Did you do all you could to improve your situation?

[Jess]

I did all i could. And nothing improved. My last resort is suicide. So did you do all you could? Did you go to psychologists?

 

[onthelastday]

I did everything I could do, I didn't go to psychologists, but I asked for help. I don't think there's anything that would help me, I've reached a state that I don't want to improve anymore, I just want the end of my life

 

[Jess]

I did everything I could do, I didn't go to psychologists, but I asked for help. I don't think there's anything that would help me, I've reached a state that I don't want to improve anymore, I just want the end of my life

I went to like 4 psychologists and 2 psychiatrists, homeopaths and other doctors. Don't really know what to do anymore.

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

Sometimes you get to the state where you once had hope, but all your trying has resulted in doors slammed in your face - so you give up. You're just done and spiritually, mentally and emotionally depleted. I'm particularly talking about the NHS MeNtAl HeAlTh SerViCeS.. I've researched and have approached them with a solution but I get nothing in return. Ask me last week, I would've said No, I haven't tried everything and who cares to be honest.

But now I am going to take matters into my own hands. Then I can say I've tried everything. Never been to any private care because I don't have that kind of money right now and am not in the state to make it either.

 

[Marktheghost]

I haven't even had the chance to do all I could because nobody's interested in helping me! Even the NHS won't listen to me!

I've done everything I can do without help from other people.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Probably not. I saw a couple of psychologists, didn't apply myself to any of the therapy they suggested. Then I saw a psychiatrist and was prescribed anti-depressants. I don't have the energy to try tbh. I just want a miracle to fix me at this point. A friend suggested TMS, but I'm too much of a miser to fork out the money for it, and though it sounds promising, it isn't guaranteed. I'm not even sure that any of my problems could be fixed with it, and I don't want to move on from the past.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

I'm trying lithium currently, will also try antidepressants, therapies among other things so I can get my euthanasia accepted. When the time is right I'll be ready to leave.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Nah, guess not. My SN is apparently good for at least two years so I can try to shift gears for a while.

 

[Hurt]

I tried and I'm actually doing my best but my life isn't improving. I feel frustrated and disappointed. I prefer to be dead rather than being trapped in this situation where everything I do to improve doesn't change anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have not tried as I know that nothing can help me and make me want to live. In a life like mine, wanting to die is perfectly rational. In my case, the problem is life itself. I simply do not like living. All I want to be is nothing. I just want death. I was perfectly fine not existing until I was forced to live. The truth is that I am simply not meant for this world.

 

[Under The Graveyard]

I have not tried as I know that nothing can help me and make me want to live. In a life like mine, wanting to die is perfectly rational. In my case, the problem is life itself. I simply do not like living. All I want to be is nothing. I just want death. I was perfectly fine not existing until I was forced to live. The truth is that I am simply not meant for this world.

I couldn't word this any better.

 

[Mr2005]

I did fuck all until it was too late

 

[fox_wannabe]

I have not tried as I know that nothing can help me and make me want to live. In a life like mine, wanting to die is perfectly rational. In my case, the problem is life itself. I simply do not like living. All I want to be is nothing. I just want death. I was perfectly fine not existing until I was forced to live. The truth is that I am simply not meant for this world.

true that.

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

I've sought help from four different professionals over the last 10+ years (no diagnosis outside of depression), I've followed all the action plans. I have a healthy diet, I don't smoke, drink or do drugs. I ensure I sleep well. I keep clean.

In terms of what I could do better, I could be more assertive with romantic partners and employers. I have no problem cutting off toxic friends but I take far more than my due from the former two which has made me extremely skittish in social situations and made me extremely lonely.

I think the problem is that life is brutal and its our job to distract ourselves adequately. In this, I've failed terribly.

 

[clown_17]

If I'm being honest with myself I think I'm too much of a coward to really face my trauma. I'm afraid to reintegrate the memories even though they're probably the one thing causing my issues. I just know I couldn't survive it. I barely survived living through them so there's no way a second re living would be possible. I do "engage" in therapy though. And I take meds. But it's all kind of insignificant because I'm not doing what I really need to do. I don't believe I'll ever be able to face the memories so I guess this is life

 

[eyes0nfire]

I did all i could. And nothing improved. My last resort is suicide. So did you do all you could? Did you go to psychologists?

I gave myself 12 months, from one birthday to another and promised I'd give it everything I could. The NHS have been wonderful and I don't doubt those teams try their best with little money or training but I think my issues are engrained from childhood and unfortunately this is how I am. My 12 months are coming up & im going to think slowly and logically to reflect on if I've done everything I can. Then I'll go from there x

 

[SleepDealer]

I am in the same boat as FuneralCry, in terms of how I feel about life. I did try to appreciate life though. Things like boyfriends, money, and puppies have not changed my mind. Nor have antidepressants. I felt this way long before any of my traumas, so I'm confident that this is just how my brain is.

Maybe there's something magical out there that can lead me to live in a world I want, but this place? Never. I was made for a world where people never had to debate whether or not it's okay to kill others for the color of their skin or for loving someone with the same biology. My world isn't populated by people diseased with the desire to hurt others.

Feel free to enjoy the shitty politics and numbers game that this world is known for. I'm going to keep daydreaming about my childlike utopia until I'm really there, or until my brain ceases to function.

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

I am in the same boat as FuneralCry, in terms of how I feel about life. I did try to appreciate life though. Things like boyfriends, money, and puppies have not changed my mind. Nor have antidepressants. I felt this way long before any of my traumas, so I'm confident that this is just how my brain is.

Maybe there's something magical out there that can lead me to live in a world I want, but this place? Never. I was made for a world where people never had to debate whether or not it's okay to kill others for the color of their skin or for loving someone with the same biology. My world isn't populated by people diseased with the desire to hurt others.

Feel free to enjoy the shitty politics and numbers game that this world is known for. I'm going to keep daydreaming about my childlike utopia until I'm really there, or until my brain ceases to function.

I relate a lot to this but I think it would be better for me to try and navigate this world I admittedly despise. Problem is each time I try, I get kicked in the guts and I don't seem to have an incentive to do so again. Everything normal folk aim for seem to be closed off to me.

 

[wannabesetfree]

Not really because unfortunately everything I want to do requires love and money neither of which I have. I've given up on any type of love so now my focus is somehow trying to earn enough money to CTB.

 

[deadverysoon]

no - but i dont give a fuck anymore

its simple:
i was threatened down and now im done

end of story

 

[ITSCHRISHERE123]

I did all i could. And nothing improved. My last resort is suicide. So did you do all you could? Did you go to psychologists?

My situation is getting better I guess. But my mental state is depleting I just can't seem to stop thinking about suicide…

 

[Pisceslilith]

I tried as a teen, went to like 3 or 4 psychiatrists (didn't help shit), all I got was invalidation and I basically paid 10 fucking dollars just for them to stare at me in silence, big waste of my time. I had so much hope back then, I tried meditating, reading the bible sometimes, spirituality, forcing myself to go outside despite my severe anxiety but that just made everything worse. Im definitely at the point now where I just don't give a fuck anymore. I wouldn't stay here, if things got better anyways. I don't care about this life anymore. Im over it all.

 

[patheticpartner]

No because I was too lazy/in denial. Now, I'm too far gone and suicide is preferable to a life of strife and dissimulation.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

I did try to go to psychologist and psychotherapist. Nothing has changed. I can't change the way I am or the way I think. I didn't try medication. I'm too old to try anything else. I'm too immature to take care of myself. I'm not worth "saving/fighting for".

 

[irememberinnocence]

I would say yes. Over the years I've done CBT, DBT, meditation, tried my best to work to improve my position in life (cannot work much), researched new medications for my diseases, gotten disability accomodation, participated in peer support, 12 step groups, called helplines, done various art forms for self expression, learned more about nutrition, advocated for myself in many different areas. But now I'm just done. Completely done. I'm so exhausted and broken internally that I don't even want to get better anymore. And get better from what, at the end of the day? Most of what I suffer from is not mental illness and it's not curable either. I can only manage my burdens and that means living with them longer, which I'm not prepared to do. On a very deep level my body and mind have said no now. I can't even digest my food properly anymore and I don't have the mental will to eat sufficiently. I want to be set free. I want to be at peace. My three decades feels like one long ultra endurance marathon, never able to rest, always breaking a sweat, always stumbling under the exertion.

 

[Painless_end]

I did 10 times more than I could and nothing has changed because of mental / neurobiological weakness.

So I do wish to die.

 

[Stuckaf2]

I did all i could. And nothing improved. My last resort is suicide. So did you do all you could? Did you go to psychologists?

Yes but somethings just can't be fixed