Discussion did you guys feel worse or better after leaving the psychward?

[iori]

was thinking about when i went and got curious, how did everyones stay go?

 

[WaitingForTheBusInTh]

I was too old for the children's ward at 17, so I was put on a mixed adult floor in a city far from home. Didnt see a doctor until I was being discharged and was berated by the nurses for crying in my room. All I learned was to not tell others when I'm suicidal.

 

[brokeandbroken]

I went to a psych ward was basically homeless (hotel that was paid for by the government) and then IRTS program (i'm back at the hotel now). My feelings haven't changed I have been in the vicious cycle of angry, nothing I can do*, helpless, depressed, angry, nothing I can do, helpless. Frankly while they were nice I guess they just went through the motions. No real sage wisdom. No fixing the actual problem. To be honest I wish they said I was psychotic so the problem was me. It was here is a wrap program figure it out while wasting my time telling me things I learned when I was 5. Fuck that honestly.

* -> I've posted my story in other places there's things I can do sort of but it means starting over... But I was the victims by the Poznan University of Medical Sciences. Was illegally forced out while in good-standing e.g. didn't fail out nor was removed any other reason then their greed. I'm in ridiculous debt, jobs require job experience nowadays.... Because I was busy wasting my life naively thinking medical schools would care about patients and students I didn't get any that is salient. I'm not working a dead-end shit job 40 hours a week making medical equipment making shit money barely able to eat, I also have to work as an HR coordinator/Project manager 20-30 hours a week for free to get job experience so I can eventually get a okay job so maybe when I'm 50 I can earn okay money. While my health is sacrificed every day, with no friends, family, whatever. This just makes me more angry. Like indescribably angry. My empathy for people erodes everyday.... I was there for people or tried to be and my thank you is a fuck you. How do I not hate everyone?

 

[The anhedonic one]

Worse.
I actually liked it in there. Lots of damaged people in there like me who I could relate to.
I felt safe in there, away from the horrors of the outside world.

 

[MintViper]

worse. i got sa'd in there by my roommate. also the psychiatrist there was awful and basically told me my feelings weren't valid and that i should just suck it up.

 

[kaleidoscopedreams]

I'm my experience I felt nothing leaving. Before being committed, I attempted cbt & was interrupted & actions were taken to intervene. I was held for 7 days, which felt like forever. It was never a great experience by any means but I was fortunate enough to not have been assaulted or anything of that nature, they did have decent security. But overall I was held captive, & I think it left me w more of a void than I started w.

 

[purplemichelle]

The first time I went to the psych ward I really do think I felt better afterward. But then every other time since I've felt worse and worse. It gets to a point where you're like "this is the same thing over and over again what's gonna change?"

 

[sadpeach]

Worse. It really hammered home for me that I'm out of options for help and as soon as I got out last month I've seriously started planning for CTB. I was just as depressed and isolated, just a new setting. Akin to prison lol.

 

[marshmallowfluff]

Some of my admissions were helpful, but it's all ultimately led to me being readmitted eventually. All it is is a holding pen. I've been hospitalised for 3 years in November and the other thing that has changed is that I'm not having surgery for self harm twice a week.

I go through intense periods of suicidality still, my depression has not gone away.

 

[trashprincess]

Worse. It taught me to keep my problems to myself. And to never talk to anyone about suicidality.

 

[TheSource]

Worse.

I lied about my mental health improving so I could get out of there asap. The nurses really liked how calm and cooperative I was. I had to be. I needed to leave.

I just learned to be sneaky and make sure I don't try anything on impulse anymore. I don't want to go back.

My mental health has been worse since going. I have no outlets beside this forum, for fear that I'll get sent back.

If they really want to save lives, they need to reform the way they go about trying to help with mental health issues.

 

[KillerIsMe]

I got out from John George psychiatrist hospital in the bay area like a week ago. Started punching myself at one point and had to be restrained and injected with drugs. Quietly psychotic highly medicated roommate, good food, good security so I didn't get raped by the crackheads. I got lucky with my roommate because some of the other people smelled bad. Decent therapist, but I saw her for about 15 minutes a day and there were no group activities to speak of. This was the cheap county hospital where they send all of the poor people and homeless alcoholics in the middle of a manic episode. One duo were incredibly rude and I think they were faking schizophrenic symptoms to get free food and shelter.

Pros: good company. Good medical staff. No abuse from the staff. Good food. No one made fun of my self harm even though it is funny. They gave me ativan sometimes.
Cons: no group activties to speak of and only 15 minutes of therapy time a day. AA meeting was a joke because the psychotics kept rambling on unimpeded. No phones. Poor selection of books. Male bathrooms didn't have doors on the stalls, and instead had flaps. Lost my SN.

I feel a little less suicidal than I did when I went in there. 5/10.

 

[lita-lassi]

i was held fraudulently after specifically saying i didnt want to die. im pretty sure it was the most distress ive ever felt. it was a 3 day long panic attack where i refused to eat and puked from stress, had some of the most graphic nightmares ever when i managed to sleep which wasn't much at all. the staff was nice enough but there weren't enough and they were too busy to talk to me almost at all. every time it was a new person and i had to retell them why i was so upset, driving my anxiety attacks even harder just recounting it. i refused to attend group therapy because i have horrible social anxiety normally, it had skyrocketed to unhealthy levels at the thought of sitting in a room full of stangers somewhere i really really really didnt want to be at all and had 0 rights. i grabbed a copy of anna keranina, stayed in bed and just kept reading the entire time as much as i possibly could. the doc was a bit of an asshole to me and didnt listen to much of what i said. the only good thing was i got a giant stack of referrals for therapists (which is what i went to the hospital for in the first place - long story) that i had to spend hours digging through to find anyone accepting new patients and the one that responded wound up being amazing and saving my life a few times. so while i absolutely hated the hospital and it made several issues way worse, i can't discount that it was part of the necessary road to finding something good

 

[sserafim]

was thinking about when i went and got curious, how did everyones stay go?

I've never been to the psych ward so I wouldn't know. I feel like I belong there though

 

[Mea Culpa]

Worse. My last visit there in July was a joke and a waste of time. They didnt have a counselor for me to talk to, had me sign paper work for a 7 day plan that they never even did, I couldn't brush my hair because they had no brushes, harassed by someone there constantly so I felt the need to hide. I was released after 3 days, put on medication that did nothing and made no sense for me to be on. Now I've just been isolating ever since.

 

[darknesscomesquick]

I was too old for the children's ward at 17, so I was put on a mixed adult floor in a city far from home. Didnt see a doctor until I was being discharged and was berated by the nurses for crying in my room. All I learned was to not tell others when I'm suicidal.

Funny—had a similar experience with this today. Was on the receiving end of a welfare check by a psychiatrist who I thought I could trust enough to be completely honest about everything. Couldn't be further from the truth evidently. Just gonna let my actions speak for themselves going forward.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Worse for life.

 

[Jealous Blackheart]

Disconnected from reality.

 

[StalkedByDeath]

I've bad both happen. I've been hospitalized around 7 times in my life. Sometimes nothing changed/I felt worse (leading to nearly back-back hospitalizations), but other times, specifically 2, how I felt didn't change but I had it in me to continue my life. The last time I eventually wound up married, and was happier than I've ever been, doing more things in life than I've ever done... Traveling, holding jobs, returning to school, planning for/building a future where I'm still in it. But all good things usually come to an end.....

 

[IWishToDie]

was thinking about when i went and got curious, how did everyones stay go?

Did 6 months last time. Helped me quit drinking, didn't help with anything else. Still feel scarred.

 

[Uninfluential_Karma]

The two first ones I felt worse after leaving. Both of these were when I was a minor. The first was really bad at communication but the program aspect wasn't so bad. The second one was awful at everything and we were just expected to do nothing all day. The third one I was an adult for, and that one was kind of boring but mostly great ngl.

 

[My_name_is_Luka]

I have been talking only to the psychotherapist for the admission and I didn't like it; so probably I won't go.
I had problems with the doctors of the hospital not helping me with my health conditions and refusing diagnostic exams.
I begged for help, saying that it was years that they were behaving like that with me, my health was deteriorating and their attitude was making me suicidal.
They sent me to psychiatry. The doctor there disbelieved everything I said and decided that the priority was to work on my social behavior.
When I pointed out that it would have been more helpful that a psychotherapist could help me with the interactions with the doctors in the hospital, she got quite upset and told me that she didn't have more time for me.
So no, I had this bad vibe of the mental asylums of the last century and I don't want to end up getting convinced that my thinking is at fault; at least not when it comes to understanding that I have real health problems.

 

[chronicdissosiation]

neutral. my mental illnesses were brought up to my mother and she could no longer pretend to ignore what was wrong with me. i guess i felt satisfied? besides that i never felt more alone than ever lol. i would never speak to or connect with the people in there ever again and it brought me a sense of sadness for a long time. i never had people i could talk to like i did with them

 

[zachw]

I have been hospitalized four times and every time it made things way worse for me. I've been trying to heal for three years and nothing works. Hospitalizations just made me feel trapped and traumatized.