am quite weird. I have social anxiety and I am socially awkward. Noone bullied me so far at my college. I am not connected enough to hear rumors though. The people I am connected to spread no bad rumors. Noone ever insulted me despite my mental health condition is quite obvious. I was psychotic in front of my crush some months ago she looked at me like she considered me pathetic some weeks ago. My friends say I am interpreting too much into the gaze of other people.

Honestly I never ever experienced bullying at college. My personal feeling is most people don't have the time or energy to waste their time for that. There are so many students and most of them don't know me. I met so many students and I forgot almost all of them after a while. I think due to the fact we don't have usual classes bullying is more difficult.

Moreover I have to say now as an adult I give less fucks about it. I don't know everyone probably considers me a smartass and striver which is sort of true. My grades are most often more important for me than the social interactions. I hate small talk. I feel rather anonymous when I am at the university. I have my headphones on and often I want to be ignored because I have social anxiety. My best friend will soon leave my university and this will be a big hit for me. If anyone insulted me because I am mentally ill they can go fuck themselves. I have a GPA of 3.9. So I don't know. It is pretty worthless but at least I can brag with it. (which usually I don't do).

I really don't have the feeling the rumors at college are similar to the ones at school. At least where I study. Most people are rather apathetic. When I act weird maybe someone laughs at me some days later though I noticed that most students I am connected to forgot most things I told them about me. The people are stressed enough with their own life.
 
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