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ChinUp

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Jul 6, 2025
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Many times I just want to disappear!!!!! I literally hate waking up!!! I want it all to end!!!
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I really understand, I also wish to disappear from this dreadful, torturous existence, all I want is to never wake ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I hope you find peace.
 
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ChinUp

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Jul 6, 2025
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I really understand, I also wish to disappear from this dreadful, torturous existence, all I want is to never wake ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I hope you find peace.
You really understand? Thank you
Same here. Hugs.
Thank you! You really understand.
 
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blacksand

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May 2, 2023
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I'm trapped in a small town in buttfuck nowhere with my parents because of financial constraints. I've been here 5 years now. Some nights when they're away I drive 1-2 hours out of town just to give the illusion that I could run away. But even if I could then I'd still be stuck in this world and universe. Only death is the type of freedom I need.
 
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ChinUp

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I'm trapped in a small town in buttfuck nowhere with my parents because of financial constraints. I've been here 5 years now. Some nights when they're away I drive 1-2 hours out of town just to give the illusion that I could run away. But even if I could then I'd still be stuck in this world and universe. Only death is the type of freedom I need.
I'm sorry you're going through this. We need a way out. I live at home with my dad and I want to ctb but don't know exactly what to do. I just want to go! I can't hardly get out of bed. I don't want to be a burden anymore. I want him to understand that I can't go back to the hospital. What to do? Have you thought of any methods? I even considered a partner to if I could find one.
 
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blacksand

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May 2, 2023
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I'm sorry you're going through this. We need a way out. I live at home with my dad and I want to ctb but don't know exactly what to do. I just want to go! I can't hardly get out of bed. I don't want to be a burden anymore. I want him to understand that I can't go back to the hospital. What to do? Have you thought of any methods? I even considered a partner to if I could find one.
Yes I know that urgent panic feeling well. I feel it right now I want to crawl out of my skin. I have a gun collection so I'm sorted for methods but I'm also a coward and a procrastinator which keeps me alive. Without my guns I'd opt for SN combined with inert gas as user Vizzy did in 2023.
 
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ChinUp

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Jul 6, 2025
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Yes I know that urgent panic feeling well. I feel it right now I want to crawl out of my skin. I have a gun collection so I'm sorted for methods but I'm also a coward and a procrastinator which keeps me alive. Without my guns I'd opt for SN combined with inert gas as user Vizzy did in 2023.
Ok. You understand the feeling too. I really need someone to talk to. Can we talk more? I have pills and access to a gun too. : (
 
blacksand

blacksand

Experienced
May 2, 2023
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Ok. You understand the feeling too. I really need someone to talk to. Can we talk more? I have pills and access to a gun too. : (
I can't give advice on using them sorry. I would have a guilty conscience.
 
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