Did you feel scared after taking an OD?

[Walilamdzi]

Or during? Or was it relatively easy to just lie back and await fate?

 

[Nobbo]

Or during? Or was it relatively easy to just lie back and await fate?

I thought it was easy, however I did feel dissapointed when it didn't work

 

[MotherOfCats]

Mine was incredibly easy. Couldn't be arsed popping each pill out of the blister pack and swallowing individually. Slammed them all out of the pack, whacked them in a glass and drank them all. Managed to fill one of the ikea glasses. Snuggled up with my two cats in bed and went to sleep. Woke up 5 days later in ICU hallucinating out of my mind. Thankfully, I caused no long term damage. Although I was pretty pissed off at my psychiatrist who warned me my meds were fatal in an overdose. Clearly not!

 

[Walilamdzi]

Mine was incredibly easy. Couldn't be arsed popping each pill out of the blister pack and swallowing individually. Slammed them all out of the pack, whacked them in a glass and drank them all. Managed to fill one of the ikea glasses. Snuggled up with my two cats in bed and went to sleep. Woke up 5 days later in ICU hallucinating out of my mind. Thankfully, I caused no long term damage. Although I was pretty pissed off at my psychiatrist who warned me my meds were fatal in an overdose. Clearly not!

What meds were they? Glad no long term damage.

 

[MotherOfCats]

What meds were they? Glad no long term damage.

Thanks, me too. It was clomipramine mainly, it's a tricyclic AD which isn't commonly prescribed these days as SSRIs are deemed safer.

 

[Walilamdzi]

Thanks, me too. It was clomipramine mainly, it's a tricyclic AD which isn't commonly prescribed these days as SSRIs are deemed safer.

Ahhh, I have possession of tegretol which is apparently related to tricyclic AD chemical structure. I only have access to that and seroquel...

 

[MotherOfCats]

Ahhh, I have possession of tegretol which is apparently related to tricyclic AD chemical structure. I only have access to that and seroquel...

I would be very careful about trying to OD with any prescription drugs. I was very unwell at the time, I rushed in to it without any research and just assumed it would work due what my Psych had said. I think that if any prescription AD (or drug in general) was a safe bet then it'd be plastered all over these forums like SN is.

 

[8272019]

What I am about to say may be upsetting.

Before I took the two bottles of pills, it took enormous mental preparation. I was nervous, but I convinced myself that no physical pain will be worse than the emotional state I was in. I was wrong. I took the pills, and felt a slight sense of regret for a split second before throwing the empty bottles away and going to my room. I can't remember how much time passed, but the first symptom I felt was comparable to being intoxicated. I couldn't balance, I felt my whole body was heavy, my speech was incoherent, and I was extremely nauseous. I threw up a couple times, that was my body rejecting the pills. But no pills really came out of the vomit, that or it dissolved into my stomach acid which seems likely. At one point I felt extremely dehydrated, like my tongue was so dry it would just fall off, so I carefully walked downstairs to get water. My parents were sitting on the couch watching a movie. I tried to hurry and get my water, almost threw up again, then swallowed my own vomit since I was determined to die that night. I went upstairs, drank water, and felt a horrible headache, as bad as a migraine. Thats when I decided to try and go to sleep and hopefully, not wake up. After some time, I woke up from me vomitting on my bed. At this point it just felt like being wasted but with no numbingness. I got up to go throw up in the toilet, then I dropped. It felt like I was having a seizure, though it was just my body convulsing. My head was jerking so violently that it continously slammed into everything possible, covering my head in bloody bruises. I couldn't control my body. I swear, I was screaming for help, the pain was so terrible that I wanted to get it overwith ASAP and feared that if I didn't get help, the pain would only last longer rather than waiting to die. My body felt like it was being stabbed, repeatedly and all I could do was helplessly watch. I swore I saw my girlfriend. Then suddenly I was out. Presumably, this was when I was dying. I felt nothing, it was darkness. Like before birth. Then I woke up in a hospital bed 2 days later, being pumped full of fluid. Turns out that my parents heard me convulsing, called 911, and took me to the ER. My digestive system shut down but eventually recovered. I stopped breathing right as I entered the hospital, so they barely saved my life. If a few minutes late, I wouldn't be here. My liver slightly recovered, but is severely damaged and effects me to this day. Even when I was recovering in the hospital, I still was having overdose symptoms. I wasn't able to stay conscious for more than 30 seconds at a time. My vision was severely warped, so I couldn't see. It took me a few weeks to be able to walk again because my loss of balance was still effecting me. I was covered in cuts, bruises, bumps and marks. I bit my tongue extremely hard during the overdose and that made it hard to eat. Also, regarding my digestive system shutting down, it took some time to be able to eat.

I don't want to sound dramatic. But it was the worst physical pain I ever felt, I don't know how to describe how horrible it was. I'm also not faking this story, either. If you don't plan things out 100%, it can be the worst experience of your life. I plan to OD in the future, but change a few plans up in order to make myself unconscious quicker due to the fact my conciousness is what made it so painful.

I am so sorry to hear you are struggling. Your decision is yours to choose, I just wish you a peaceful way out. Much love ♡

 

[Finished]

What would actually work??????

 

[Tamazi 123]

What I am about to say may be upsetting.

Before I took the two bottles of pills, it took enormous mental preparation. I was nervous, but I convinced myself that no physical pain will be worse than the emotional state I was in. I was wrong. I took the pills, and felt a slight sense of regret for a split second before throwing the empty bottles away and going to my room. I can't remember how much time passed, but the first symptom I felt was comparable to being intoxicated. I couldn't balance, I felt my whole body was heavy, my speech was incoherent, and I was extremely nauseous. I threw up a couple times, that was my body rejecting the pills. But no pills really came out of the vomit, that or it dissolved into my stomach acid which seems likely. At one point I felt extremely dehydrated, like my tongue was so dry it would just fall off, so I carefully walked downstairs to get water. My parents were sitting on the couch watching a movie. I tried to hurry and get my water, almost threw up again, then swallowed my own vomit since I was determined to die that night. I went upstairs, drank water, and felt a horrible headache, as bad as a migraine. Thats when I decided to try and go to sleep and hopefully, not wake up. After some time, I woke up from me vomitting on my bed. At this point it just felt like being wasted but with no numbingness. I got up to go throw up in the toilet, then I dropped. It felt like I was having a seizure, though it was just my body convulsing. My head was jerking so violently that it continously slammed into everything possible, covering my head in bloody bruises. I couldn't control my body. I swear, I was screaming for help, the pain was so terrible that I wanted to get it overwith ASAP and feared that if I didn't get help, the pain would only last longer rather than waiting to die. My body felt like it was being stabbed, repeatedly and all I could do was helplessly watch. I swore I saw my girlfriend. Then suddenly I was out. Presumably, this was when I was dying. I felt nothing, it was darkness. Like before birth. Then I woke up in a hospital bed 2 days later, being pumped full of fluid. Turns out that my parents heard me convulsing, called 911, and took me to the ER. My digestive system shut down but eventually recovered. I stopped breathing right as I entered the hospital, so they barely saved my life. If a few minutes late, I wouldn't be here. My liver slightly recovered, but is severely damaged and effects me to this day. Even when I was recovering in the hospital, I still was having overdose symptoms. I wasn't able to stay conscious for more than 30 seconds at a time. My vision was severely warped, so I couldn't see. It took me a few weeks to be able to walk again because my loss of balance was still effecting me. I was covered in cuts, bruises, bumps and marks. I bit my tongue extremely hard during the overdose and that made it hard to eat. Also, regarding my digestive system shutting down, it took some time to be able to eat.

I don't want to sound dramatic. But it was the worst physical pain I ever felt, I don't know how to describe how horrible it was. I'm also not faking this story, either. If you don't plan things out 100%, it can be the worst experience of your life. I plan to OD in the future, but change a few plans up in order to make myself unconscious quicker due to the fact my conciousness is what made it so painful.

I am so sorry to hear you are struggling. Your decision is yours to choose, I just wish you a peaceful way out. Much love ♡

What did you take??

 

[8272019]

What did you take??

Its hard to remember the exact dosage. I was taking 40mg Prozac and 10mg Lamictal, and I took one whole bottle for each of them. Prozac doesnt kill you, its difficult to OD on antidepressants. Lamictal is what made it nearly fatal, meanwhile Prozac gave me severe Serotonin Syndrome. Serotonin Syndrome CAN be fatal if severe, though. And I fit all the symptoms of it during the OD. I also had slight trace of Ibuprofen, only remember that because doctors wouldn't shut up about it because I refused to say I took it. I probably took one ibuprofen for the headache but honestly, who knows lol

 

[terry_a_davis]

I took a load of prozac (a pathetic attempt) felt nothing and went to sleep.

 

[Pryras]

I was sitting in my car after driving into a ditch near the mountainside when I "tried" to OD but unfortunately I took too much alcohol beforehand and threw up. I remember feeling my heart race from the drugs and I vividly recall getting very warm. It was during a chilly December and I had to take off my sweater and lay on the ground since I felt so warm

 

[Empirespy]

It felt a little surreal drinking the cocktail I had, knowing (or more accurately believing) that I was about to die. I don't do drugs other than alcohol, so I didn't know what to expect, as I lay waiting for some new sensation. I started to feel a little tingly, then a wave of euphoria and relief took over. I didn't really think anything as I lay just listening to music, but I felt good, like everything was going to be ok,then at some point I passed out. I was unconscious for maybe 8 hours, I didn't dream, or at least I don't remember dreaming. Waking up alive is not the best feeling after you finally took the plunge.

 

[I screwed up]

I tried od on cough syrup + alpraz . slept for 3 days straight ..woke up in the hospital.

 

[Depressive1995]

I tried od on cough syrup + alpraz . slept for 3 days straight ..woke up in the hospital.

Was ist painful? Why and who did you bring to hospital? As I cannot kill myself I would like to sleep like 3days and feel nothing

 

[Timetodie90]

No I just took all my stuff and just went to bed. Then I was found and woke up in hospital 4 days later. I would overdose again. As it wasn't a bad experience. I wasn't even sick in my bed. I might of been in hospital but I can't remember. I had horrible hallucinations for a while. Whilst in hospital. I was having a nice dream at first at home. Then the hallucinations just happened in hospital. I took a Promethazine and Amitriptyline overdose with a couple of double Brandies.

 

[itsamadworld]

I felt peaceful it was just pure sleep for me when I OD'd on Neurontin, Tylenol, and apirin......that was until I was violently picked off the floor by the police and EMT's, i apparently bit the police officer, and then whipped into an ambulance. When I got to the hospital, apparently I was thrashing around violently screaming "LET ME DIE! Why do you torment me!" I Had to be restrained, and was on my back... I began choking on my vomit. I remember this.... Then one of those a-holes saw me, and freaked out saying, "OMG! She's choking!" I was about to kick it, and some think-they-do-gooder foiled my plan! Then stomach was pumped. I was on an IV drip , and suicide watch....then 72 in the nuthouse But that was like 2001. I had a few attempts after, but no success......I guess that was just a cry for help too....Not at all! ...I seriously wish i would have succeeded...Now i'm just a slave headed to work for the day, at a job I hate with all my heart....But i don''t know how long I was out on those pillls or if they could have killed me? ...After that I attempted again, and I just remember getting my stomach pumped. But i didn't go in a 72 hour hold...This time I moved out of that city i was living at the time..

 

[SleeplessSoul]

I've taken a few overdoses before, but this is mostly based on my recent paracetamol OD. It wasn't a suicide attempt, it was more an impulsive self-harm kind of thing. At the time I didn't realise how bad it was, but the level in my blood was almost fatal. It was a staggered overdose over about 4 hours.

At first, it was really peaceful. I was relieved and calm and it felt like I'd made a really good decision. That lasted like 2-3 hours. Then my heart started racing and I felt really dizzy. I had to sit down every now and then because I felt like I was about to pass out. 4 hours in, I was still taking them and I felt awful. I started throwing up but kept taking more of them. After I'd stopped I just kept throwing up and feeling like I was going to faint. I sort of felt drunk and just really out of it? I panicked and I rang 999 and an ambulance came. I threw up so much, I was throwing up pretty much non-stop for at least 8 hours maybe more. One of the last times I overdosed I had to have activated charcoal but my body was basically doing that anyway. Besides throwing up a lot, I was just really out of it and panicky. I spent the next 2 days in hospital just trying to work through what happened and I had to take potassium. It probably wouldn't have been as bad if I'd done it all in one as opposed to being staggered, but obviously I wouldn't recommend it. (Stupidly I probably will)

 

[K-O]

1st time was amazingly peaceful and lovely- stupid amounts of- lyrica oxy benzos - fell asleep woke up at hospital
2nd - v scary not good at all, beyond sad .. - lyquid oxy - was terrified called a friend.. .. .

 

[blivogade]

Surprisingly not.
The last one i took was very impulsive, i didn't feel fear.
only thing i did feel was regret when i woke up and was puking my guts up in the hospital

 

[any%]

I took a sh*tload of dextromethorphan (slang DXM) and when the pain and hallucinations became unbearable and I was absolutely terrified of everything and every second I had to endure, so I asked random people on the street to call for an ambulance (Minutes later i lost the ability to speak because my jaw muscles were clenched.

They brought me to the nearest psychiatric hospital because I behaved so weirdly and they thought I am "ok" but I escaped or sth. Last things I remember in the hospital was burning everywhere, terrifying visual and auditory hallucinations and muscle hypertension and I was cramping in regular intervals which also hurt like crazy, i couldnt control it and i thought my back would snap. I woke up the next day in ICU and got sent to a psychiatric hospital.

 

[Oh so tired]

I've taken a few overdoses but all were impulsive and not well thought out, I didn't know whether or not the dose was fatal so it was a weird uncertainty. The paracetamol OD was the worst with awful vomiting and stomach pain. Most recent (last week) was Clonazepam and Quetiapine which was very peaceful- I felt drunk and dreamlike before falling into a deep sleep. I woke up in hospital and was groggy and sleepy for a few days but no long term effects.

 

[toomuchtimetodie]

I odd by accident from injecting a mix of heroin and crack. I can recall the shooting up and then I just felt slipping away far too relaxed.. I don't want to scare anyone but personally I have panic disorder so it may just be me and also the fact I was in a drug den house but a sheer sense of dread even wanting to die, good thing is that feeling didn't last long at all, I'd been picked up and carried out to the street to die by fellow users after emptying my pockets. Unfortunately a good hearted passer by had happened to be walking this usually secluded area and pumped my chest till the ambulance brought me back. I suffered brain damage from that, and my chest was in agony for weeks, so to anyone thinking of using it as a method where there's a chance you can be found.... Don't.

 

[Mm80]

No I just took all my stuff and just went to bed. Then I was found and woke up in hospital 4 days later. I would overdose again. As it wasn't a bad experience. I wasn't even sick in my bed. I might of been in hospital but I can't remember. I had horrible hallucinations for a while. Whilst in hospital. I was having a nice dream at first at home. Then the hallucinations just happened in hospital. I took a Promethazine and Amitriptyline overdose with a couple of double Brandies.

The amitryptyline cocktail is my preferred method and i have the stuff for it. I think as far as prescription drug ods go, this could be one of the best. But there are not many accounts from people who have took it on here. May i ask what doses etc you took and a little more detail about ypur experience? Ie how you felt after taking them (ive heard they are bitter tasting) how long it took too fall asleep and why it wasnt succesful? Thanks

 

[Winter_Flower]

Its hard to remember the exact dosage. I was taking 40mg Prozac and 10mg Lamictal, and I took one whole bottle for each of them. Prozac doesnt kill you, its difficult to OD on antidepressants. Lamictal is what made it nearly fatal, meanwhile Prozac gave me severe Serotonin Syndrome. Serotonin Syndrome CAN be fatal if severe, though. And I fit all the symptoms of it during the OD. I also had slight trace of Ibuprofen, only remember that because doctors wouldn't shut up about it because I refused to say I took it. I probably took one ibuprofen for the headache but honestly, who knows lol

Yep, on my overdose of venlafaxine all I got was a severe case of serotonin syndrome which is devastating and traumatic to experience. Exact recovery as you. Couldn't eat, my vision was messed up for days, my body just wouldn't cooperate. Needed help walking for a while. It just shuts your body down. The recovery from it is horrible x

Its hard to remember the exact dosage. I was taking 40mg Prozac and 10mg Lamictal, and I took one whole bottle for each of them. Prozac doesnt kill you, its difficult to OD on antidepressants. Lamictal is what made it nearly fatal, meanwhile Prozac gave me severe Serotonin Syndrome. Serotonin Syndrome CAN be fatal if severe, though. And I fit all the symptoms of it during the OD. I also had slight trace of Ibuprofen, only remember that because doctors wouldn't shut up about it because I refused to say I took it. I probably took one ibuprofen for the headache but honestly, who knows lol

Funny about the ibuprofen because they said the same to me. And I swear I hadn't taken any and cocodamol they asked me about too x

 

[Timetodie90]

The amitryptyline cocktail is my preferred method and i have the stuff for it. I think as far as prescription drug ods go, this could be one of the best. But there are not many accounts from people who have took it on here. May i ask what doses etc you took and a little more detail about ypur experience? Ie how you felt after taking them (ive heard they are bitter tasting) how long it took too fall asleep and why it wasnt succesful? Thanks

I used Phenergan (Promethazine) as my anti emetic. I took 2 pills a couple of hours before taking my overdose. Then I took 6 pills 20 mins before my overdose. I then put roughly 600mg of Amitriptyline in a glass poured water on it and stirred it up then drank it. It was very bitter but not impossible to drink. I then took the rest of the pack of Phenergan to make up for the lack of Amitriptyline also I took a few codeine tablets too. I then washed it all down with a couple of double brandies. I don't drink alcohol so this was very strong for me. Also I have never took Amitriptyline or Phenergan. So the effects may have been stronger for me than someone who is use to the stuff I took. I went to bed and literally fell straight asleep. It didn't work because I was found about 12 hours later. I had expected not to be found till at least 20 hours later. Also I didn't have enough Amitriptyline to follow the PPH guide fully. I was found snoring really loudly my lips were blue and I was slavering. I had a nice dream at first. Then I had horrible hallucinations while recovering in hospital. I was throwing cups of water at the staff etc. but all in all the experience wasn't that bad. I suggest if you haven't reading the Amitriptyline method in the PPH.

 

[BeeLoyal]

What I am about to say may be upsetting.

Before I took the two bottles of pills, it took enormous mental preparation. I was nervous, but I convinced myself that no physical pain will be worse than the emotional state I was in. I was wrong. I took the pills, and felt a slight sense of regret for a split second before throwing the empty bottles away and going to my room. I can't remember how much time passed, but the first symptom I felt was comparable to being intoxicated. I couldn't balance, I felt my whole body was heavy, my speech was incoherent, and I was extremely nauseous. I threw up a couple times, that was my body rejecting the pills. But no pills really came out of the vomit, that or it dissolved into my stomach acid which seems likely. At one point I felt extremely dehydrated, like my tongue was so dry it would just fall off, so I carefully walked downstairs to get water. My parents were sitting on the couch watching a movie. I tried to hurry and get my water, almost threw up again, then swallowed my own vomit since I was determined to die that night. I went upstairs, drank water, and felt a horrible headache, as bad as a migraine. Thats when I decided to try and go to sleep and hopefully, not wake up. After some time, I woke up from me vomitting on my bed. At this point it just felt like being wasted but with no numbingness. I got up to go throw up in the toilet, then I dropped. It felt like I was having a seizure, though it was just my body convulsing. My head was jerking so violently that it continously slammed into everything possible, covering my head in bloody bruises. I couldn't control my body. I swear, I was screaming for help, the pain was so terrible that I wanted to get it overwith ASAP and feared that if I didn't get help, the pain would only last longer rather than waiting to die. My body felt like it was being stabbed, repeatedly and all I could do was helplessly watch. I swore I saw my girlfriend. Then suddenly I was out. Presumably, this was when I was dying. I felt nothing, it was darkness. Like before birth. Then I woke up in a hospital bed 2 days later, being pumped full of fluid. Turns out that my parents heard me convulsing, called 911, and took me to the ER. My digestive system shut down but eventually recovered. I stopped breathing right as I entered the hospital, so they barely saved my life. If a few minutes late, I wouldn't be here. My liver slightly recovered, but is severely damaged and effects me to this day. Even when I was recovering in the hospital, I still was having overdose symptoms. I wasn't able to stay conscious for more than 30 seconds at a time. My vision was severely warped, so I couldn't see. It took me a few weeks to be able to walk again because my loss of balance was still effecting me. I was covered in cuts, bruises, bumps and marks. I bit my tongue extremely hard during the overdose and that made it hard to eat. Also, regarding my digestive system shutting down, it took some time to be able to eat.

I don't want to sound dramatic. But it was the worst physical pain I ever felt, I don't know how to describe how horrible it was. I'm also not faking this story, either. If you don't plan things out 100%, it can be the worst experience of your life. I plan to OD in the future, but change a few plans up in order to make myself unconscious quicker due to the fact my conciousness is what made it so painful.

I am so sorry to hear you are struggling. Your decision is yours to choose, I just wish you a peaceful way out. Much love ♡

Wow, I am sorry to hear about this awful experience.
Can you tell me/us what meds you used that caused you to suffer this much?

 

[Mm80]

1st time was amazingly peaceful and lovely- stupid amounts of- lyrica oxy benzos - fell asleep woke up at hospital
2nd - v scary not good at all, beyond sad .. - lyquid oxy - was terrified called a friend.. .. .

I used Phenergan (Promethazine) as my anti emetic. I took 2 pills a couple of hours before taking my overdose. Then I took 6 pills 20 mins before my overdose. I then put roughly 600mg of Amitriptyline in a glass poured water on it and stirred it up then drank it. It was very bitter but not impossible to drink. I then took the rest of the pack of Phenergan to make up for the lack of Amitriptyline also I took a few codeine tablets too. I then washed it all down with a couple of double brandies. I don't drink alcohol so this was very strong for me. Also I have never took Amitriptyline or Phenergan. So the effects may have been stronger for me than someone who is use to the stuff I took. I went to bed and literally fell straight asleep. It didn't work because I was found about 12 hours later. I had expected not to be found till at least 20 hours later. Also I didn't have enough Amitriptyline to follow the PPH guide fully. I was found snoring really loudly my lips were blue and I was slavering. I had a nice dream at first. Then I had horrible hallucinations while recovering in hospital. I was throwing cups of water at the staff etc. but all in all the experience wasn't that bad. I suggest if you haven't reading the Amitriptyline method in the PPH.

Man

I used Phenergan (Promethazine) as my anti emetic. I took 2 pills a couple of hours before taking my overdose. Then I took 6 pills 20 mins before my overdose. I then put roughly 600mg of Amitriptyline in a glass poured water on it and stirred it up then drank it. It was very bitter but not impossible to drink. I then took the rest of the pack of Phenergan to make up for the lack of Amitriptyline also I took a few codeine tablets too. I then washed it all down with a couple of double brandies. I don't drink alcohol so this was very strong for me. Also I have never took Amitriptyline or Phenergan. So the effects may have been stronger for me than someone who is use to the stuff I took. I went to bed and literally fell straight asleep. It didn't work because I was found about 12 hours later. I had expected not to be found till at least 20 hours later. Also I didn't have enough Amitriptyline to follow the PPH guide fully. I was found snoring really loudly my lips were blue and I was slavering. I had a nice dream at first. Then I had horrible hallucinations while recovering in hospital. I was throwing cups of water at the staff etc. but all in all the experience wasn't that bad. I suggest if you haven't reading the Amitriptyline method in the PPH.

Yeah ive studied pph and a couple of otherr bits. I believe its about 8gms of amitryptyline needed to be fatal ive got that much, got anti enemics lots of benzos too. Maybe the promethazine caused the hallucinations etc because it used to be used as an anti psychotic i believe ?

 

[Timetodie90]

Man

Yeah ive studied pph and a couple of otherr bits. I believe its about 8gms of amitryptyline needed to be fatal ive got that much, got anti enemics lots of benzos too. Maybe the promethazine caused the hallucinations etc because it used to be used as an anti psychotic i believe ?

I wish I had all those pills you have. Due to overdosing and being found I have next to no pills to OD on. Promethazine is used to calm people down who are agitated. Not sure about it being used as an anti psychotic in the past.