Distancing myself

[telekon]

I keep tell myself it's getting better but I actually have no idea. A large part of me has been wanting to distance myself from the place I was and from the website. Stay real everybody

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I keep tell myself it's getting better but I actually have no idea. A large part of me has been wanting to distance myself from the place I was and from the website. Stay real everybody

What are you running from, and where are you headed?

 

[telekon]

What are you running from, and where are you headed?

I was in a dark place when I came here, of course everyone here knows it, but I am slowly getting better. I just wanted to say bye to the website because it helped me. It was like a drug most of the time.

I am still scared that life will spiral again and there's no real security for me, but for now I have a place to live finally away from vultures and I feel good.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I was in a dark place when I came here, of course everyone here knows it, but I am slowly getting better. I just wanted to say bye to the website because it helped me. It was like a drug most of the time.

I am still scared that life will spiral again and there's no real security for me, but for now I have a place to live finally away from vultures and I feel good.

Yes, don't end up at my shelter!

 

[telekon]

I don't know why I posted this, I'm still here lol this world is not for me. I prefer to ruminate about death all the time apparently

 

[tanshakti]

I don't know why I posted this, I'm still here lol this world is not for me. I prefer to ruminate about death all the time apparently

Dont beat yourself up, i first came for CTB methods and community as i cant discuss this stuff with anyone outside this forum.
I found most people are suffering like me or may be even in tougher situations.
We dont know why we post , why we are here,
are we hoping for some miracle? connection? distraction? or plain old we don't know what else the F*ck to do with our lonely situation

 

[telekon]

I think I just like forums. I got banned from Reddit a few months ago. I do feel sickly depressed but I've also been drinking, so maybe that's exacerbating it. I feel a lot of rage inside of me that for some reason imagining morbid things makes me feel calmer sometimes.
I have 0$ in my bank account and am feeling worried. I always said I would go to the forest if it ever got that bad, not a shelter like SchizoidGymnast is saying.